Well I had a good weekend minus the fact that my grandpa isn't doing well and has any where from a few days to a couple weeks at best. He was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and is on oxygen and all that stuff. My wife is a funeral director so its natural that she is already making plans for his departure, which sucks but is probably a smart thing to do. My grandma will not be in any condition to take care of all that stuff.
My grandpa was a carpenter/furniture maker by trade and always like to build things. In his younger days he was just like the guy from the Old Yankee workshop and could build pretty much anything in his garage. Today his workshop is silent and not a sound is made from his woodworking tools. Pieces of cherry wood, mahogany, and oak lay dormant in the corner, another future project that will never be made.
Today my grandpa lies in bed, on oxygen and needs to be cared for. He can't even go to the bathroom in privacy anymore and has to have someone wipe his ass for him. Its a horrible thing to get old. My grandpa never smoked a day in his life but here he is basically on his deathbed.
If I am to lose my grandpa, it is not going to change anything as far as me staying nicotine free, in fact it is only going to make it stronger. I will dedicate every single day to that hard working guy and one helluva man. I would ask for your prayers guys , but I am a realist and know its only a matter of time before he leaves us. Day 44 kstamp signing out.