A few have asked for this so here it is. This is what I posted in the July 14 and April 10 groups yesterday.
First, I want to apologize to my April 2010 quit brothers and all the others who helped me through the journey. I let you all down.
Yes, I am back posting a day 1. Yes, I made it to the HOF. Yes, I wrote the speech as well. So, knowing how this place works I owe everyone an explanation as to why I am back at day 1.
The main reason I am back posting at day 1 again is because I am an addict plain and simple. I know it. When I quit nicotine I supplanted it with alcohol. Started using it more and more, I did recognize I was doing this and started posting about it well past the HOF. Started posting day 1 with no alcohol etc...while still clean with the nicotine.
Well, I caved with the alcohol shortly thereafter and within a few months did the same with the dreaded nicotine. I was using both and not feeling good about myself at all.
A common statement is what your plan is and what is going to be different this time. My plan is to not use fake, alcohol or anything else my addict mind wants to find to fill in for the nicotine. I need to learn to be clean and not use substitutes with the exception of exercise and this site.
I humbly come before this group and ask you to accept me again. Many here may remember me. This is where I am
