I joined this board in November and found it to be extremely helpful. I made it a month and though the first week or so was really hard I started to find quitting got easier every day.
By the beginning of December, I found that it had become harder and harder to post in the morning and I quit visiting the board.
Even though I wasn't posting I was still staying quit. What I didn't realize at the time was that I was playing tricks on myself. Making myself believe that I had already beaten the monster.
By the middle of December, with my support network eroded. I found the conversations in my head becoming harder and harder to control and eventually caved.
I finished up college, as a dipper, and have begun my new job still a dipper. I kept justifying that " I would quit when I was more settled" That time has come and I find myself making more excuses to procrastinate the quit.
I'm not doing that anymore. Today, July 1, Is my first day of my last quit. This time I will post roll, This time I will stay quit.
to all those fucktards that think missing roll is okay, paddy here is a prime example of what happens if you blow off roll.
it starts with missing one here or there, then you go for a couple days at a time. pretty soon, you're posting roll when you happen to think of it, and not long thereafter, you're on your own without the support of your brothers and sisters here.
paddy, you say you "get it" now. that's great. but before i blow sunshine up your ass, you're going to have to prove yourself by being here every day... EARLY. this quit is the most important fucking thing in your life, so make some time for it even if it's inconvenient.
i'm going to be looking for you every day, and you better be there. i'm going to pm you my number and expect you to reply back with your number. it's time to do this right.
