Welcome; I'm going to be the a-hole in the bunch. If you want this quit to be the one it's time to begin getting the mind right.
It may mean that I am ready for this time to be THE time.
Get rid of may in this ^^^^^ sentence. This post indicates failure before the day is out.
I liked it too much--that rush/buzz when you have your first dip after a long stoppage... Honestly, that's one of the best feelings I've ever had. But I get that maybe 1 out of every 1000 chews and then only after going through painful physical withdrawal and powerful psychological cravings.
So let me get this straight. You like going through withdrawal only to start again for the buzz it brings!?!? If I was you I would read this statement again and again until you see what everyone else will see. This ^^^^ kind of thinking has to change. Let me fill you in on what you was really enjoying after a long stoppage.
You were getting the rush/buzz of death and failure. Right now you love the poison more than anything, including yourself, family and life itself. Think about how sad that is. You are believing lies my friend.
I could go through your intro and point out some more addict speak but I won't. Begin reading everything you can on nicotine/addiction. Time to start learning about this enemy. There is a lot of information on this site. Start replacing the lies with truths and you got a chance. Right now i wouldn't bet a nickle on it.
Read welcome center. Learn how and why we post roll. I've been proven wrong many times? Am I wrong about you? Roll would be a good start. How bad do you really want this?