IÂ’m from December 16Â’ quit group, my last dip was on September 14th, 2016, I had been addicted for over 25 years, I was not a ninja dipper and I always had a dip in from the time I woke up to the time I went to bed-this is not a special story here at KTC, this is a story that has been played out time and time again. I am writing this after being involved with KTC for 5 months, in those 5 months there has been pain, suffering, joy and happiness, my family has suffered a tragic loss by a death in the family, I have had financial gains and loss and more triggers than I could possibly count-not a special story here as this story is played out time and time again.
When I darkened the doors of KTC, I had the “want” and the “need”, just didn’t know the “how”, that’s the reason I came here, KTC didn’t come looking for me. Apparently I am kind of old school because when I ask someone for help, I don’t piss and moan if I think their approach is wrong, I don’t pretend I know a better way and I damn sure don’t bite the hands that help me, why come here looking for help if you feel the need to do any of those things.
The day I joined it was decided that I would “follow” the examples and the rules of the ones that came before me, why not, I came here and not the other way around. The way of posting roll to me was hard, I thought there’s got to be a better way, I fought through the fog and dizziness…made some mistakes but I figured it out, now its just a part of me and it made me a better man, like taking that dip first thing in the morning. Then there was the brutality of the site, I thought man these guys are tough on these poor quitters that missed roll or god help them…caved. There were times I thought maybe I don’t belong here, these guys are being assholes for no reason, I mean here is this poor quitter that missed a few days but came back, so why are they being so hard on him…Now that I have been here for 5 months, I get it. So to get back to my journey, I jumped into KTC with both feet, followed the rules, drank the Kool-Aid, whatever you want to call it that’s what I did. It was reasoned that many addicts had been here before me and their journey was a success, so if I followed the plan laid out before me, I to could be free from nicotine. So I did exactly that, from WUPP, to supporting other quitters in other groups, exchanged digits, chat room talk-the whole 9. The amazing thing about all this is that never, not one time ever did I have a “vet” jump in the middle of my shit, why, because I was doing the activities that were prescribed by the ones that come before me, the activities that have saved many addicts before me and will save many more after me. Some rookie quits always like to demonize the vets in here and not just to themselves, they want to make it public and brutal, they are unsuccessful for the most part as these same vets will give the shirts off their back for a quitter that follows the guidelines and we all know it. I am getting to be one of those vets, I have watched the same thing happen over and over again for December, January, February, March, April and May, some new quitter come in and thinks they are special, thinks they have a better way for this or that, thinks their voice should be heard above everyone else, thinks they should be held accountable at their convenience, thinks brotherhood only applies when they need it, thinks that they are in this just for themselves, thinks using KTC as they see fit is acceptable. Know this, understand this and accept this truth, when you found KTC and joined KTC, the only way to succeed here and beat your addiction is to follow the guidelines and the system, get involved with other quitters, be a support system for someone in need, be part of the solution and not another problem that none of us need in this fragile and difficult time, and for gods sake, don’t be one of those selfish and self important souls that constantly need to be hunted down to post roll, if are you that shallow that when others are texting, pm’ing or calling, you must think they have nothing better to do with their time than to chase you around-that’s ridiculous and shameful. We are all here fighting for our lives at some level, some have been quit for more days and some less, but make no mistake, we are all here for the same reason-quitting the addiction, and we do it one day at a time, every damn day. Understand and practice daily the recipe for success at KTC, Brotherhood+Accountability=Success, these are not just mere words, but words to live by-at KTC or in your everyday life.
