3 weeks without a dip (woohooo), it don't seem that long but sure enough it is. I dipped for 25 years, for me, my quit was not premeditated or thought through, I just quit when I received the fake stuff in the mail and found you guys. After 3 weeks the fog has lessened and my thinking is much better, now I think about my new life, what I mean is that there are people, hobbies and career that I never knew without a dip in. My wife has never known me without a dip, my daughter has never known me without a dip, I am a fishing and hunting guide-my own business that I started 18 years ago, and yes always with a dip. This last week I went out on my first couple hunting trips and had great success, my wife shot a giant Antelope and I got one of my biggest Mulies ever, that always called for a celebratory dip and my old buddy, that was always with me, was absent.
So instead of caving, I reached out to a couple guys on here with pics and a little celebratory texting...it worked.
I suppose its hard to say goodbye to an old friend that was always there for you, and for 25 years it was part of me, part of who I was and even as ridiculous as it sounds, in my mind I was more of a rough, outdoors "man" for doing it.
I'm not a pussy, never have been, I could go through all the reasons I am not and give countless examples of why I'm not, but maybe, just maybe, I was just a little bit of a pussy if I needed a can of this catshit to reinforce to myself and everyone around me that I was a "man".
Sadly, as the fog has left me, what I think about is as being a outfitter and guide, all the kids that have possibly looked up to me as a role model, and 1 of the things that I may have passed to them is this filthy addiction. I was never a closet dipper, it was always splayed loud and proud for everyone to know about, you know its a "manly" thing... what an ass hole I was.
So I need to say goodbye to a few things:
"The Lucky Dip"-Some of you know this one, take a dip when you want your luck to change, I used this one a lot fishing.
"The Celebratory Dip"-Self explanatory.
"The Stress Dip"-Again, self explanatory.
I used these 3 a lot in my life as reasons to dip, it was calming, familiar and to many of my great clients, it was expected. They would ask if I have my "lucky dip" in if things are slow...lol.
I proved to myself this last week with a couple of great and really memorable hunts that I can do this without my old friend in a can, and all I really need is my family at home and my family at KTC.
Thank you all.
