Welcome to the group and thank you for your service. All male members of my family (Except me)served in the military and seen active wartime/Police duty may it be Reserve, Guard units, Navy, Marine Corps. Kudos respect for you, what you do, and now quitting dip. Irish gave you the best advice. Post roll daily and renew your promise. Take it one day at a time. Breathe. We are all here for the support of one another.