My Journey Starts Now!

[Rick Jr]

For anyone that is interested there is a GroupMe chat for your group....Just another way to chat and communicate...the link is on your roll page....there is a few people on it....

Going to have to check that out!

[Justin J]

For anyone that is interested there is a GroupMe chat for your group....Just another way to chat and communicate...the link is on your roll page....there is a few people on it....

[Rick Jr]

Question for my May 19 Brothers

Anyone interested in a Facebook Group?

Rule 1. It will not take place of KTC at all, we still post roll, we still keep in contact via PM, text etc. but adds another place we can support each other. Just an idea I had while at work.

I could make it up, if you have your profile set to private you are still private, we would just have another place to hang and support. Let me know

[mre]

Thanks for taking the lead Rick Jr. I am OK with the name as is. I am available to help as well if you need anything. It is an honor to quit with all you fine gentlemen. Stay strong!

[Zeus]

You guys should delegate the work. Get 5 people. Have each of those 5 responsible for making contact with a list of 4, 5, 6, 7 other quitters in the group. Make an introduction. Give numbers - request numbers. Make 100% contact. No man gets left behind. Some might resist getting involved. Draw them out. At the very least, they can't say they didn't have anyone to call. This could get done today or tomorrow. Let's hear a progress report of the % contacted tomorrow.

[BrianD]

Hey all,

I am happy to be in this quit with the rest of you, this website has gotten me through a lot of craves.  Happy to help any brothers in our May group if you wanna chat or text it out, PM me.  I'm doing pretty ok, some days better than others, but I continue to surprise myself.  I've never gotten this far and I feel great.   Every day is a fight but with the right state of mind we can all get through this. 

[Dawgs]

I am game to do whatever we need to. I am only on day two as MEMBER of the site, day 21 as a quitter. I have a tendency to be more like the vets and be pretty hardcore and heavy handed with people. However...if nothing else...this quit has taught me patience and gentleness, while still being firm. We are badass...personally, I love the name. However, I am also not butthurt if we want to change it. I too had a really rough day. I had to reach out to a couple of folks(UncleRico & eschmit04...thank you). The only way we can beat this is with determination and support of one another. I think if we are here, together, fighting the same battle...we will kill it...ODAAT...TOGETHER. I am totally available to anyone. I’ll be damned if someone breaks because I wasn’t available. I realize we all have a choice to make, but that choice is never made until it is made. I’ll support whatever the group wants.

[Rick Jr]

Hey Brothers,

I wanted to do this away from the Vets Eyes. Listen they have been pretty hard on us. I get it with being a Firefighter and was a Military hopeful before a car accident took that dream away from me.

I have somehow become the "Leader" of the May 19 Quit Group in the eyes of the Vets, while I don't mind that "Title" I wanted to get us all together and work some stuff out.

1. If you guys need Digits lets share them, I had a scary moment today and the Vets and AW helped me out of it today. Something I am thankful for, as no one has to care about me, but they do.
If you guys want lets swap digits and get a group text going, it will help us stick together. 802-XXX-XXXX are mine.

2. Our name. The Masters of Mayhem is kind of cool, but we had some others. Lets nail that name down before Friday, Lets Vote on it and stick to it, Again it don't have to have MAY in it at all.

3. Lets figure out leadership, not that it is really needed, but it would be good to have a little structure, I have all your backs, We are a kick ass group.

4. Caving, we have had a few people slip up. The Vets were a bitch to you. Listen this shit is not easy, We are all under a lot of stress, some are handling it better then others.  I have once quit for a Year & a half, that little "One Dip won't hurt" is Bullshit. Now we are all working hard, and I don't want people to cave, use the digits and the group to get passed it. Give in now and you are Posting day 1 in June, and while I will still be here for you if you cave, and I won't think less of you because we are all Human, but we are only as strong as our weakest link.

Lets show these Motherfuckers we are not a bunch of Shit heads, Lets get May 19 to the top of even the best past group, let unite and become #1 because we are Badass! Lets use my Intro as a "Homebase" the link is below. We can only PM 10 People at a time so the Intro will be the best place to get our shit together then we can use our Roll page once everything is figured out! Lets become the KTC Band of Brothers and show these guys we have what it take!

Proud to be quit with you today!

Rick Jr

Edit: So it Seems we can only send PM's to 10 people at a time so I will be sending out 3 PM's as we have 22 people in the group. To make it easier lets use my Intro as a meeting place until we figure out something better. I will repost this PM in my intro at https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=1029.0

Justin J
Mlovell336
Killshot
AWright2262
closetdipper
Delahunt
eschmit04
sweetrice80
nate67
quittinAg
2ndTimeAround
VMan
Barney1977
crich
Gunnar
Jonathan b
BrianD
Scott_B
TomA9003
TomC

Need to send PM to below member at 1800 2/25/19
mre
Dawgs

[Rick Jr]

Day 34. I was going to wait til I got home to write this, but I need to do it asap. First Thank you God for my Brothers that I was able to reach out too, this afternoon was crazy..

I haven't had Chinese food since my quit. A little bit due to the fact the shit ain't good for you, and my diet has taken a hit since the start of my quit, but I also stayed away because I use to love a lipski after Chinese..

I figured "Hey you're on Day 34, treat yourself"
Well all was great while I was eating, then I finished, and walked out to my truck. My first thought was food poisoning.. but the Fog rolled in like a Storm at Sea, I was shaking, sweating even though it is 25 and very windy.. I honestly started to cry a little.. I did something I was praying I never had to do, because I'm a "Man" and I felt bad because what if some of the brothers didn't want their digits to go out to others?.

I made a quick group text with most everyone I had digits for, I told them what was going on, I sent it and said shit, what if they didn't want their digits to go out? That added to my anxiety attack I was having.. fearful that I just fucked up.

But my Brothers where there for me, calming me down, telling me to take a walk, pound the water as it could have been the increase of salt, words of encouragement... no ball busting, no bitching.

You saved me today Brothers, I wouldn't have caved, but damn I was scared. I have ran into burning buildings as a firefighter, seen things no one should have to see as an EMT, but I was scared as hell this afternoon.

I was able to get back to work, pounded 2 of my 40oz water bottles and felt a bit better.. I reached for my Smokey Mountain and calmed myself down..

Folks if you are reading this please know our fight will never end. The Nic Bitch is real and she is mean. Take it from me, get the digits of the Vets and those on your group and do not be afraid to use them. The folks that reached out to calm me are Angels and Heroes.

As a "Man" I hate bothering others with my issues, I was raised to deal with them myself, today I am blessed I am not alone.

I quit once for a year and a half, this time around it is harder... I'm an addict and I need help and today I got that, and I'm thankful.

[Rick Jr]

Man I had forgotten all about the "throw one in, pull it out after 10 mins because it was disgusting, only to throw another in after 5 minutes again thing"  Almost like my body was on autopilot.  I like your attitude, your style, and your leadership in your group.  You're really stepping up in a big way!  Proud to be quit with you.

Thank you Sir, and Thank you for the Support, it really means a lot! Proud to be quit with you today!

[Broccoli-saurus]

Man I had forgotten all about the "throw one in, pull it out after 10 mins because it was disgusting, only to throw another in after 5 minutes again thing"  Almost like my body was on autopilot.  I like your attitude, your style, and your leadership in your group.  You're really stepping up in a big way!  Proud to be quit with you. 

[Rick Jr]

So it's been a bit since I posted. Here I am on Day 31..

A bit of reason I have not posted is due to the fact I didn't want to dwell on it all. I managed the Suck like I do most problems in my life, By myself. I did have outstanding Support from the Vet's and it means a lot that they care. They don't know me, don't owe me anything, but they take that minute out of their day to show support, that was cool. I have passed a lot of digits around with my May Group, a couple have used them, AW and I are pretty tight and that's cool.

May 19 Our group is a bit crazy, but it keeps it fun, But if any of you read this and need someone, toss me a pm and my digits are yours, same goes for any groups that come along.

So yeah Day 31, damn a Month! I would be excited, but I have done a 1.5 year Self quit before, I know it's not done, hell it will never be "Done" I have had times were I wanted to say "Screw it, no one will know" and thought about tossing in the towel, but then I remembered, I have other folks dealing with the same shit I am, they are doing it, and I can too.. I didn't want to let the guys down, and I didn't. I'm not a Quitter in life, was raised to work hard, and work through issues on my own. I don't like to think I am quitting Dip, I'm just learning how great life was before dip.

I haven't posted because I didn't want to dwell, I wanted to embrace the Suck, Learn from it, Shit I was ready to quit my Job, because of dip as it is a huge trigger for me, I dipped because I was bored at work, I learned to find things to do in the slow times, I drew my line in the "Sand" got to 3pm and then it was off to get my girls from school, before I knew it, it was time to WUPP. Drive to work, make it to 10, make it to 1, make it to 3 rinse and repeat.

But here I am at 31, Each Day is getting better. I did what I always do, Dropped $50 on Cowboy Coffee Chew, got sick of it by the 4th can, Ordered some Smokey Mountain, works a bit better and ordered more, but I am getting to the point I don't even want to use that..

Stay strong folks, it does get better, I have learned to take a walk, drink shit tons of water, to get past the shitty moments and you will to. If you need support, Reach out I got your back

[EnuffSnuff]

Day 8 1/30/19 I skipped posting yesterday. I honestly had an outstanding day! Day 7 Sucked so I was surprised, and since I had such a great day as a reward I slacked on posting here. I had no issues what so ever, felt like my old self! It was a blessing.


Day 9 Baby!!! 1/31/19

Today started a little iffy, I had the old fog brain this morning driving into work, but I am starting to embrace it and even enjoy it a little. I have been really paying attention to these shitty feelings, I'm making sure I remember the suck, and I never want to go through it again. I almost had a slip up today, one of my customers came in and asked if I was still quitting, I told his yes, and it has been ok, the headache was dull so he asked me if I wanted some gum.. I was taking a break from seeds because they are cutting up my mouth worse then dip and I have a little sore on my tongue. He shook out a coupe pieces from one of those cupholder type containers, I almost tossed it in my mouth and asked if it was Nicotine Gum.... It was so I gave it back. Glad I missed that bullet, he was trying to be nice, I told him about our site here, and it got him to also try to quit, I explained how he needs to do it cold turkey, and gave him the KTC address. We will see what he does for it. I still support his journey, even if it is another path.

All in all I am home, having some tea, and reading to my girls. Embrace the day Brothers & Sisters. I am so happy to see all the new Members! If any of you read this, if you need digits hit me up please!

Proud to be quit with you all today!

Rick, very proud you turned down the gym and proud to quit with you today. Any time I get the urge, I chew the seeds, and yes my mouth got tore up as well with them, but beats cancer. If coming from the April BAQ’s team and support May. You got this an I’ve PMd you my digits. If you ever need some motivation, return your digits and I help keep you honest. ODAAT.

[Rick Jr]

Day 8 1/30/19 I skipped posting yesterday. I honestly had an outstanding day! Day 7 Sucked so I was surprised, and since I had such a great day as a reward I slacked on posting here. I had no issues what so ever, felt like my old self! It was a blessing.


Day 9 Baby!!! 1/31/19

Today started a little iffy, I had the old fog brain this morning driving into work, but I am starting to embrace it and even enjoy it a little. I have been really paying attention to these shitty feelings, I'm making sure I remember the suck, and I never want to go through it again. I almost had a slip up today, one of my customers came in and asked if I was still quitting, I told his yes, and it has been ok, the headache was dull so he asked me if I wanted some gum.. I was taking a break from seeds because they are cutting up my mouth worse then dip and I have a little sore on my tongue. He shook out a coupe pieces from one of those cupholder type containers, I almost tossed it in my mouth and asked if it was Nicotine Gum.... It was so I gave it back. Glad I missed that bullet, he was trying to be nice, I told him about our site here, and it got him to also try to quit, I explained how he needs to do it cold turkey, and gave him the KTC address. We will see what he does for it. I still support his journey, even if it is another path.

All in all I am home, having some tea, and reading to my girls. Embrace the day Brothers & Sisters. I am so happy to see all the new Members! If any of you read this, if you need digits hit me up please!

Proud to be quit with you all today!   

[Rick Jr]

I enjoyed reading your story Rick.  Work is a trigger for me as well.  Let me know if you need any help.

Thank you Kerby I am here for you as Well!

Chris, Thank you my friend, you have been a huge ass help in all of this Brother, it means a lot!