My story is similar to your Tompan. Been hiding my use for years. Wife always knew i did it a little bit, but she has never know how much I was dipping. Hid from family, friends, coworkers that didn't dip, and hell even hid it from some coworkers that did dip. Becoming ashamed more and more that i was addicted and couldn't stop. Always hiding cans everywhere. Today is my day 1. I need to go home tonight and check all the stash spots, toss all the hidden empty cans. Like someone else said, no more excuses for stopping by the local gas station. No more late night, early morning "errands that have to be ran". Crazy some of the crap that I pulled just to get a fix. Even while on family vacations, weddings, funerals. Did some stupid shit.