Eschmit04 - my journey

[chris2alaska]

One day at at time. One foot in front of the other. Everyday it gets better. As many have said I will have a string off great days then wake up one morning to a familiar foggy or anxious feeling. But it seems to pass a little faster than the last time.

Irritability seems to be getting better, or I'm getting better at controlling it.

37 days in and I realize what everyone means when they say you brain has to learn the new normal. Some days, some situations, hobbies, other habits (good or bad) all are "different" than they used to be.

Stressful situations are challenging to me. I used to handle stress well. Used to fight fire, rescue etc. I find myself having to work harder to stay calm, and also find myself having to think harder or focus more then in the past.

I want to say thank you to EVERYONE here. For the support, for sharing you quits, for sharing your experience. It means a lot. I know I'm not the most active member but I have reached out to a few as a needed, shared some digits, and am always here for anyone.

Side note* am I allowed to change the subject of my post? Seems kinda irrelevant at this point.

You can do whatever you want in your intro.

Your calmness will improve over time as well as your ability to focus and concentrate.  You're doing great.  Keep it up.

Proud to quit with you,

Chris

[Rick Jr]

I am damn proud of you and honored to be in the Masters of Mayhem with you. Every day seems to get better, yes we all have those bad days but we work though them.

Keep up the awesome work Brother. Proud to quit with you today and every damn day.

[eschmit04]

One day at at time. One foot in front of the other. Everyday it gets better. As many have said I will have a string off great days then wake up one morning to a familiar foggy or anxious feeling. But it seems to pass a little faster than the last time.

Irritability seems to be getting better, or I'm getting better at controlling it.

37 days in and I realize what everyone means when they say you brain has to learn the new normal. Some days, some situations, hobbies, other habits (good or bad) all are "different" than they used to be.

Stressful situations are challenging to me. I used to handle stress well. Used to fight fire, rescue etc. I find myself having to work harder to stay calm, and also find myself having to think harder or focus more then in the past.

I want to say thank you to EVERYONE here. For the support, for sharing you quits, for sharing your experience. It means a lot. I know I'm not the most active member but I have reached out to a few as a needed, shared some digits, and am always here for anyone.

Side note* am I allowed to change the subject of my post? Seems kinda irrelevant at this point.

[AppleJack]

This too shall pass.

You’re creating a new normal and... that’s not normal. Nicotine fucked normal up and left it bleeding in the dirt.

Power through, man. This place is the right place to hunker down and get through this initial suck. Pretty soon... I can’t say when because it’s waaaaaay different for everyone... you’ll start getting glimpses of your new freedom. Then more. Then more. Before you know it, you’ll realize it’s been days/hours/weeks since you had a legit craving.

It gets better.
And it keeps getting better.
That’s no bullshit, man.
Freedom comes at a cost so pay the price right now AND the payoff is its evolution... it gets better with age.

Trust me.
2,137 days and I’m thankful and love it every damn day.

[mayfly]

The struggle is odaat, that's all.  Some days will be good, some bad.  Remember, this is a marathon and life will go on so we need to learn to cope with what life throws at us.  You're doing great!  IQWYT

[eschmit04]

Thanks for the support guys. And I know it will pass eventually. Just so hard to upset the people that are trying to support you. Especially when my two year old came into my room, said sorry and asked if I was ready to come finish my dinner....

[Hilltop]

God I hate nicotine. I hate Copenhagen. I hate that I thought I was ever tougher than it is. I hate lashing out at my family especially my two year old because I can't handle my own temper during this quit. I'm still quit. I'll never go back but I hate this part.

Keep at it brother, somewhere somebody smarter than me said “this too shall pass”. It was good to chat with you today, hit me up anytime.

[Gunnar]

God I hate nicotine. I hate Copenhagen. I hate that I thought I was ever tougher than it is. I hate lashing out at my family especially my two year old because I can't handle my own temper during this quit. I'm still quit. I'll never go back but I hate this part.

I know exactly what you mean. 4 and 1 for me and can’t stand myself sometimes. I know it will pass but it sure poses me off. Stay strong.

[eschmit04]

God I hate nicotine. I hate Copenhagen. I hate that I thought I was ever tougher than it is. I hate lashing out at my family especially my two year old because I can't handle my own temper during this quit. I'm still quit. I'll never go back but I hate this part.

[eschmit04]

Thanks guys! I woke up this morning pretty proud of how far I have come in my Quit! I know there is no going back for me.

Anxiety has been a lot better. A little bit of exercise goes a long way for me. Also I cut back on my caffeine intake and I think that helped as well.

I generally don't drink much during the week, But I did drink a fair amount over the weekend with the family while we were painting. I will be curious if the anxiety creeps up today.

It is so nice to be able to come to a place like this and talk to so many people that have experienced quitting chewing.

[Hilltop]

I said some other stuff, but decided I didn’t like the way sounded. Bottom line, you’re kicking ass, and doing it right by being involved here. I’ve had similar issues with anxiety, during my quit there have been moments where I’m having to really buckle down.
 Honestly did really well at first, day 30ish had some of the things you described, short of breath, mind moving a lot.
 I know I Pmd you this already, but in case anyone else can relate I’ll put it here to. Alcohol really seemed to intensify my anxiety, not just when drinking but the next day also. I’ve decided to not drink for a while because of that.

[mayfly]

3 weeks is badass!  Congrats.  You might be having sleep issues, and if so that is normal.  How are your anxiety issues?  Just remember that most of us addicts used nic to help with anxiety and stressful situations.  Until we work out how to deal with life without nic, you might feel stressed out in certain situations.  Most important thing is to post roll every day like your life depended on it, well, because it does!  Anyways, you have my digits, I'll see ya on roll! 

mayfly

[Batdad]

1 intro per quitter please!

I merged the 3 you had into 1

Thanks and keep quitting!!

-batdad

[FLLipOut]

That's great, eschmit!  Keep it up.  It will get better.  Then you'll have some crappy days again.  Then much better again.  It really is a journey, but you are definitely on your way. 

[eschmit04]

Thank you both for the replys. I would not say I'm worried as much as curious and trying to understand. The 4 month mark is atleast something for me to look forward to.

Today was much better. I walked about a mile and a half on my breaks. And drank less coffee only about a half a cup compaired to my 2+ cups. That is an interesting point fllipout about the caffine being more effective.

I will not hesitate to ask my doctor if I feel it is getting out of control. The only reason I come to you guys (I know your not doctor's) but I also know there are a lot of bad ass quitters here that have first hand experienced the effects of quitting chewing A LOT of nicotine. Some things most Drs would not understand.