Hi all,
This is a very belated intro as I'm currently on day 59, but I wanted to give a proper intro and carve out a piece of my own space on the forum. I'm kickin-wing and I started chewing at 18. Sort of a late bloomer compared to a lot of people, my father chewed since he was 13 until about 35, which kept me off it growing up. I started throwing his cans away when I was about 12, which motivated him to quit. Imagine that, I was smarter as a kid than I was as an adult.
I used dipping as a heavy study aid in college, and as a driving aid on long trips home, and as a relaxation tool, and as a crutch for basically everything you can think of. I've hid it from my family for a decade, I hid it from every girlfriend I ever had, I hid it from most of my friends with the exception of roommates and other people who chewed. Like many I always said, tomorrow, next week, next month, it will be a better time and I'll quit. When exams are over, when I get a job, when the job slows down, I'll quit.
I tried switching to pouches to control my intake and cut down. All that did was teach me to hide it better in my mouth and not have to clean up after. I was so good at ninja dipping I had no accountability, nobody to tell me to cut it out. So what brought me here? I had been wanting to quit for years, and recently my gf and I started getting some supplemental insurance, looking at life insurance. I started googling how to beat a nicotine test. Then I took a minute and looked at myself. "I'm a fraud," I thought. How many people do I need to deceive, lie to, cheat?
I looked at the forums, saw the accountability, the tough love, the embracing of the suck. After a couple of days, I couldn't just quit for 1 more day alone. I posted my first roll, got my first digits, and have just been trying to make it One Day At A Time. Thanks to everybody who has helped me make it this far, looking forward to tomorrow.
-Kickin-wing
