QUOTING is the only option

[pab1964]

Jpete you should know the roll. Post roll in Jan 17. Answer the 3 caver questions in your new group and find your old group and do the same. Be prepared to catch hell for caving but man up drink the koolaid and get your quit going. Also this is not a habit it's an awful addiction I quit with you today!

[Jpete328]

So I return here today to quit this habit for good. I have been here before three years ago and made it to day 40 or so! I stopped at that point because i thought i was over it and that i would never take another dip again. That lasted three days. On the golf course with my brother for his bachelor party what harm would come from one little dip? But once i took that one next thing i knew i was buying a tin and hiding it and then i didn't care anymore and was back to full fledged dipping. i was going through a can of cope every two days! In the three years since i have tried going cold turkey many times and never make it longer than two weeks or so. This post is hard to write because you realize that all the blame is on yourself. I can make all the excuses I want but at the end of the day its my choice to go back. I want to quit and I want to be accountable! I'm tired of being tired with quitting. I have grown to despise dipping and yet i still can't quit. I chose to quit for myself! My wife has asked me many times so many i can't remember now to quit for her and the kids. And every time i would try and quit for them i would fail! Until you are ready to truly quit for yourself and you want to quit it doesn't matter! Its so weird to write this as my father is a raging alcoholic and i use to argue and fight with him so much saying you can take control of this and quit and it always fell on deaf years. Yet here i am needing to take my own advice and can't do it. So I have returned here to QUIT for myself and to once and for all be rid of this awful habit. I know it won't be easy and the journey is long. But the one thing i know from my short time here in the past is that posting roll everyday and being account able to yourself and those here truly helps this process become almost tolerable. So i'm here to take all the blame for my past failures and prove to myself and those here i have quit for good. So please don't hesitate to reach out to me good bad or indifferent i can take it and in some way need it.