Well I just took what I hope was my last dip out of my cheek.
I've been dipping since I was fifteen with a short hiatus once I started dating my current girlfriend two years ago. Last October she and I got in a major fight and the temptation was too great, so I started again. Since then I've basically gone on a binge of dipping, sometimes finishing a can in a matter of hours, all without her knowing. Though I know she suspects.
To clarify I'm doing this for me, not her. Maybe a mix of "us" in there but mostly because I want to live to see the children and grandchildren I may have one day. I'm 22 and I don't want my life to be dictated by a $5.49 can of Skoal.
I don't get it. It doesn't even taste good but I can't go 4 hours without it. Morning, lunch, and before bed, unless I'm out with the guys then there's on in just about constantly. I mean what am I doing? I'm going to school to be a dentist for gosh sake I should know better.
The way I see it a quarter of my life has been consumed by the can and I know I may not be in as deep as most, but I want to kick it now before it does any more damage than it already has.
I'm getting about 4 cans a week. My immediate inspirations to quit right now are to flush my system so I can finally be healthy, and to set aside the money I would spend weekly in an envelope and save up to get the girl that "special ring" they all dream of. As cheesy as that may be.
I'd like to say I think it's awesome there's a community like this. Because I know tomorrow the temptation will be great and I will be irritable. But I am not going to put this off. I need to quit and make it stick. If anyone needs encouragement, I'm right there with y'all. In ready to be clean and healthy again like I used to.
Funny thing is I started because my buddies did it and I thought all the cute "redneck" girls would like me. Yeah, that didn't work..
-Chase