Mile High Quit

[boots on]

MHD!
congrats on your HOF day!!
I am proud of you and quit with you today!

congrats MHD...keep posting +1.

Quit on Smart Ass-tro! Way to go.

[walterwhite]

MHD!
congrats on your HOF day!!
I am proud of you and quit with you today!

congrats MHD...keep posting +1.

[ChickDip]

MHD!
congrats on your HOF day!!
I am proud of you and quit with you today!

[brettlees]

Hey Mile High- i see you doing some things really well.....

You're logging your experience here- that helps others help you as you go, it helps other quitters see some of their experience in what you go through, and it will help you remember how far you've come and what you never want to go through again as your quit gets longer. Keep it up man, that's great to do!

Keep building out a network for accountability and support- in your class, via PM's here, via texts, via phone calls, in person meets, etc. It all helps!

Finally, keep learning about the enemy you are facing. The more you know about how the addiction works, the more ready you are for the sneaky b.s. it throws your way.

Proud to be quitting with you and in full support from just a bit north of the Mile High city!

[MileHighDunks]

No reward dips, ever!!! What kind of reward would that be? (Like getting a bag of shit from Santa clause.)
My kids are older than you and I started dipping a decade before you were born. So take some fatherly advice; being a Addict is defined as someone that tries to hide using poison from those that they love. I was a ninja dipper because I knew my family would disapprove and I even disapproved but couldn't man-up and gain control. I was a slave.
I'll quit with you everyday your name is on roll.

Exactly! That's why the thought troubles me because I don't want to get to day 100 and still have that thought! Making small changes each day but they will add up to HUGE changes by 100! Meditation and visualization has worked for me but no matter how much I try the SUCK is still hanging around.

Ha Ninja dipper...I was the same way. The only people that knew I was addicted, my wife and my best friend. It's been hard because during this quit, I want to reach out to my family and talk to them but I'm not ready for their tough love. HA. I can take it from this group but from my mom...I'm not too sure. The thing is, my mom stresses me out like crazy! She is a trigger at times! Might be a double edge sword with her.

[basshaug]

As these guys said, it gets better, much, much better. The nic bitch is thrashing about in your head right now because she senses you are serious. You've get her pinned down, but make sure to keep your foot on her throat. She will change her tactucs many times in the coming days, weeks, and months. What's important is to continue to do what works and just face it as it comes one day at a time.

Keep it up, brother. Quit with you.

[Wt57]

No reward dips, ever!!! What kind of reward would that be? (Like getting a bag of shit from Santa clause.)
My kids are older than you and I started dipping a decade before you were born. So take some fatherly advice; being a Addict is defined as someone that tries to hide using poison from those that they love. I was a ninja dipper because I knew my family would disapprove and I even disapproved but couldn't man-up and gain control. I was a slave.
I'll quit with you everyday your name is on roll.

[Copper12]

There are so many thoughts going through my head. Mainly the big one is fuck this! Fuck being quit! Fuck working my ass off to still feel like shit which all could be fixed with one thing. Of course this is all talk in my head. The other side of this conversation is don't you fuckin do it! I will skull fuck you if you pick up a tin! It's just never ending. At least it feels that way.

For me, the evenings are the worst part of my day. Cravings, anxiety, and riding the edge of a rage breakdown. I go all day and I'm so psyched that I'm killing it! I am the quit! Theeeeeennnnnnn after dinner hits and I feel back to square one. Yes, I know, I'm on day 5 well 6 technically. Seeds, fake, and taking myself away have been my go to. It's hard, it's a huge kick in the balls. Like scoring a touchdown to we the game and video review calls you back to the 1! Haha

Next question, in my head one thought that keeps standing out is, yeah after X amount of days your reward will be dip! I find this very troubling because I don't want that! I used to "reward" myself with dip here and there but this is a tough one. I typically try and correct that thought with my reward of taking my family on a vacation with the money saved. Head games? Or something I need to take some extra steps?

Stay strong my friend! It does get better, and I'm living proof with 103 days quit! I chewed for almost 20 years, and ended with a can and sometimes more a day! The mental games are the toughest, but you are here for a reason, so lean on all of us to get you through the SUCK! The head games do get better, trust me! And yes, use your money you would have spent on dip to reward yourself!

[MileHighDunks]

There are so many thoughts going through my head. Mainly the big one is fuck this! Fuck being quit! Fuck working my ass off to still feel like shit which all could be fixed with one thing. Of course this is all talk in my head. The other side of this conversation is don't you fuckin do it! I will skull fuck you if you pick up a tin! It's just never ending. At least it feels that way.

For me, the evenings are the worst part of my day. Cravings, anxiety, and riding the edge of a rage breakdown. I go all day and I'm so psyched that I'm killing it! I am the quit! Theeeeeennnnnnn after dinner hits and I feel back to square one. Yes, I know, I'm on day 5 well 6 technically. Seeds, fake, and taking myself away have been my go to. It's hard, it's a huge kick in the balls. Like scoring a touchdown to we the game and video review calls you back to the 1! Haha

Next question, in my head one thought that keeps standing out is, yeah after X amount of days your reward will be dip! I find this very troubling because I don't want that! I used to "reward" myself with dip here and there but this is a tough one. I typically try and correct that thought with my reward of taking my family on a vacation with the money saved. Head games? Or something I need to take some extra steps?

[Thumblewort]

Just a tip, when you are raging mad, bring it here and call me a dickhead. I'd rather you bring your anger here then on your family, and trust me, we have ALL been there and had out moments on these boards.

[13usted]

Thanks for all the help!

I had my wife pick up some seeds because I didn't want to go into the gas station...too big of a temptation. I have tried to hide this from my wife in the past and it never works. So this time she is on my team and we are doing this together. For me, the hardest part is thinking about it nonstop. I don't really have the crazy withdrawal symptoms, but I just can't stop thinking about it.

What if instead of cold turkey just have one less a day until I don't have any more...
What if I just have one to take the edge off...
I should get some since I don't want to be mean to my family...

Shit like this all day! I know that I'm only on day 2 and I should be dealing with headaches and things that like but I feel like I've jumped right to day 4-20 with the head games. I Think the thing that is helping me is that I keep telling myself that I have a choice. My choice is to not dip. My choice is to not buy it. My choice is to be stronger than I was yesterday.

Yeah, I didn't have any physical issues either, but the head game from the get go. It's human nature alone that desires what it can't have, then you throw in the nicotine addiction and its hell. We quit one day at a time brother, we make a promise to each other and promise every morning. If you struggle, your fellow bad ass quitters in April 2016 Pre-HOF will be there for you. If you need more than this site, ask for some phone numbers and more than one of us I'm sure will share so you can have someone shake you straight before you stick more of that poison in you. Let me know if you need anything.

[MileHighDunks]

Thanks for all the help!

I had my wife pick up some seeds because I didn't want to go into the gas station...too big of a temptation. I have tried to hide this from my wife in the past and it never works. So this time she is on my team and we are doing this together. For me, the hardest part is thinking about it nonstop. I don't really have the crazy withdrawal symptoms, but I just can't stop thinking about it.

What if instead of cold turkey just have one less a day until I don't have any more...
What if I just have one to take the edge off...
I should get some since I don't want to be mean to my family...

Shit like this all day! I know that I'm only on day 2 and I should be dealing with headaches and things that like but I feel like I've jumped right to day 4-20 with the head games. I Think the thing that is helping me is that I keep telling myself that I have a choice. My choice is to not dip. My choice is to not buy it. My choice is to be stronger than I was yesterday.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Welcome. Go to the main page and read the welcome center. Get this quit signed and sealed.

[brunwardo]

Hello!

I've been on a can a day of mint pouches for about 10-11 years...today is my day one. So far it's gone pretty well. I've been a lurker on here for about a week or two which gave me the courage to make this happen. The community seems really great.

About me, I played lacrosse in college in Utah and ended up transferring out to ASU in AZ. I'm married with 2 boys and we live in Denver. I was recently laid off from a commercial real estate job that was pretty great and so now I'm Mr. Mom during the day. I enjoy pretty much all sports and feel like I can talk to anyone about anything.

On my day one a few things I've noticed, I'm wicked tired. I think I've taken about 3 naps today. Is this normal? I can tell I'm already irritable but I've been trying to keep a positive mindset so I don't blow up on my kids. I look forward to talking with you all!

Oh where is this roll call deal I'm supposed to sign?
Thanks!!

Congrats on the wonderful life choice. You'll read that a lot of guys experienced trouble sleeping, I had just the opposite. 30+ days into my quit, I'm still very sleepy most days. The first week, I was falling asleep by 8pm at night when I'm usually up until 10:30-11pm.

[ChristopherJ]

Glad to have you here Brian. If you have been lurking for a while you should know how things work here - get over into April and post roll. Don't worry about the sleepiness. You have been poisoning your body for over a decade - it will take a few days for the nicotine to burn itself off and cleanse your system. Drink as much water as you can and get ready for some battles - one day at a time. You can do this and you are in the right place. it will get so much better.