18 APRIL 2010
So I've been quit over 70 days. BFD. Soldiers die every day and my battle is with dip. I don't run around telling everyone who knew I dipped that I quit. Oh everyone knew. I was no NINJA. :ph43r: I was proud, someone who could give a fuck what anyone thought. What do they know... turns out they knew a lot. A lot more than me. But now, when they find out I've been quit, or ask me if I'm still dipping...I gotta say they are all proud of me for not dipping. hahahahaurns out I looked like a giant tool. 'Crazy' THIS FUELS MY QUIT
Lately every day is a douche fest..my temper is so fucking thin. I've been trying to contain it. But I'm not using tobacco so it's all good. It comes in waves and it gives me tons of opportunities to work on patience. Somedays my head is spinning... 'help' THIS FUELS MY QUIT
1 month ago...So, I see a friend of mine at work who dips. I walk into his office and pull out a tin of Hooch (fake). He's like "Hell yea lets dip!" I tell him that I quit a couple of months ago and he should too. (we are about the same age, kids, very similar situation) He's like, "Mus, you fucking quit?" So he reluctantly puts in a pinch of Hooch. 'no' THIS FUELS MY QUIT
1 week ago...Same friend stops me and says that he hasn't dipped since I gave him that hooch. HE thanks me for turning him onto to a life without dip. I'm feeling pretty good. Then he says, "I'm nervous about fishing season." Well, so was I, 75 days ago. But now, ain't nothing but a thing. I tell him that urges will pass, but DONT DIP. Then the fucker says that he is PLANNING to dip when he goes fishing. Dipshit thinks he can have one... 'bang head' THIS FUELS MY QUIT
I tell him about KTC. I tell him how KTC can help. I give him the website. I don't know if he's gonna go on, but I'm so fucking pissed that he thinks HE can have one. WHAT A GIANT DOUCHE-BAG!!! 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' THIS FUELS MY QUIT
How bout them Yankees... :D
later, MUS
