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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #24 on: August 19, 2009, 08:14:00 AM »
Watchin'n u motherfucker...... Like what I see
I've dipped enough to be satisfied for a life time, done with it... I killed the bear... hate that scumbag. 02/27/09@ 10pm was my last taste!!!!

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #23 on: August 13, 2009, 07:29:00 AM »
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What's up ansaka????
Today is Day 10 of the quit if my math is correct. I have attempted quits before with no luck , but now with the support I have been getting on this website its going so much better. Thx to all !

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #22 on: August 12, 2009, 11:10:00 PM »
What's up ansaka????
I've dipped enough to be satisfied for a life time, done with it... I killed the bear... hate that scumbag. 02/27/09@ 10pm was my last taste!!!!

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #21 on: August 09, 2009, 05:27:00 PM »
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I was asked why after 35 yrs did you decide to stop. Well like many for my kids, family, and cost savings, etc,,,But one thing hit home hard.
I have worked in hospital ICU's, ER's Trauma and so on. Not much struck me as I have learned to block out most things. I would have a dip in my mouth the entire shift too, stupid me because I never spit.
But one day a buddy I have known for years was told he had cancer and he was a dipping buddy of mine. After several surgeries he no longer looked like anyone I knew, his face and neck had so much removed it appeared he had been attacked by a shark. Long story short after many months of suffering and battling he died at young age of 45. I would visit his room and I still had a lip full of Cope, his mother I knew well looked at me and said straight up, This is you real soon and how can you still be dipping while looking at him. I felt many emotions at that time and mostly I felt like I showed disrespect to her and the family. I have never felt lower in my life.
Sorry I just need to get this off my chest and let you know its real, this addiction is a monster in many ways! Im an addict and need to win this battle. I hope you win too and quit and stay quit! Im only at day 4 but this is the best place and support I have found.

Ansaka
Wow, powerful story. I'm very sorry about your friend. Thanks for sharing.
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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #20 on: August 08, 2009, 09:24:00 AM »
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I was asked why after 35 yrs did you decide to stop. Well like many for my kids, family, and cost savings, etc,,,But one thing hit home hard.
I have worked in hospital ICU's, ER's Trauma and so on. Not much struck me as I have learned to block out most things. I would have a dip in my mouth the entire shift too, stupid me because I never spit.
But one day a buddy I have known for years was told he had cancer and he was a dipping buddy of mine. After several surgeries he no longer looked like anyone I knew, his face and neck had so much removed it appeared he had been attacked by a shark. Long story short after many months of suffering and battling he died at young age of 45. I would visit his room and I still had a lip full of Cope, his mother I knew well looked at me and said straight up, This is you real soon and how can you still be dipping while looking at him. I felt many emotions at that time and mostly I felt like I showed disrespect to her and the family. I have never felt lower in my life.
Sorry I just need to get this off my chest and let you know its real, this addiction is a monster in many ways! Im an addict and need to win this battle. I hope you win too and quit and stay quit! Im only at day 4 but this is the best place and support I have found.

Ansaka
wow.....just.....wow.

big case of reality slapped you upside the head. I remember reading thru and looking at Outdoor Texan's web page and having that moment of clarity that cancer is very real...not just a concept.....and yeah, it happens to folks that I have a lot in common with...


http://www.outdoortexan.com/warning.htm

and it could happen to me......

Dedicate this quit to yourself first, family second.....and as a memorial to your friend.....

You are done......we WILL help.

Read, read and read some more....learn from those that have gone before....learn from your brothers beside you...

we are all in this together......I will ask that you have my back.....

And i will most definitely have yours......you need a number, pm me....

Post roll first thing in the morning...then keep your word for that day.....

over and over....it works.

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #19 on: August 07, 2009, 09:49:00 PM »
I was asked why after 35 yrs did you decide to stop. Well like many for my kids, family, and cost savings, etc,,,But one thing hit home hard.
I have worked in hospital ICU's, ER's Trauma and so on. Not much struck me as I have learned to block out most things. I would have a dip in my mouth the entire shift too, stupid me because I never spit.
But one day a buddy I have known for years was told he had cancer and he was a dipping buddy of mine. After several surgeries he no longer looked like anyone I knew, his face and neck had so much removed it appeared he had been attacked by a shark. Long story short after many months of suffering and battling he died at young age of 45. I would visit his room and I still had a lip full of Cope, his mother I knew well looked at me and said straight up, This is you real soon and how can you still be dipping while looking at him. I felt many emotions at that time and mostly I felt like I showed disrespect to her and the family. I have never felt lower in my life.
Sorry I just need to get this off my chest and let you know its real, this addiction is a monster in many ways! Im an addict and need to win this battle. I hope you win too and quit and stay quit! Im only at day 4 but this is the best place and support I have found.

Ansaka
"I do keep an open mind , but not so open my brains fall out"

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #18 on: August 04, 2009, 04:39:00 PM »
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Glad to see you make the decision.  Now, we all take this very, very seriously.  You have given your word that you will not dip today.  Concentrate on today.  Tomorrow morning, post a day 2.  Concentrate on that day.  Repeat. Repeat.  It will suck, then it will get easier.
Thanks for the support...These first 6 hrs are hell but Im sticking to the plan. And as many of you say it does get better with time. These next few days will be tough but it will be done
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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #17 on: August 04, 2009, 04:28:00 PM »
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I trust u respect us enough not to read our posts w a dip in.... Like an unwritten rule here..
We're not boy scouts but self valor and honor are the only things that hold this joint together.... 
Let's do it to it....
Done deal..I posted Day 1 quit. I respect sitting here with a dip in is WRONG, so when I say I quit I mean it. If I were to dip again I would come clean. But, no more dip!
Glad to see you make the decision. Now, we all take this very, very seriously. You have given your word that you will not dip today. Concentrate on today. Tomorrow morning, post a day 2. Concentrate on that day. Repeat. Repeat. It will suck, then it will get easier.
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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #16 on: August 04, 2009, 12:07:00 PM »
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No doubt it is going to be a test of your self control.... Not only are you quitting lipshitz...
You have to quit you assholian tendancies....
Being a dbag and lashing out, was a way for me to distract myself, even for a few seconds for the dipmonkey on my back.... For the sake of those around u don't be a dick... At least pretend your not a dick... Bite the tongue and smile... 35 yrs on the can I'm sure its just as tough as 15 or 20 to get off.... Only difference 15 or 20 years of dip $$$$ is a bad ass boat... At 35 yrs u spit a beech house... And 35 yrs ur pushing ur luck, my friend... The butcher ie; doctors are real, and want to chop u up..

So put on ur happy face even if its bullshit...
Next year is coming if your dipping or not... So be the dude who's not.....

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Fuckyoukodiak!!!

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #15 on: August 04, 2009, 11:26:00 AM »
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I trust u respect us enough not to read our posts w a dip in.... Like an unwritten rule here..
We're not boy scouts but self valor and honor are the only things that hold this joint together....
Let's do it to it....
Done deal..I posted Day 1 quit. I respect sitting here with a dip in is WRONG, so when I say I quit I mean it. If I were to dip again I would come clean. But, no more dip!
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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #14 on: August 04, 2009, 11:11:00 AM »
A non spitter dry dipper. Been there....
I trust u respect us enough not to read our posts w a dip in.... Like an unwritten rule here..
We're not boy scouts but self valor and honor are the only things that hold this joint together.... As far as being a hypocrite who gives a fuck... That's how you make your dough... Quit now.. It will suck no matter what...I drive work chill shower drink beers and takes dumps wo a dip in, you'll soon realize what a hard work maintaining a stash hiding it etc, .. U will too!!!!!

Let's do it to it....

Ray
I've dipped enough to be satisfied for a life time, done with it... I killed the bear... hate that scumbag. 02/27/09@ 10pm was my last taste!!!!

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #13 on: August 04, 2009, 11:06:00 AM »
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Get ready for a hell of a ride - and the rewards of being quit are sure as hell worth the pain of quitting. You can do this.
I know you are right so here we go....game on! The cans have been dumped and about to face the Nic monster face to face 'arse' Im on vacation this week so I will have a chance to get past the worst part without dealing with people at work, just me and the monster head to head. Thanks for all the inspiration.

Lets get it on,
Ansaka
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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #12 on: August 04, 2009, 10:57:00 AM »
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I take that as meaning you're still waiting to take the plunge. What are you waiting for? It will never seem like the perfect time to quit. I suggest RIGHT NOW as a perfect time to start. But at least set a date and time.
You are right, now is as good of time as ever...Im gathering all my cans up now to dump them out. I will be a quitter today! And I will give it 110% of my power to quit this time and stay a quitter.

Thanks
Right fucking on!!!

Get ready for a hell of a ride for the next few days, but know this: It does get better, and the rewards of being quit are sure as hell worth the pain of quitting. You can do this.

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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #11 on: August 04, 2009, 10:52:00 AM »
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I take that as meaning you're still waiting to take the plunge. What are you waiting for? It will never seem like the perfect time to quit. I suggest RIGHT NOW as a perfect time to start. But at least set a date and time.
You are right, now is as good of time as ever...Im gathering all my cans up now to dump them out. I will be a quitter today! And I will give it 110% of my power to quit this time and stay a quitter.

Thanks
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Re: Not another 35 years
« Reply #10 on: August 04, 2009, 10:45:00 AM »
Bearattack,
You are right that I have spent enough to buy a boat or many other toys. Also, I know quitting after 15 years is as hard as 35, I wasnt man enough to quit back then or at 20 yrs or 25 yrs. The sad part is I have never spit. I dont carry spit cans around i have swallowed juice for years, I fall asleep with it in my mouth. Point is you are 100% correct that the Butcher is sharpening tools waiting for my dumbass to show up. And thats why I will quit this time because I look at what Im doing to myself and my family. Now the Hypocrite part, I work in healthcare and tell people they shouldnt smoke and should quit , all along im saying this when I have a lip full of crap. Sad but true. Thanks for being blunt with me I need that approach.

Thanks Dude,

Ansaka
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