mthomas... I'm stay'n quit, but its hard. I want to eat everything in sight!
Of course its hard, if it wasn't, we all would just put it down. I love that it is hard. I love the fight. I love to say, "Not Today"! Hell if I can control this, I can be the captain of my ship. The master of my fate.
My Winston Churchill quote of the day...."I love a man that grins when he's in a fight"
Loppy, grin an bare it! You gave your word and it means something when you back it up.
I have my integrity back! Wouldn't trade it for the little buzz I get from tobacco. Walk as much as you can. Let your brain rewire without poison. You will feel the cravings, as you fight the cravings, you will feel more free!!!!!!!!! Its Fucking great....And worth the suck of the addiction. Don't get me wrong...I crave but when I do, I put up my fists and start grinning.
I have been kicking the nicotine bitch's ass for 23 days! It hasn't been easy; but I am happy and love the battle because I am winning. Its been a long time since I felt the love of victory and winning.
Oh by the way, I am nicotine and alcohol free for 23 days. I am one sober, angry, constipated son of a bitch, but my mind is so clear.
Two things I attribute to my victories so far....Brotherhood of the KTC, and personal commitments and determination. If you knew me you would easily think, "if that pussy can do this, so can I." YOU CAN.
My advise:
1) Respect your elders (Meaning the vets on this site) They have earned our respect. They are great advisers, support and therapist. Never fight what they advise, just do it and you'll be safe. In short, follow orders with exactness.
2) Vent and express your feelings here. Off the site, with family, friends and co-workers. Over do it on being nice. Force a smile and express appreciation to them. They will help you get through it too.
3) Go into the introduction site. Write your story and use it as a daily or weekly journal so that you never forget the journey. Soon it will become easy, you never want to forget the battles. You will have day's where you think, this isn't that bad. Then it will get bad. Many spectrum's of emotion.
4) Give back to your brothers. When you are strong, come to the site. Someone needs your support. When you're weak, come to the site, someone needs to support you. Read and gain knowledge. A clear mind is amazing because concepts and understanding are greater.
5) Welcome to hell. It's a painful journey but you'll be back soon if you keep walking. You're just detoxing and refining. Embrace the suck!