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Offline JMckay

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Re: my quit
« Reply #30 on: September 17, 2017, 03:46:00 PM »
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Today was good untell i got agitated and it just festered and than i felt super angry. At day 12 hoping thats not the new normal and just withdral effects. The ups and downs of quiting this crap.
This isn't going to be what you want to hear but......I had days like that well into the 200's where, after I'd had begun to feel like a rational person once again, a day would come along and I'd find myself furious over frivolous little things. It felt like day 1 quit rage. It would catch me and everyone around me by surprise. I started to question whether I'd ever be sane again or if maybe down deep underneath it all I was just an asshole. The jury's still out on that one, but it seems like in the last 100 days or so I very seldom have those moments of a rage come over me. Although it does still happen from time to time.

You are far from experiencing the "new norm" things continue to get better even beyond 300. Maybe someone else will drop in and coment on their experience beyond 376. ;)
The rage has improved a lot and that's a good thing if I kept it up I would have been fired for flipping out at work 'bangin' 'Shoot' 'Finger' haha.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #29 on: September 17, 2017, 03:38:00 PM »
So its day 157 now. Working on my second hundred days and its much easier than my first. I'm writing this to help me remember how I felt at different stages and maybe it will help someone else also. One of my main reasons for quitting was to feel better and be healthier and the last 50 days I've had anxiety attacks that fucked me up so after that happened few times I really started thinking maybe I will just go back to dipping cause I really just wanna feel good. That was my fear and the nic bitch controlling me. The doc found im low on multiple things so taking supplement that caused me to feel strange aka anxious. The doc told me my brain has rewire its self for the supplements im taking. So I am rewiring as an addict and some other shit when I think of it like this it helps me to realise I need to give it time to stabilize. I expect instant gratification and recovery is up and down. Lookin back at last couple days its the best I've felt in a long time. I know I'll have bad days to come but im gaining strength I didn't even know id lost. I'm starting to feel like a new me. Something I use that helps is fake dip but I will need to stop using it some day cause I can tell I'm psychologically addicted to it and will suck to stop it as well but that is tomorrow's me problem. Today no nic but fake dip.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #28 on: June 01, 2017, 02:52:00 PM »
Just an update on how my quit is going for me to look back on and for those that haven't even quit yet that might read this. Im at day 48 and over all have improved a bunch. I have days that are still worse than than others but over all getting better. Other than quiting i struggled with anxiety so i really feared my anxiety would take my quit down. But anxiety is worrying abou things that have not happened kind of like quit one day at a time if you bit off to much worry bout to much it will hurt your quit and raise anxiety. I have been working out i started off slow working out cause if i pushed myself it would make me feel anxious. Now i seem to hit it pretty hard in gym and feel good. I've been doing mindful meditation it can. Change your mood if you work at it enough. I know my quit will stick cause i want to be healthy i want to live a long life. I think i read this some place on here if you use nic for years gonna take some time to heal from the effects years of niccotine.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #27 on: May 13, 2017, 12:08:00 AM »
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28 days with out nic in my system and i have diffently improved. I have good and bad days but the good are coming around more and bad less. I post this so others that quit will read it and gain strength from it. When i say good or bad i dont mean cravings i mean anxiety, cause it really messes the day up when its bad. Something that is helping me is meditation. Mindfulness meditation work on calm myself and my brain. Work on being happy really has helped me. At this stage its all in the head but it was really always in the head when you think about it. So it really is mind over over matter but will take time. Things do tast better now. Went to doc blood pressure is lower dont need meds that was really awesome and will help keep me off the nic bitch train.
Awesome to hear brother!

One day at a time + support = winning.

Life improvements do take time but everyone who quits will see them. It's great that you are here and keeping a log of your journey for others to read. Keep it up! B)B

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Re: my quit
« Reply #26 on: May 12, 2017, 03:11:00 PM »
28 days with out nic in my system and i have diffently improved. I have good and bad days but the good are coming around more and bad less. I post this so others that quit will read it and gain strength from it. When i say good or bad i dont mean cravings i mean anxiety, cause it really messes the day up when its bad. Something that is helping me is meditation. Mindfulness meditation work on calm myself and my brain. Work on being happy really has helped me. At this stage its all in the head but it was really always in the head when you think about it. So it really is mind over over matter but will take time. Things do tast better now. Went to doc blood pressure is lower dont need meds that was really awesome and will help keep me off the nic bitch train.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #25 on: May 02, 2017, 07:10:00 AM »
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Had my first dip dream couple days ago super intense put chew in my mouth then felt like a awful failure.it seemed so real and in minutes i spit it out and was so pissed i did that it woke me up and i felt like crap. Man the nic bitch is powerful. Today was one of the better days ive had so that was needed very much. The advice from others has helped out a great deal cause some days i think i am goin nuts for real.
It is great to post this in here as a journal of some sort, I do feel that it would be great if you posted it in July as well so we can get the guys talking about the real struggles and get you guys supporting each other!! Those dreams will get you in the boo boo every time. Just remember, it was just a dream.
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Re: my quit
« Reply #24 on: May 01, 2017, 09:38:00 PM »
Had my first dip dream couple days ago super intense put chew in my mouth then felt like a awful failure.it seemed so real and in minutes i spit it out and was so pissed i did that it woke me up and i felt like crap. Man the nic bitch is powerful. Today was one of the better days ive had so that was needed very much. The advice from others has helped out a great deal cause some days i think i am goin nuts for real.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #23 on: May 01, 2017, 05:32:00 PM »
proud that you decided to quit and sorry it took me so long to get in here an reach out. You will have good days and bads but you will always have victories when you stack another day quit on another day quit...keep focused on that ODAAT...one day at a time...that is the only way to make this work...reach out and get digits of your fellow quitters as I have found that I would not have made it with that link. keep on quitting you are doing great!!!! I will send you my digits via PM.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #22 on: May 01, 2017, 09:24:00 AM »
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Today was better than yesterday, but still had fog and felt anxious, was thinking i could get anxiety meds if it wears me down enough. Just really shitty wishing i could feel normal and great. Thanks for the advice i will keep on quiting.
This too shall pass. That is a saying that you need to get used to for a little while brother. I know you have been hearing that it gets better almost everyday but I promise you that it does. Some people do need to use anxiety meds to help with it, there is nothing wrong with that at all. I have been on prosac for years and honestly, it has helped me get through some of my hardest days of being quit. Keep your head up and you will get through it. All this shit you are going through is worth it!!
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It is very simple! We quit for today! We wake up! Do it again tomorrow!! One day at a time!
We walk in each others quit shoes, it may be a little different but ultimately the same exact thing

"Blessed is he, who in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of darkness, for he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children. And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who would attempt to poison and destroy my brothers."

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Re: my quit
« Reply #21 on: April 30, 2017, 01:12:00 AM »
Today was better than yesterday, but still had fog and felt anxious, was thinking i could get anxiety meds if it wears me down enough. Just really shitty wishing i could feel normal and great. Thanks for the advice i will keep on quiting.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #20 on: April 29, 2017, 07:37:00 AM »
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Today was good untell i got agitated and it just festered and than i felt super angry. At day 12 hoping thats not the new normal and just withdral effects. The ups and downs of quiting this crap.
This isn't going to be what you want to hear but......I had days like that well into the 200's where, after I'd had begun to feel like a rational person once again, a day would come along and I'd find myself furious over frivolous little things. It felt like day 1 quit rage. It would catch me and everyone around me by surprise. I started to question whether I'd ever be sane again or if maybe down deep underneath it all I was just an asshole. The jury's still out on that one, but it seems like in the last 100 days or so I very seldom have those moments of a rage come over me. Although it does still happen from time to time.

You are far from experiencing the "new norm" things continue to get better even beyond 300. Maybe someone else will drop in and coment on their experience beyond 376. ;)
The one year mark was a big one for me. Just hang in there with the belief that you will get over the anger and cravings. I rarely and almost never even think about dip. Keep pushing on bro!
^^^Day 1,255 right there!
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Re: my quit
« Reply #19 on: April 28, 2017, 09:42:00 PM »
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Today was good untell i got agitated and it just festered and than i felt super angry. At day 12 hoping thats not the new normal and just withdral effects. The ups and downs of quiting this crap.
This isn't going to be what you want to hear but......I had days like that well into the 200's where, after I'd had begun to feel like a rational person once again, a day would come along and I'd find myself furious over frivolous little things. It felt like day 1 quit rage. It would catch me and everyone around me by surprise. I started to question whether I'd ever be sane again or if maybe down deep underneath it all I was just an asshole. The jury's still out on that one, but it seems like in the last 100 days or so I very seldom have those moments of a rage come over me. Although it does still happen from time to time.

You are far from experiencing the "new norm" things continue to get better even beyond 300. Maybe someone else will drop in and coment on their experience beyond 376. ;)
The one year mark was a big one for me. Just hang in there with the belief that you will get over the anger and cravings. I rarely and almost never even think about dip. Keep pushing on bro!

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Re: my quit
« Reply #18 on: April 28, 2017, 03:59:00 PM »
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Today was good untell i got agitated and it just festered and than i felt super angry. At day 12 hoping thats not the new normal and just withdral effects. The ups and downs of quiting this crap.
This isn't going to be what you want to hear but......I had days like that well into the 200's where, after I'd had begun to feel like a rational person once again, a day would come along and I'd find myself furious over frivolous little things. It felt like day 1 quit rage. It would catch me and everyone around me by surprise. I started to question whether I'd ever be sane again or if maybe down deep underneath it all I was just an asshole. The jury's still out on that one, but it seems like in the last 100 days or so I very seldom have those moments of a rage come over me. Although it does still happen from time to time.

You are far from experiencing the "new norm" things continue to get better even beyond 300. Maybe someone else will drop in and coment on their experience beyond 376. ;)
Just one and you will be back where you started.
And where you started was desperately wishing
you were where you are right now.

Offline JMckay

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Re: my quit
« Reply #17 on: April 28, 2017, 02:54:00 PM »
Day 14 two weeks kind of a milestone, has not been one of the best quit days just blah and in the fog and down im trying to keep positive. I have been telling myself it will improve and i think it helps. Something that is great for me is my blood pressure is lower than it was when chewing that is major boost to wonna stay quit.i knew this would be little rough on me i started young dipped heavy for 23years so its gonna take time for the brain to adjust.

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Re: my quit
« Reply #16 on: April 26, 2017, 10:06:00 PM »
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Today was good untell i got agitated and it just festered and than i felt super angry. At day 12 hoping thats not the new normal and just withdral effects. The ups and downs of quiting this crap.
you have to push through those times of frustration...dont use your old friend nicotine to help you through it. That can will kill you if given the chance. You are doing well....quit on!!!!
Once you learn to quit, it becomes a habit. - Vince Lombardi