hello everyone
i am proud to say i no longer have the desire to make excuses as to why i can't quit now.
first off, i'll be 40 in January and i made a vow this past year to work towards getting myself into the best shape of my life by that time. i can't dip and think i'm doing myself any good. secondly, dipping and drinking have been my version of love and marriage for the past twenty years and i know i can't get in the best shape of my life drinking. So it's a double dip for me, pardon the pun.
i started dipping on the golf course when i was 15/16 years old. i didn't like the swisher sweets my golf buddies would smoke and felt somewhat left out so i decided to try Skoal. then Kodiak. then finally decided Copenhagen Snuff was the stuff for me. my use was only very casual but i was hooked. soon i began to look forward to playing golf with my friends because it was the time of the week that i would get a good pinch.
when i went away to college i began dipping all the time. that cemented my routine of throwing one in whenever i would drive to work or to the store or anywhere. that time cemented my routine of having a pinch in my lip whenever i felt like having a few beers. soon i was dipping at work and using Cope all the time.
after i married my wife, i settled down quite a bit and even quit for several months at a time but i would always get that hankering - usually when having a few beers while watching the game or during some other event and then i was back to dipping to and from work, while doing yardwork, etc...
'i can quit anytime' is what i would always tell myself. and then the Styx lyrics 'you're fooling yourself if you don't believe it' would echo through my head and i would laugh it off. now, i have enrolled in a nicotine cessation program through my job and actually became a member of KTC instead of just passing by the website several times over the past couple years.
i'm excited to take this step and join the fight! i have three cans of Cope in my truck which will be discarded when i leave the office today. i have followed KTC on twitter and i'm looking forward to getting feedback from others in this same situation and reciprocating with my own encouragement. we don't have to do it alone!
Thunderbird08