Nearly 30

[Danno30]

You're not on roll today. WTF?

Post roll every day. No days off. Post early, when you first get up. No other way to do it.

Thx for checking up on me. Whats the earliest I can post? I got up in London, UK this morning around 230CT and just landed in the US. Posted as soon as I got to the hotel room. All's good on day 3!!

The roll pages usually flip around 12AM New York Time. You can flip it yourself too. I recommend posting at your first waking moment after 12am eastern us time. Whether you're still up or just waking up. Get your name on roll call the earlier the better. You want everyone to see your name at the top of the list. Make sure you're not bumped. Go back in and double check that someone didn't fuck up roll and bump you or others. He'll, start fixing bumps. Every group needs trackers/bump fixers. Help keep roll tidy. There's a lot of foggy/computer illiterate people here. Helping keep roll clean and tidy and fixing bumps can only strengthen your quit in my view.

I like GHClaws' view. It works.

I watched the Sean Marsee story

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nDFNqOuZ3II

Stories like that are exactly what I've been avoiding. I didn't want to hear them, I didn't want to be scared by them - just another form of self-deception. Being able to man up and watch is another step of progression.

[30isEnuff]

You're not on roll today. WTF?

Post roll every day. No days off. Post early, when you first get up. No other way to do it.

Thx for checking up on me. Whats the earliest I can post? I got up in London, UK this morning around 230CT and just landed in the US. Posted as soon as I got to the hotel room. All's good on day 3!!

The roll pages usually flip around 12AM New York Time. You can flip it yourself too. I recommend posting at your first waking moment after 12am eastern us time. Whether you're still up or just waking up. Get your name on roll call the earlier the better. You want everyone to see your name at the top of the list. Make sure you're not bumped. Go back in and double check that someone didn't fuck up roll and bump you or others. He'll, start fixing bumps. Every group needs trackers/bump fixers. Help keep roll tidy. There's a lot of foggy/computer illiterate people here. Helping keep roll clean and tidy and fixing bumps can only strengthen your quit in my view.

I like GHClaws' view. It works.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

You're not on roll today. WTF?

Post roll every day. No days off. Post early, when you first get up. No other way to do it.

Thx for checking up on me. Whats the earliest I can post? I got up in London, UK this morning around 230CT and just landed in the US. Posted as soon as I got to the hotel room. All's good on day 3!!

The roll pages usually flip around 12AM New York Time. You can flip it yourself too. I recommend posting at your first waking moment after 12am eastern us time. Whether you're still up or just waking up. Get your name on roll call the earlier the better. You want everyone to see your name at the top of the list. Make sure you're not bumped. Go back in and double check that someone didn't fuck up roll and bump you or others. He'll, start fixing bumps. Every group needs trackers/bump fixers. Help keep roll tidy. There's a lot of foggy/computer illiterate people here. Helping keep roll clean and tidy and fixing bumps can only strengthen your quit in my view.

[Danno30]

You're not on roll today. WTF?

Post roll every day. No days off. Post early, when you first get up.  No other way to do it.

Thx for checking up on me. Whats the earliest I can post? I got up in London, UK this morning around 230CT and just landed in the US. Posted as soon as I got to the hotel room. All's good on day 3!!

[Done4Me]

You're not on roll today. WTF?

Post roll every day. No days off. Post early, when you first get up. No other way to do it.

[worktowin]

I'm not a pilot, but short of that... your intro could be mine as well. I chewed for 25 years. I hid. Family - no clue. Traveled a ton, chewed in some of the best hotels in the US. Hate London - that place is a shithole. And Erussell sends me x-rated text messages too. See, we could be brothers!

If I can help, let me know.  You can do this bud. My contact info is in your inbox.

worktowin - day 669

[Erussell]

Im going to use this thread as my daily journal. This will be a great way for my wife to stay on board and see what's up with my complicated - and many times distant (literally) - mind. I may not post here everyday, but I will post roll call at a minimum.

There are certain things about my job that just suck - boredom. It is the #1 tool the nic bitch uses to make me cave. I'm a pilot for a global airline. The flying part is boring, but doable. I've never dipped on the airplane and never had the desire to. But when on layovers, away from the family, trying to function on the backside of the clock and being in situations I cannot control (hotel and eating choices) - dipping helped me get through those times. It was something I looked forward to when I knew I'd be in situations I could not control.

I've never been one to dip continuously. My normal cycle is: dip 2 or 3 times a day for 2 or 3 days. Get sick of it (or scared) then not dip for 2 to 10 days. The frequency and durations I've gone without dipping have made me believe (foolishly) I'm not addicted. Part of me being here is dealing with that deception. I am addicted - no more arguing - no more fooling myself.

Im on day 2. Day 2 to me is nothing. Day 2 of not dipping is a regular thing. I think it will be easy to go for the next 10, 20 or 30 days with no desire to dip. But complacency is the #2 tool the nic bitch uses to make me cave. My normal routine is to let my guard down after 10 days (or so). The nic bitch says "see, you can quit anytime you want, you are healthy, no damage, no reason not to take one more dip." And fuck her, I cave again.

So, again, here I am day 2. No problem. I'm in London and this place SUCKS. Mostly cause the time difference and the lack of sleep that builds up over a 6 day back and forth trip. This hotel also sucks - not to mention it is actually one of the nicer ones in London. Small cramped European hotel rooms. Anyway I'm dealing with it pretty good today. I got a good workout in, ate a low carb dinner and here I am. Wide awake at 1:03 am for a 820 get up.

Tomorrow - Houston. Here's where I could face first cave temptation. Last week we went out for Mexican food. Mex food and margaritas makes me cave about 80% of the time. And yes, i did last week too (before joining KTC I will add). I know its coming tomorrow so I'm prepared. If I don't skip the mex food I will have to skip the margs - no question. It's a trigger. So Jake M, ERussell, you've got my num. Text me about 630 CT tomorrow and say "dont order the margaritas" - cool thx.

Saturday won't be a problem. I'll lift at the Y in the morning and head back to the London shit hole later in the day. The only good thing about London is they don't sell the shit here.

I will post roll call tomorrow, but I won't be til later in the day.

All right. Thx all. Keep up the quit and I'll do the same.

Danno

Ok Danno, interesting life you have, can't wait to learn more about it. Glad to see you realize your addiction through the frequency. And guess what, a little nicotine is just as dangerousness as a lot. It could take a million of the nic molecules or just one, it's roulette. You have my number as well. Glad to have you in my quit circle, but it's not without a cost!! There will be a two way street of accountability and you and I will honor our word to one another no matter, you read my intro, no caving allowed brother!

Erussell 542 thanks to this system and the brotherhood that makes KTC. Quit with you Danno you have my word.

[Danno30]

Im going to use this thread as my daily journal. This will be a great way for my wife to stay on board and see what's up with my complicated - and many times distant (literally) - mind. I may not post here everyday, but I will post roll call at a minimum.

There are certain things about my job that just suck - boredom. It is the #1 tool the nic bitch uses to make me cave. I'm a pilot for a global airline. The flying part is boring, but doable. I've never dipped on the airplane and never had the desire to. But when on layovers, away from the family, trying to function on the backside of the clock and being in situations I cannot control (hotel and eating choices) - dipping helped me get through those times. It was something I looked forward to when I knew I'd be in situations I could not control.

I've never been one to dip continuously. My normal cycle is: dip 2 or 3 times a day for 2 or 3 days. Get sick of it (or scared) then not dip for 2 to 10 days. The frequency and durations I've gone without dipping have made me believe (foolishly) I'm not addicted. Part of me being here is dealing with that deception. I am addicted - no more arguing - no more fooling myself.

Im on day 2. Day 2 to me is nothing. Day 2 of not dipping is a regular thing. I think it will be easy to go for the next 10, 20 or 30 days with no desire to dip. But complacency is the #2 tool the nic bitch uses to make me cave. My normal routine is to let my guard down after 10 days (or so). The nic bitch says "see, you can quit anytime you want, you are healthy, no damage, no reason not to take one more dip." And fuck her, I cave again.

So, again, here I am day 2. No problem. I'm in London and this place SUCKS. Mostly cause the time difference and the lack of sleep that builds up over a 6 day back and forth trip. This hotel also sucks - not to mention it is actually one of the nicer ones in London. Small cramped European hotel rooms. Anyway I'm dealing with it pretty good today. I got a good workout in, ate a low carb dinner and here I am. Wide awake at 1:03 am for a 820 get up.

Tomorrow - Houston. Here's where I could face first cave temptation. Last week we went out for Mexican food. Mex food and margaritas makes me cave about 80% of the time. And yes, i did last week too (before joining KTC I will add). I know its coming tomorrow so I'm prepared. If I don't skip the mex food I will have to skip the margs - no question. It's a trigger. So Jake M, ERussell, you've got my num. Text me about 630 CT tomorrow and say "dont order the margaritas" - cool thx.

Saturday won't be a problem. I'll lift at the Y in the morning and head back to the London shit hole later in the day. The only good thing about London is they don't sell the shit here.

I will post roll call tomorrow, but I won't be til later in the day.

All right. Thx all. Keep up the quit and I'll do the same.

Danno

[Danno30]

Bump so what is really important doesn't get lost.

Hey I'm 44 and a nicotine addict for 22 years. I quit 954 days ago. This site seems so simple but don't change it to you. Change your thinking to the site plan...it works.

Humble quitters win. addicts that want to adjust the quit plan to them...fail.

If you want to beat your nicotine craving. Surrender to the vets and ask for help. They will guide you.

Have you posted roll and can you keep a promise for 24 hours?

MThomas. Yep. I've posted twice. today and yesterday. And yes I can, and will, keep the promise. I won't be posting til late tomorrow, though. I'll be in the air - literally - all damn day.

[Mthomas3824]

Bump so what is really important doesn't get lost.

Hey I'm 44 and a nicotine addict for 22 years. I quit 954 days ago. This site seems so simple but don't change it to you. Change your thinking to the site plan...it works.

Humble quitters win. addicts that want to adjust the quit plan to them...fail.

If you want to beat your nicotine craving. Surrender to the vets and ask for help. They will guide you.

Have you posted roll and can you keep a promise for 24 hours?

[Thumblewort]

Bump so what is really important doesn't get lost.

[Erussell]

Wow it is nice to see another addict grasp and claw for their freedom. If I could tell you one thing, it gets better, it's worth it, stay the course.....ok that is three things that ad up to one, FREEDOM!!
I quit with you!

[ChristopherJ]

Danno, you made a great decision and now that you are committed to quit and have reached out to KTC for support, your chances of success have shot up dramatically. Like the others have said, you must acknowledge that you are a nicotine addict. That will never go away. But with hard work and the mindset that every day is a new day, you can fight and win the battle. Posting roll and being accountable to your fellow KTC quitters will give you strength.

Remember that you are not alone - I was a ninja dipper for many years just like you and deceived myself and my family for far too long. I am happy for you that you found KTC and I am happy to be quit with you. PM me if you would like digits (text numbers).

Chris

[Dagranger]

Nice job posting roll. I too ninja dipped, and in all honesty I don't think there is a worse kind of user, because not only are you giving in to an addiction that is telling you to put a weed in your mouth, you are deceiving those you love, and you are taking time away from them to feed your habit. Quitting is hard work, but the rewards for the ninja dipper are awesome. No more hiding, no more lying, no more deceiving. You can live an honest life again. Put everything you have into this quit Danno

[cdreger]

get it buddy, im 6 days in, its a struggle but those gums done bleed anymore!!!