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Offline Scowick65

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Re: Nearly 30
« Reply #8 on: October 22, 2014, 03:56:00 PM »
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Thank you Thank you. I all ready feel the support. I will post today when I get back on my computer.
Danno - Post every day. I think I read about 3 hours a day on KTC my first 10 days. You can do this!
every damn day. It works if you work it.
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Re: Nearly 30
« Reply #7 on: October 22, 2014, 03:54:00 PM »
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Thank you Thank you. I all ready feel the support. I will post today when I get back on my computer.
Danno - Post every day. I think I read about 3 hours a day on KTC my first 10 days. You can do this!
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Re: Nearly 30
« Reply #6 on: October 22, 2014, 01:56:00 PM »
I did a lot of the hiding I talk about. I too was ashamed. I've chewed more regularly than u for over 23 years but my mom still has no idea. My wife and oldest son know, but not my other kids. So I completely understand what you're going thru. But as was said above, u need to realize u are addicted and it's great you've reached out for support. We all need it!
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Re: Nearly 30
« Reply #5 on: October 22, 2014, 11:40:00 AM »
Thank you Thank you. I all ready feel the support. I will post today when I get back on my computer.
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Re: Nearly 30
« Reply #4 on: October 22, 2014, 11:00:00 AM »
Danno, do you want to live truly happy? Do you want to live not worrying about the next time you can get away to put that disgusting shit into your lip? Do you want to crush this addiction that CONTROLS EVERY SINGLE ASPECT of your life? If you honestly have answered yes to all these questions, then you're in the right place. This place, this life of KTC can HELP you get a handle of this despicable addiction. You have to reach down, and as we say here, find your sack and believe that you can do this. You have to wake up every morning and tell yourself that you despise nicotine with every ounce of fiber in your body and you HAVE to believe it. Book 'em Danno! (I just had to say that)

If you need someone to bs with, PM me. Grady
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Re: Nearly 30
« Reply #3 on: October 22, 2014, 10:34:00 AM »
Warning: don't fool yourself into thinking that you are not addicted.

The sooner you admit that you are addicted the sooner you can get on with recovery. This is a nasty poison that has controlled for you 3 decades. Join us in the fight. Failure is not an option. Post roll daily. Read this entire website. Reach out to other quitters and get phone numbers. Call and text. Make some friends. Make yourself accountable. Read the welcome center. Read the HOF speeches. Read the Words of Wisdom section. Read your roll call page. Read read read!

I quit with you today. Please let me know if you have any questions about how this program works.
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Re: Nearly 30
« Reply #2 on: October 22, 2014, 10:30:00 AM »
Please read up at the Welcome Center, and learn top post roll. You will then get all of the support you can handle.
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Nearly 30
« on: October 22, 2014, 01:51:00 AM »
I can't believe that has been a part of my life for nearly 30 years. Im 47. Dipping has been a part of my life for more than half the time I've been alive. I can't believe this is me even typing this. I guess I've fooled myself pretty well. It was the summer of my senior year. A friend offered me a dip because of the buzz. The rest is history. I fooled myself in many ways, but mostly by not dipping continuously. I'd quit months at a time. To this day I still don't dip frequently. I'd dip about 3 times a day for 2 or 3 days then not dip for 2 - 10 days. I think the infrequency was all a part of fooling myself into thinking I'm a "casual user" - as if it hurts any less to the children of a casual user.

I've also fooled others. My kids have no idea I dip. My wife knows, but she never sees it. Only when I ask for her help quitting is she reminded. My friends - very few know. My brothers and sisters, Mom - no idea. I would be outright embarrassed to do it in public. There are people you might stereo-typically expect to be "chewers." I don't see myself as one of them, but I am. What a hypocrite my kids would think of me if I were to ever burden them with cancer. Especially the embarrassment of disfiguring mouth cancer. I wouldn't expect them to feel sorry for me - I would only expect them to be embarrassed by my foolishness and hypocritical example.

I travel a lot. Dipping is pretty much just hotel rooms and when the family is not home. Again, the infrequency, the hiding, it's all apart of the game.

I've been a pussy about this. I hate the pictures. It's been years since I looked at one. Why? Becasuse they scare this shit out of me, yet they don't cause me to stop. And that makes me feel like freaking foolish failure.

Something prompted me to read Curt Schillings story. I then read Tony Gwynn's Story. And eventually those stories led to this site. I've "quit" many times before, but being as embarrassed as I am, I never had the support as no one ever knew. This is what I need. This too, is where I can help others.

I don't think "quitting" is my challenge, not fooling myself will be the obstacle.

Thank you all in advance.

I can tell there are great people here. I'm ready to quit and to help others do the same.
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