New Introduction

[MikePA]

Just an update here. The weekend was terrible. I found out that just being at home is a giant trigger.

We went out to my buddy's for some target practice cowboy (skeet/trap shooting). I really thought about the dip as we started loading up the side-by-side. Once we started pulling triggers I forgot dip ever existed. That was the first time this weekend I got away for a couple of hours.

Now that the weekend is over - I feel significantly better. "The first three days" lasted about a week. I still get mad cravings in the early morning but they die out as the day goes on.

I can't remember the last time I forgot about dip for 6 hours. It happened today. I can see the symptoms of withdrawal getting better.

Proud to quit with you guys.

[Siggy15]

Had a big meeting today too. Luckily, I was having a good day. You have my #, use it if you need me. Proud to quit with you.

[danojeno]

Mike, proud to be quit with you TODAY!

[pab1964]

Thanks guys. I should have reached out. Luckily I didn't have enough time to even attempt to cave. So just being busy kept me away long enough for the craving/desire to pass.

Everyday feels a little better though. Even though I spend a disproportionate amount of my day thinking about everything I once enjoyed and fighting it... I feel this incredible sense of ease, freedom, and a little bit of happiness.

Don't be romancing about dipping brother! Learn to hate it! You will realize some day what it's stolen from you! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!

[MikePA]

Thanks guys. I should have reached out. Luckily I didn't have enough time to even attempt to cave. So just being busy kept me away long enough for the craving/desire to pass.

Everyday feels a little better though. Even though I spend a disproportionate amount of my day thinking about everything I once enjoyed and fighting it... I feel this incredible sense of ease, freedom, and a little bit of happiness.

[PCMS]

Haha nevermind. It just rung a bell. I remembered seeing PAB on everything.

Today is day 4. Coffee now has the jolt I remember just a few short years ago. Holy shit. Two cups and I was shaking a bit this morning. I normally drink 2-3 throughout the morning and the third one normally gives me a small jolt. Today, the second one made me feel like I drank a glass of espresso.

Had a small freak out this morning. I had a big meeting today (many smaller meetings leading up to this). I didn't receive an email with some important attachments from my last meeting. That mixed with 2x the caffeine response I'm used to caused a small panic attack. I got through it but it was the closest I've come to caving so far.

Caving is not an option! Put on your big boy britches grab your sac and man up! Yes you have seen me on here alot, reason being I give a shit about you and anyone who wants to live! I'm all about cutting up and having fun but this part of it is about life and death! Damn proud to be quit with you my friend! Just an addict trying to help another addict! Pm me for number, if you want

And when that was happening, who did u reach out to? Not me broÂ…nothing. And thats no problem. But hopefully you reached to someone.

This site is a wonderful asset.

Use your resources.

[pab1964]

Haha nevermind. It just rung a bell. I remembered seeing PAB on everything.

Today is day 4. Coffee now has the jolt I remember just a few short years ago. Holy shit. Two cups and I was shaking a bit this morning. I normally drink 2-3 throughout the morning and the third one normally gives me a small jolt. Today, the second one made me feel like I drank a glass of espresso.

Had a small freak out this morning. I had a big meeting today (many smaller meetings leading up to this). I didn't receive an email with some important attachments from my last meeting. That mixed with 2x the caffeine response I'm used to caused a small panic attack. I got through it but it was the closest I've come to caving so far.

Caving is not an option! Put on your big boy britches grab your sac and man up! Yes you have seen me on here alot, reason being I give a shit about you and anyone who wants to live! I'm all about cutting up and having fun but this part of it is about life and death! Damn proud to be quit with you my friend! Just an addict trying to help another addict! Pm me for number, if you want

[MikePA]

Haha nevermind. It just rung a bell. I remembered seeing PAB on everything.

Today is day 4. Coffee now has the jolt I remember just a few short years ago. Holy shit. Two cups and I was shaking a bit this morning. I normally drink 2-3 throughout the morning and the third one normally gives me a small jolt. Today, the second one made me feel like I drank a glass of espresso.

Had a small freak out this morning. I had a big meeting today (many smaller meetings leading up to this). I didn't receive an email with some important attachments from my last meeting. That mixed with 2x the caffeine response I'm used to caused a small panic attack. I got through it but it was the closest I've come to caving so far.

[pab1964]

I screwed up where I put my roll this morning. I signed it under other support. Anyway I'll figure out how to get better at that.

Today sucks. I knew it would. 1st day without is never bad for me - 2nd and 3rd are bad. I feel empty. I feel hungry and eat but I'm not satisfied even though I'm stuffed. Nic blows. Gotta ride the roller coaster down the hill before you can get up the next hill.

Went to a motivational management speech this morning. Ready to take on the world and become a business executive. Then went to my histology course. GO figure: we talked about the oral cavity today. In particular oral cavity simple squamous epithelial carcinomas (among others). We discussed the frequency of metastasis in these cancers.

What does this mean? That's the type of cancer frequently associated with smokeless tobacco. Overall, these cancers are relatively rare.. but what I really took to heart today, if you get one of these. You are screwed. They're difficult to diagnose, difficult to distinguish, difficult to treat and have a high metastasis rate (which makes them malignant). I'm not going to lie this lecture scared the shit out of me.

Day 2 is complete is 2 and a half hours. Almost past the brick shit-wall of 72 hours.

Nobody cares that you screwed up Roll. Main thing is that promise was made! Being scared is good but eventually she will talk you over your fears! Stick with rawls. Text him anytime you need something, he will help you if you show him your giving it your all! Pm me if you need anything! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!

Ironically the professor, who is a Ph.D/MD and a priest give us a 10 minute break for our 2 hour lecture while he goes and smokes.

I can't help but ask this. PAB are those your initials? I had an advisor with the same initials and about the same age. I'm assuming you were born in 1964. He told me he used to work for a tobacco company...

Lol! Nickname short for pabo. You getting this done?

[MikePA]

I screwed up where I put my roll this morning. I signed it under other support. Anyway I'll figure out how to get better at that.

Today sucks. I knew it would. 1st day without is never bad for me - 2nd and 3rd are bad. I feel empty. I feel hungry and eat but I'm not satisfied even though I'm stuffed. Nic blows. Gotta ride the roller coaster down the hill before you can get up the next hill.

Went to a motivational management speech this morning. Ready to take on the world and become a business executive. Then went to my histology course. GO figure: we talked about the oral cavity today. In particular oral cavity simple squamous epithelial carcinomas (among others). We discussed the frequency of metastasis in these cancers.

What does this mean? That's the type of cancer frequently associated with smokeless tobacco. Overall, these cancers are relatively rare.. but what I really took to heart today, if you get one of these. You are screwed. They're difficult to diagnose, difficult to distinguish, difficult to treat and have a high metastasis rate (which makes them malignant). I'm not going to lie this lecture scared the shit out of me.

Day 2 is complete is 2 and a half hours. Almost past the brick shit-wall of 72 hours.

Nobody cares that you screwed up Roll. Main thing is that promise was made! Being scared is good but eventually she will talk you over your fears! Stick with rawls. Text him anytime you need something, he will help you if you show him your giving it your all! Pm me if you need anything! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!

Ironically the professor, who is a Ph.D/MD and a priest give us a 10 minute break for our 2 hour lecture while he goes and smokes.

I can't help but ask this. PAB are those your initials? I had an advisor with the same initials and about the same age. I'm assuming you were born in 1964. He told me he used to work for a tobacco company...

[pab1964]

I screwed up where I put my roll this morning. I signed it under other support. Anyway I'll figure out how to get better at that.

Today sucks. I knew it would. 1st day without is never bad for me - 2nd and 3rd are bad. I feel empty. I feel hungry and eat but I'm not satisfied even though I'm stuffed. Nic blows. Gotta ride the roller coaster down the hill before you can get up the next hill.

Went to a motivational management speech this morning. Ready to take on the world and become a business executive. Then went to my histology course. GO figure: we talked about the oral cavity today. In particular oral cavity simple squamous epithelial carcinomas (among others). We discussed the frequency of metastasis in these cancers.

What does this mean? That's the type of cancer frequently associated with smokeless tobacco. Overall, these cancers are relatively rare.. but what I really took to heart today, if you get one of these. You are screwed. They're difficult to diagnose, difficult to distinguish, difficult to treat and have a high metastasis rate (which makes them malignant). I'm not going to lie this lecture scared the shit out of me.

Day 2 is complete is 2 and a half hours. Almost past the brick shit-wall of 72 hours.

Nobody cares that you screwed up Roll. Main thing is that promise was made! Being scared is good but eventually she will talk you over your fears! Stick with rawls. Text him anytime you need something, he will help you if you show him your giving it your all! Pm me if you need anything! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!

[MikePA]

I screwed up where I put my roll this morning. I signed it under other support. Anyway I'll figure out how to get better at that.

Today sucks. I knew it would. 1st day without is never bad for me - 2nd and 3rd are bad. I feel empty. I feel hungry and eat but I'm not satisfied even though I'm stuffed. Nic blows. Gotta ride the roller coaster down the hill before you can get up the next hill.

Went to a motivational management speech this morning. Ready to take on the world and become a business executive. Then went to my histology course. GO figure: we talked about the oral cavity today. In particular oral cavity simple squamous epithelial carcinomas (among others). We discussed the frequency of metastasis in these cancers.

What does this mean? That's the type of cancer frequently associated with smokeless tobacco. Overall, these cancers are relatively rare.. but what I really took to heart today, if you get one of these. You are screwed. They're difficult to diagnose, difficult to distinguish, difficult to treat and have a high metastasis rate (which makes them malignant). I'm not going to lie this lecture scared the shit out of me.

Day 2 is complete is 2 and a half hours. Almost past the brick shit-wall of 72 hours.

[Rawls]

Thanks guys. I'm trying to find your intro rawls and I can't believe the number of introductions in the last ~7 days. There must be 50+ introductions.

So I've got to know a few of you tonight. Tomorrow I'll post roll. I'm in for the long haul now.

Edit: I read your intros. Lots of information in those.

Rawls, do you still own the dealership? I'm big on SK tools (not so much on snapon). I do have a few snap on tools though.

Yes sir.. PM
Figure out roll call in the morning. Don't worry about messing it up. You will get better at it. Directions are on the list page in June 2015 quit group.
Go here.. topic/10990123/

[MikePA]

Thanks guys. I'm trying to find your intro rawls and I can't believe the number of introductions in the last ~7 days. There must be 50+ introductions.

So I've got to know a few of you tonight. Tomorrow I'll post roll. I'm in for the long haul now.

Edit: I read your intros. Lots of information in those.

Rawls, do you still own the dealership? I'm big on SK tools (not so much on snapon). I do have a few snap on tools though.

[Rawls]

What's up Rawls?

I was trying to figure out how to post role this morning.

I know you're right. It's only trading the addiction. After I posted on here last night, I packed everything in a bag and dumped it at a gas station. I brought my girlfriend back with me. I won't dare use it around her. Having her around has helped to keep my mind away from it. I have both a physical block and a living breathing reason right in front of me to give it up.

Also I'll check out your pm. I'm bouncing between my phone and my laptop trying to get acquainted with the site.

I'm up trying to get you quit for life.
Going off your intro : You "stay" quit by building relationships with other addicts that understand what your going though in life.
You will either lean on chemicals.. Or you will lean on relationships in life. Here we lean on each other every day early in the morning. Whether positive or negative life events one Truth to understand is that nicotine can NEVER make things better.
You don't need it.
It's not fun.
It helps nothing.
You sound pretty solid... Let's learn to post roll and see how solid you are on keeping your word?
We're gonna push you because we care.
I too have family with cancer.. You can read about in my intro.
Thanks for the pm.. Let's learn to post roll and start building relationships in June with the Goons,
I quit with you today, and I respect your decision to go cold turkey.

Rawls