My Introduction

[Derk40]

Last post was Day 23 ? Really ? Wow.  That seems like yesterday.  And today I'm half way to my HOF + 1 !!!!!   Simply amazing.  Thank you to the vets that came along beside me and gave me support and encouragement.  I'm learning so much here.  Seeing strength in my self I never knew I had.  It brings about such a feeling of pride.  To actually be overcoming day by day a terrible addiction that I thought I'd live with the rest of my life.  Y'all know what I mean.  AJ said recently exactly what I've come to learn.  That I'm learning who I am without nicotine.  I've dealt with every issue of life with nicotine in my mouth.  It's been a crutch all this time and now I have to learn how to go through life nicotine sober. 

The nicotine crutch has been replaced.  Replaced with new relationships and friendships.  My fellow December Soldiers of quit. We have been going through this together under the watchful eyes of our experienced veteran leaders.  But I confess, my hands are ghostly white.  White from clinging so tightly to KTC safety line.  Reading about folks with many many days free of nicotine caving.  And seeing others that caved, coming back to join new quit groups because they caved.   It's scary.  I wish them all great success in their returns.   But it really scares me.  I've drank the cool aide here.  I love it's flavor.  And I wish to never have a day without carrying that cup with me all day.  And that means - post roll every day, stay connected with my quit brothers, stay involved on KTC by being a supporter of new quitters.

Again.  I just want to say thank you to KTC, all the veteran supporters, and to all my December brothers.  Y'all are the reason I stand here today as a Quitter.  Proud to be quit with all of you.

Couldn't have said it better myself! Congrats on getting halfway to HoF!

Thank you Mike. I know it's always ODAAT but it still feels pretty awesome.

Great job gw. I had to go back to see which brother this was. lol. Half way to 100 is great. You have a couple more speed bumps to travel over, but nothing you can't handle. It is clear what your intentions were when you joined ktc. Proud of you. Keep them tools sharp and use them if necessary. Glad to be quit with you.

Way to quit brother! Keep chopping the quit wood ODAAT. I am quit with you all day long!

[srans]

Last post was Day 23 ? Really ? Wow.  That seems like yesterday.  And today I'm half way to my HOF + 1 !!!!!   Simply amazing.  Thank you to the vets that came along beside me and gave me support and encouragement.  I'm learning so much here.  Seeing strength in my self I never knew I had.  It brings about such a feeling of pride.  To actually be overcoming day by day a terrible addiction that I thought I'd live with the rest of my life.  Y'all know what I mean.  AJ said recently exactly what I've come to learn.  That I'm learning who I am without nicotine.  I've dealt with every issue of life with nicotine in my mouth.  It's been a crutch all this time and now I have to learn how to go through life nicotine sober. 

The nicotine crutch has been replaced.  Replaced with new relationships and friendships.  My fellow December Soldiers of quit. We have been going through this together under the watchful eyes of our experienced veteran leaders.  But I confess, my hands are ghostly white.  White from clinging so tightly to KTC safety line.  Reading about folks with many many days free of nicotine caving.  And seeing others that caved, coming back to join new quit groups because they caved.   It's scary.  I wish them all great success in their returns.   But it really scares me.  I've drank the cool aide here.  I love it's flavor.  And I wish to never have a day without carrying that cup with me all day.  And that means - post roll every day, stay connected with my quit brothers, stay involved on KTC by being a supporter of new quitters.

Again.  I just want to say thank you to KTC, all the veteran supporters, and to all my December brothers.  Y'all are the reason I stand here today as a Quitter.  Proud to be quit with all of you.

Couldn't have said it better myself! Congrats on getting halfway to HoF!

Thank you Mike. I know it's always ODAAT but it still feels pretty awesome.

Great job gw. I had to go back to see which brother this was. lol. Half way to 100 is great. You have a couple more speed bumps to travel over, but nothing you can't handle. It is clear what your intentions were when you joined ktc. Proud of you. Keep them tools sharp and use them if necessary. Glad to be quit with you.

[Gdubya]

Last post was Day 23 ? Really ? Wow.  That seems like yesterday.  And today I'm half way to my HOF + 1 !!!!!  Simply amazing.  Thank you to the vets that came along beside me and gave me support and encouragement.  I'm learning so much here.  Seeing strength in my self I never knew I had.  It brings about such a feeling of pride.  To actually be overcoming day by day a terrible addiction that I thought I'd live with the rest of my life.  Y'all know what I mean.  AJ said recently exactly what I've come to learn.  That I'm learning who I am without nicotine.  I've dealt with every issue of life with nicotine in my mouth.  It's been a crutch all this time and now I have to learn how to go through life nicotine sober. 

The nicotine crutch has been replaced.  Replaced with new relationships and friendships.  My fellow December Soldiers of quit. We have been going through this together under the watchful eyes of our experienced veteran leaders.  But I confess, my hands are ghostly white.  White from clinging so tightly to KTC safety line.  Reading about folks with many many days free of nicotine caving.  And seeing others that caved, coming back to join new quit groups because they caved.  It's scary.  I wish them all great success in their returns.  But it really scares me.  I've drank the cool aide here.  I love it's flavor.  And I wish to never have a day without carrying that cup with me all day.  And that means - post roll every day, stay connected with my quit brothers, stay involved on KTC by being a supporter of new quitters.

Again.  I just want to say thank you to KTC, all the veteran supporters, and to all my December brothers.  Y'all are the reason I stand here today as a Quitter.  Proud to be quit with all of you.

Couldn't have said it better myself! Congrats on getting halfway to HoF!

Thank you Mike. I know it's always ODAAT but it still feels pretty awesome.

[Mike from AB]

Last post was Day 23 ? Really ? Wow. That seems like yesterday. And today I'm half way to my HOF + 1 !!!!! Simply amazing. Thank you to the vets that came along beside me and gave me support and encouragement. I'm learning so much here. Seeing strength in my self I never knew I had. It brings about such a feeling of pride. To actually be overcoming day by day a terrible addiction that I thought I'd live with the rest of my life. Y'all know what I mean. AJ said recently exactly what I've come to learn. That I'm learning who I am without nicotine. I've dealt with every issue of life with nicotine in my mouth. It's been a crutch all this time and now I have to learn how to go through life nicotine sober.

The nicotine crutch has been replaced. Replaced with new relationships and friendships. My fellow December Soldiers of quit. We have been going through this together under the watchful eyes of our experienced veteran leaders. But I confess, my hands are ghostly white. White from clinging so tightly to KTC safety line. Reading about folks with many many days free of nicotine caving. And seeing others that caved, coming back to join new quit groups because they caved. It's scary. I wish them all great success in their returns. But it really scares me. I've drank the cool aide here. I love it's flavor. And I wish to never have a day without carrying that cup with me all day. And that means - post roll every day, stay connected with my quit brothers, stay involved on KTC by being a supporter of new quitters.

Again. I just want to say thank you to KTC, all the veteran supporters, and to all my December brothers. Y'all are the reason I stand here today as a Quitter. Proud to be quit with all of you.

Couldn't have said it better myself! Congrats on getting halfway to HoF!

[Gdubya]

Thank you Pinched. And I'll watch out for the 70's. I've definitely experienced the funk recently. Surprised and thankful the wife didn't go buy me snuff and cram it up my, sorry, shove it in my mouth. :-). I realized I'm having to learn to deal with life chemical free, made some attitude adjusting, and back on track. But I'm staying on guard. Thanks again bro.

[Pinched]

GW,
You are doing great so far. Prepare for the 70s because they suck for some reason. I will be right here if you need a hand brother. Just stay the course and keep your mind right, you know the tools and how to use them.

Pinched

[Gdubya]

Last post was Day 23 ? Really ? Wow. That seems like yesterday. And today I'm half way to my HOF + 1 !!!!! Simply amazing. Thank you to the vets that came along beside me and gave me support and encouragement. I'm learning so much here. Seeing strength in my self I never knew I had. It brings about such a feeling of pride. To actually be overcoming day by day a terrible addiction that I thought I'd live with the rest of my life. Y'all know what I mean. AJ said recently exactly what I've come to learn. That I'm learning who I am without nicotine. I've dealt with every issue of life with nicotine in my mouth. It's been a crutch all this time and now I have to learn how to go through life nicotine sober.

The nicotine crutch has been replaced. Replaced with new relationships and friendships. My fellow December Soldiers of quit. We have been going through this together under the watchful eyes of our experienced veteran leaders. But I confess, my hands are ghostly white. White from clinging so tightly to KTC safety line. Reading about folks with many many days free of nicotine caving. And seeing others that caved, coming back to join new quit groups because they caved. It's scary. I wish them all great success in their returns. But it really scares me. I've drank the cool aide here. I love it's flavor. And I wish to never have a day without carrying that cup with me all day. And that means - post roll every day, stay connected with my quit brothers, stay involved on KTC by being a supporter of new quitters.

Again. I just want to say thank you to KTC, all the veteran supporters, and to all my December brothers. Y'all are the reason I stand here today as a Quitter. Proud to be quit with all of you.

[Mike from AB]

Congrats on one month for sure!

[srans]

Congratulations on your first month of freedom. The road here will likely get a little easier - but stay vigilant! You've come a long way in a month - but there is so much more peace ahead. Enjoy the ride brother. Proud to be on your team today.

I also congratulate you. It is apparent you came here to quit. Well,, don't look now, your doing it one day at a time. 1 month is proof you can make it 2 months one day at a time. Your going to have a few more speed bumps,, nothing you can't handle though. Reach out if you need to brother.

[worktowin]

Congratulations on your first month of freedom. The road here will likely get a little easier - but stay vigilant! You've come a long way in a month - but there is so much more peace ahead. Enjoy the ride brother. Proud to be on your team today.

[Derk40]

Come hell or high water, nic is not an option.

This ^^^^^ is what I look for in every quitter. When I began thinking like this I was truly winning. This thinking will keep you quit, get you to the next door and open it. I remember thinking,, I don't care how bad things get,, I'm not giving in. The poison has seen it's last days. Screw you poison. Reed my signature line. Never mind,, I'll just say it.
I hate the poison, I hated it when I woke up and I hate it right now. When noon arrives I'll still hate it and dinner the same. Before I go to bed tonight I will continue hating the poison and even say a prayer mentioning the hate I have for it. I enjoy hating it so much I will wake up tomorrow and start over hating it.

As diesel (as always good post from diesel) pointed out. One day at a time,, that's how this quit works brother. Your just as quit as me right now,, the big difference. My struggle is easier because of time and the battles I've won. Each battle you win will make the next one easier. Each day you add to your quit is more time spent without it. The poison probes,, it looks for the perfect time to strike. Stay the course and keep your head pointed forward. Nothing back there for you!! Glad to be quit with you.

You are damn right nic it is not an option. You won yesterday and for the past 3 weeks. You posted roll today and committed to this day... attack this day just like yesterday. NAFAR  ODAAT! QLF with you today!

[srans]

Come hell or high water, nic is not an option.

This ^^^^^ is what I look for in every quitter. When I began thinking like this I was truly winning. This thinking will keep you quit, get you to the next door and open it. I remember thinking,, I don't care how bad things get,, I'm not giving in. The poison has seen it's last days. Screw you poison. Reed my signature line. Never mind,, I'll just say it.
I hate the poison, I hated it when I woke up and I hate it right now. When noon arrives I'll still hate it and dinner the same. Before I go to bed tonight I will continue hating the poison and even say a prayer mentioning the hate I have for it. I enjoy hating it so much I will wake up tomorrow and start over hating it.

As diesel (as always good post from diesel) pointed out. One day at a time,, that's how this quit works brother. Your just as quit as me right now,, the big difference. My struggle is easier because of time and the battles I've won. Each battle you win will make the next one easier. Each day you add to your quit is more time spent without it. The poison probes,, it looks for the perfect time to strike. Stay the course and keep your head pointed forward. Nothing back there for you!! Glad to be quit with you.

[Diesel2112]

Well. I can tell you this...

First don't worry about craving something that "will never be again". That tells me you aren't thinking about TODAY, you are thinking about forever. The concept of "forever" is a tough one to grasp, not just for quittin nicotine, but for anything. We are only immortal for a limited time, my man. Stay in the here and now. I know it sounds easier than it is, because I too struggled with the very same thing, but it's funny how different your outlook is day to day.

I had many dark days in my early quit. Couldn't grasp the concept of one day at a time, did not think things would get better, and was just kind of "floating", unable to see the forest through the trees.

However I had something you seem to have as well.

Resolve.

I knew I was and still am doing right. I believe you do too.

The good lord gave me a moral compass to steer by when I came into this world. I let nicotine fuck it up and take me off course. Not that I was some slovenly degenerate, but I was letting addiction run my life. I was on a path not only to short change my own life, but my loved ones as well. My wife, my kids, my parents, friends, and family...they were all going to suffer because of my addiction.

I've had loved ones take early thanks to the perils of nicotine, and from reading your intro thread, so have you.

It sucks and it's selfish behavior that caused it. Tell me every time you filled your lip you didn't have some thought of "I know this shit can kill me but...fuck it". I know I did.

Time to take that compass back and return to the proper path. Will it be easy to get back on track? Fuck no. Will it get easier? Fuck yes. Will it always be worth it? You bet your fucking ass.

I'm 470 days quit, cold fucking turkey, jack. Hardest thing I've ever done in my life, yet also the most rewarding. Whenever anybody asks how I did it, I tell them, "the same way I'm still doing it...one day at a time".

Don't try to eat this quit in one big bite, it's too big, you might choke. Grab some KTC silverware and cut it up into bite sized pieces. That's how you take this shit down. You need help cutting your meat, you got a ton of people here willing to help you

Quit on....

[Gdubya]

Well. This day is another notch in my belt. A day finished as promised. Started out like the day before. The usual undertone of stress and craving something that will never be again. Just the usual light stuff that I've been dealing with. Then a little tension that just snow balled to the point of anger and real pain. Just a complete blind side. So humbling. I knew I've been doing well and that I should be on guard. And I have been. But wow. Just out if the blue sort of. But. Come hell or high water, nic is not an option. I with complete sincerity, will if I find my self driving with an intent to purchase nicotine, pull immediately over and zip tie my ass off to a tree, a fence post, anything. I'm not going back. I QLF !!!! EFD !!!!

Now. Tylenol PM and a Blue Moon ought to take me to roll call #23.

Gdubya

[Derk40]

Day 22.  I need dope.  Lots of it.  I don't care who made it or where it comes from.  I don't care if I have to smoke it, sniff it, drink it, pop it, or stick it under my arm pits, I don't care.  Some body please show be some love and just come whack me in the freaking head with a hammer.  I'm gonna get a bottle of water and some zip ties and head out to the pasture. And zip tie my self to a tree of something.  How come we burned all the damn boats ?!?!

all but ranger boats haha....I had to make run to get some of smokey mountain dog shit and it helped allittle this morning.

You have to laugh, G. Isn't it amazing what we did to our bodies all these years? A shredded plant in a cheap ass can - controlled us... Changed us... Poisoned us. And we invited it in every day to take another punch.

No more! Your whole body is rewiring. You are having to relearn some things. We've all been there. Remember this feeling. Because you want some anger in the near future to push you ahead. And you never, ever will have to relive this bullshit. Today is in the books - your name is posted in roll so you don't have to worry about today - just push thru it.

Be careful what part of town you pick for this zip tie session. You might get more than you bargained for!

Stay Strong Brother. We are all pulling for you.

Myself and the world expects one thing from you today g. We expect you to keep your word. You posted today so it's a done deal. Caving is not an option.

What you NEED to do is whatever it takes to keep the poison out. There is a door you NEED to get to. This door is hard to get to and open but you will like what's on the other side. Glad to be Quit with you.

22 days is some good quitting bro! Way to reach out when you were struggling earlier today. That is what you need to do. Do whatever it takes to stay quit today. If u need to use the zip ties... Use them. You got this! Quit on!