Word. 30 and Soul are badasses. They know of what they speak. There is no way around the misery of those first few days, but you only have to suffer through that once. Stay clean, keep the nic out of your system, and everything you're feeling will remain in the rearview mirror. It's just that simple.
We are all addicts. You need to understand that. I struggled with accepting it, but that one fact makes this thing doable. As addicts, we can never have "just one". All I can truly promise you is that I am quit for today. I've posted roll and I will keep that promise.
Reach out if you need anything at all.