All,
Knew the weekend would be particularly rough (4th of July celebrations, golfing opportunities, fishing, swimming, grilling out, extra time w/family, etc.) so I thought I would attack the issue instead of waiting for it to catch me off guard.
To this point (4 days in), I had not had the urge for something to replace the log of shit I used to keep in my lip. Like I said, to this point. Craving to cave sent me on a mission...to find some mint chew (Oregon trail original non tobacco, non-nicotine). I knew I would be picking up beer for the weekend and would be grilling out (2 prime opportunities to chew in the past), so I began my quest.
What the fuck? Every flippin' idiot decided to drive the same time I was on my quest. And it just so happens if they weren't driving, they were working where I was looking for my fake fix.
I have to thank every one of you for all the posts and words of encouragement these last 4 days. I just kept thinking about all the things I've read since I began the quit. Thinking of those items, those I hold myself accountable to, and those of you who hold my word accountable, I can proudly say that I walked into and out of 3 convenience stores (one was the old standby), a state liquor store (told you I had to get beer for the weekend), and a gas station (thank God for Meijer) before I could finally go home and face my family with my plan in place.
Right now I am sitting here after dinner with a beer in one hand, fake mint chew in my lip, and not one bit of guilt or urge for the nic bitch! This feels incredible, to be able to walk through all that BS and still come out on top. You guys are awesome, I hope I can repay it all someday.
Eric71