Quit on Monday

[Grizzly25]

Happy Birthday brother!!! I know a day late.... but .......

[jaginvest]

Happy Birthday Brother! Glad to be on this journey with you...
QLAFM

[kana]

Day 177:

First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth!  Don't miss it a bit!  I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though! 

Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!

QLAFM

Felicitations on the annual celebration of your birth 'Cheers'

I'll be celebrating a birthday without the shit next week. I can't wait. I don't even remember what it's like.

Happy Birthday Eric,

Every milestone is something we should remember and cherish.

My last 5 birthday's were failed attempts. Along with many other failed attempts. This year is different. This year I'm quit,  will be quit for 10 months by my next b-day. :D

[Tazbutane]

Day 177:

First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth!  Don't miss it a bit!  I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though! 

Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!

QLAFM

Felicitations on the annual celebration of your birth 'Cheers'

I'll be celebrating a birthday without the shit next week. I can't wait. I don't even remember what it's like.

Happy Birthday Eric,

Every milestone is something we should remember and cherish.

[epayne]

Day 177:

First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth! Don't miss it a bit! I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though!

Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!

QLAFM

Felicitations on the annual celebration of your birth 'Cheers'

I'll be celebrating a birthday without the shit next week. I can't wait. I don't even remember what it's like.

[eric71]

Day 177:

First birthday in 16 years I haven't started it with a log of shit in my mouth! Don't miss it a bit! I miss everything I did miss as a result of trying to kill myself slowly over that time though!

Freedom is a wonderful thing fellas! Do not become complacent and revel in your daily accomplishment!

QLAFM

[SirDerek]

DAY 174:

I have had a good quit going lately. I am convinced the dedication of my quit is directly linked to how other facets of my life are going. I am in a good position in my career. I am in good shape and still enjoy lifting weights and exercise 5x a week. Marriage and home life is on the upswing, there are more good days than bad. My faith is strong and I am looking forward to the Christmas season.

I am convinced my quit is independent of these facets as well. As I had detailed in previous entries, all was not always rosy. It was during those times that I, above everything else going on, realized what the vets had said to us when we were newbies. We were told that the quit had to be about us, nothing else. We were told if it wasn't, failure was imminent. I can say without a shadow of a doubt, in hindsight, my quit was about me in the beginning. I played it off as though I was going to do it for my family and that it would make me better somehow because of doing it for them.

In reality, I did quit for me. I quit for me because my quitting nicotine would make me a better, more reliable, honest, and dedicated husband and father. I did quit in spite of my ego. Sure I let myself believe for a while I did it for them. When I truly analyze it though, my quit was a way of the better me winning out so that those thoughts I harbored about wanting to be the best husband and father a man could be would become reality, not unfulfilled desires.

Now, everyday, my quit is about me. It is about me because my quit gives me the freedom to go out and be who I want to be.

I've stated it before but it bears repeating, I would rather live a full life from this point on than a life full of regret.

QLAFM

beautiful man,

and to those reading I totally agree and pay attention as the quit needs to totally be about yourself as Eric said. It definately is not lip service. Internalize it, make it for yourself and let the rest of the cards unfold as things with your whole life will get better.

[eric71]

DAY 174:

I have had a good quit going lately. I am convinced the dedication of my quit is directly linked to how other facets of my life are going. I am in a good position in my career. I am in good shape and still enjoy lifting weights and exercise 5x a week. Marriage and home life is on the upswing, there are more good days than bad. My faith is strong and I am looking forward to the Christmas season.

I am convinced my quit is independent of these facets as well. As I had detailed in previous entries, all was not always rosy. It was during those times that I, above everything else going on, realized what the vets had said to us when we were newbies. We were told that the quit had to be about us, nothing else. We were told if it wasn't, failure was imminent. I can say without a shadow of a doubt, in hindsight, my quit was about me in the beginning. I played it off as though I was going to do it for my family and that it would make me better somehow because of doing it for them.

In reality, I did quit for me. I quit for me because my quitting nicotine would make me a better, more reliable, honest, and dedicated husband and father. I did quit in spite of my ego. Sure I let myself believe for a while I did it for them. When I truly analyze it though, my quit was a way of the better me winning out so that those thoughts I harbored about wanting to be the best husband and father a man could be would become reality, not unfulfilled desires.

Now, everyday, my quit is about me. It is about me because my quit gives me the freedom to go out and be who I want to be.

I've stated it before but it bears repeating, I would rather live a full life from this point on than a life full of regret.

QLAFM

[CleanFuel]

Day 162:

Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage.  I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip.  Did I want to give up on my marriage?  Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another?  If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them. 

What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak.  That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish.  That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of.  That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me.  That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness. 

That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit.  There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't.  There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't.  There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is.  There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do.  There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there.  There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone. 

Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer.  The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses.  We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves,  look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.

You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life.  Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life.  I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco.  I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life.  I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site.  I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall.  I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.

I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down.  That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.

Thanks for reading,
Eric

That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.

When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.

Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM

Eric,

Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.

KTC take the time to read this.........

Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.

Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)

Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.

I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'

Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!

Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...

Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.

I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.

Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!

Bravo Eric! 'clap'

Thanks Eric!! Very proud of you! that was a fabulous read.. 'clap'

Real nice work eric. Real nice!

Badass and Sick Nasty.......that's how E rolls.......POWWWWWW.....love this

[Roamcountry]

Day 162:

Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage.  I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip.  Did I want to give up on my marriage?  Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another?  If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them. 

What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak.  That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish.  That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of.  That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me.  That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness. 

That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit.  There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't.  There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't.  There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is.  There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do.  There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there.  There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone. 

Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer.  The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses.  We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves,  look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.

You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life.  Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life.  I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco.  I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life.  I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site.  I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall.  I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.

I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down.  That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.

Thanks for reading,
Eric

That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.

When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.

Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM

Eric,

Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.

KTC take the time to read this.........

Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.

Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)

Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.

I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'

Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!

Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...

Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.

I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.

Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!

Bravo Eric! 'clap'

Thanks Eric!! Very proud of you! that was a fabulous read.. 'clap'

Real nice work eric. Real nice!

[kana]

Day 162:

Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage.  I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip.  Did I want to give up on my marriage?  Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another?  If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them. 

What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak.  That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish.  That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of.  That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me.  That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness. 

That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit.  There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't.  There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't.  There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is.  There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do.  There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there.  There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone. 

Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer.  The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses.  We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves,  look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.

You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life.  Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life.  I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco.  I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life.  I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site.  I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall.  I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.

I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down.  That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.

Thanks for reading,
Eric

That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.

When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.

Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM

Eric,

Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.

KTC take the time to read this.........

Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.

Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)

Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.

I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'

Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!

Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...

Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.

I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.

Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!

Bravo Eric! 'clap'

Thanks Eric!! Very proud of you! that was a fabulous read.. 'clap'

[30yraddict]

Day 162:

Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage.  I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip.  Did I want to give up on my marriage?  Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another?  If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them. 

What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak.  That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish.  That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of.  That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me.  That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness. 

That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit.  There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't.  There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't.  There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is.  There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do.  There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there.  There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone. 

Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer.  The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses.  We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves,  look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.

You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life.  Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life.  I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco.  I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life.  I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site.  I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall.  I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.

I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down.  That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.

Thanks for reading,
Eric

That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.

When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.

Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM

Eric,

Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.

KTC take the time to read this.........

Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.

Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)

Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.

I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'

Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!

Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...

Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.

I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.

Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!

Bravo Eric! 'clap'

[Bruce]

Day 162:

Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage.  I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip.  Did I want to give up on my marriage?  Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another?  If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them. 

What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak.  That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish.  That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of.  That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me.  That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness. 

That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit.  There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't.  There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't.  There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is.  There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do.  There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there.  There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone. 

Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer.  The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses.  We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves,  look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.

You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life.  Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life.  I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco.  I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life.  I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site.  I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall.  I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.

I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down.  That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.

Thanks for reading,
Eric

That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.

When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.

Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM

Eric,

Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.

KTC take the time to read this.........

Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.

Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)

Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.

I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'

Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!

Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...

Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.

I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.

Eric, this is hands down the best post I have ever read on this site. I'm saving this, and postin it in my group. Thank you for posting this!

[cdaniels]

Day 162:

Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage.  I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip.  Did I want to give up on my marriage?  Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another?  If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them. 

What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak.  That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish.  That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of.  That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me.  That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness. 

That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit.  There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't.  There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't.  There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is.  There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do.  There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there.  There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone. 

Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer.  The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses.  We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves,  look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.

You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life.  Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life.  I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco.  I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life.  I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site.  I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall.  I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.

I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down.  That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.

Thanks for reading,
Eric

That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.

When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.

Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM

Eric,

Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.

KTC take the time to read this.........

Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.

Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)

Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.

I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'

Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!

Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...

Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.

I dont think i have cried as much as i am right now in a long time. My heart is even crying. Thank you so much for putting words to my thoughts. Well said glad to be quit with you Eric. And all the rest of you here at this blessed site ktc.

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Day 162:

Been quiet for a while in here, I've had to deal with some of the more important issues in life like marriage.  I can honestly say that during this phase, not one fucking time did I want to stick cancer in my lip.  Did I want to give up on my marriage?  Sure, haven't we all felt that way at one time or another?  If not, consider yourself truly blessed and make sure you let your spouse know how much you love them. 

What I have come to realize though is that being quit has further developed a mental resolve in me to overcome where the outlook looks bleak.  That being quit drives me to be something more than selfish.  That being quit inspires me to be the man my wife and children can look at as a husband/father to be proud of.  That being quit is a chance to take those tools (the ones that keep me quit) and apply them to other facets of my life to make me a better me.  That being quit takes discipline, attitude, perseverance, faith, and selflessness. 

That being in a marriage is a lot like being quit.  There are times when we feel like giving up on our quit but we don't.  There are times when we feel like being selfish but we aren't.  There are times we feel like it's not worth the time and effort but it is.  There are times when it is so fucking hard that we don't know how we can go on one more minute but we do.  There are times when we don't see the light at the end of the tunnel but it's there.  There are times when we feel no one can possibly know or understand what we are going through but there is someone. 

Then, there is that time when we question who that person might be that knows and feels all this we experience and we demand an answer.  The answer we get catches us by surprise and we suddenly look at this life through a different set of lenses.  We look at it through their eyes and suddenly we, ourselves,  look like a weak, selfish, egocentric, narcissistic, piece of shit that no one could love.

You see, being quit has made me realize that I have made some major mistakes in my life.  Having tools to use to keep me quit has bled over into other phases of my life.  I was not meant to travel upon this site and just be quit from tobacco.  I was meant to incorporate the skills I have learned by staying quit into a process of remodeling my life.  I am in an evolution of myself thanks to this site.  I am becoming a better husband, a better father, a better model of behavior in my church and community, and a better person overall.  I am showing that it is acceptable to be strong and soft at the same time, to be firm but gentle, and to be loving.

I am loving what I am becoming and know that the day I give in to one of my addictions will be the day that I let my wife, family, friends, and this community down.  That day, with the help of you all and the Good Lord, will not come.

Thanks for reading,
Eric

That is what I call MADMAN Quittin' right there. Everyone needs some space every once in a while to put things in perspective. We are all about accountability, and you have remained 100%. Even through the rough times you have been facing.

When we start on KTC, it is ALL about the quit. But now, it's about so much more. The lessons learned here are bigger than the quit. They are life lessons, not just quit lessons. They are applicable in all aspects of our lives. We ARE put on this earth to experience relationship. Plain and simple. You, my brother, have figured that out. Keep her close, and let her hold you accountable just like we do. You will come through this a better man.

Proud to be quit with you today and any day...QLAFM

Eric,

Very lucky that I stumble on this masterpiece. Well said and damn I feel like you do.

KTC take the time to read this.........

Now this is the kind of shit I love seeing in the morning! It just makes my day to read about someone applying the quit lessons learned to their life. Everything uttered above me is 100% truth. I'm with you guys, being quit has taught me more about myself than I could have ever imagined.

Quit Like (A) Fuck (ing) (Madman)

Thanks for taking the time Eric, proud to be quit with you.

I would say again that someone here has wrote what alot of us think!!! 'clap' 'clap'

Proud to be quit with you and stay strong brother remember if it was easy it wouldnt be worth having!

Thanks for sharing that Eric. I alway's enjoy your posts...You have come a long way, and I'm effin proud of you...

Sir Eric, I do believe that you have written/shared what all serious quitters are feeling and thinking.
Thank you for the inspiration.