So today marks 3 years since I threw the nic bitch to the curb and quite a lot has transpired in that time. Those of you who know of me, very few of you "know" me, know that I speak my mind and am comfortable enough in my own skin to do so. The journey of a quitter is never over; it just changes. My journey as a quitter has me questioning the value of intimate relationships. The type of relationship so close to your being that if/when it ends, you cannot recall what you were before that relationship started or who you are able to be after it. Today is extremely bittersweet. 3 years ago my family celebrated me throwing a can of chew in the garbage. They cried, kissed, hugged, loved me, and supported my decision. Today, I walk this journey alone. My family is gone. Wife seeking divorce, lying, cheating, and placing a protection order against me to "protect" her and my children from having contact with me. I've done nothing, no one in my family was ever harmed. I finished coaching my son's baseball team on Tuesday evening and may not see my children ever again. I have been ostracized by those I let inside my armor. My celebration today is seeing all those who quit today remain quit. There will be no anniversary dinner, no ice cream, no hugs, kisses, pats on the back. There is a bitter memory of days gone by; of a life squandered, a journey for reason and purpose. I still am quit. I still do it for myself and to show my children that commitment is hard and that the reward of a journey IS THE JOURNEY ITSELF. Somehow, at least today, this reward feels less like a reward and more like a sentence. If you are not giving back to those you love on a daily basis in thoughts, deeds, or time, you're missing the opportunity afforded you by your adherence to remain quit. Being quit and not utilizing your journey to better yourself and those you come in contact with is nothing more than an empty quit. It is the self serving prayers by the Pharisee in the temple. The "generosity" of the Politician who steals your hard earned dollars to give to the lazy and undeserving. Don't be empty. Be quit and be a fulfillment to your life and others.