Gunnar’s Quit, February 8th, 11pm

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DonkeyMN

Quote from: Gunnar on April 16, 2019, 10:16:26 PM
Question for you quitters that have had dogs.  Did you ever open a can and let them take a whiff? Almost every dog I’ve had smell a can, including my own, and many other hunting dogs, would curl their lip back and growl at it.  Now this is an animal that licks it’s own ass crack every day, that eats shit (FYI-all dogs are shit eaters), retrieves dead animals for fun.....and they growl at the smell of chew....how in the Actual F did that not sink in for me?

I’m guessing I’m not the only one with that experience....

Mine didn't growl, but he sure did curl back and turn his head like... WTF is THAT shit?

Gross and sad, we were then.  But not anymore.  Never again.  Quit is number 1b, after family and that is all there is.
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Gunnar

Question for you quitters that have had dogs.  Did you ever open a can and let them take a whiff? Almost every dog I’ve had smell a can, including my own, and many other hunting dogs, would curl their lip back and growl at it.  Now this is an animal that licks it’s own ass crack every day, that eats shit (FYI-all dogs are shit eaters), retrieves dead animals for fun.....and they growl at the smell of chew....how in the Actual F did that not sink in for me?

I’m guessing I’m not the only one with that experience....

Gunnar

Thanks guys.  Might be the nic bitch, might not, either way I’m not going back to the tin! Sure am enjoying having lower credit card bills every month!  Just chilling with my 1 yr old boy (sleeping) flipping between NCAA hockey and playoff hockey. Go Bulldogs!

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eschmit04

Quote from: Gunnar on April 05, 2019, 08:46:54 PM
I haven’t had much to say lately....just plugging away at life.  Sometime that statement makes me sad.  Working my corporate job, raising my 2.3 kids (just 2 really) paying my mortgage....the daily grind. Drink 3 beers on Friday night, fall asleep on the couch, start a new week rinse and repeat.

Still QLFADD.....and I wouldn’t really call what I’m in a nic funk at this point, just kind of a general life funk.  Time to pull the big boy pants on and enjoy all the little things that make life great.

Thanks for the pep talk boys....have a great weekend.  And if anyone wants to talk bow hunting turkeys this spring I’m a PM away, just haven’t found that thread on here yet!

Gunnar 56

Gunner I hear you brother. I know that feeling your talking about. I do think it is still related to the nic. We used to have that go to that "sugar pill" that we knew would always be there for us. It was also a stimulant that gave us that little extra kick.

This too shall pass. I know in my heart some day I would look back on this stretch of life and thank myself, maybe even laugh about it. I'm here if you want to chat bro. I can relate.

AWright2262

Quote from: Rick Jr on April 10, 2019, 05:01:36 PM
Quote from: Gunnar on April 05, 2019, 08:46:54 PM
I haven’t had much to say lately....just plugging away at life.  Sometime that statement makes me sad.  Working my corporate job, raising my 2.3 kids (just 2 really) paying my mortgage....the daily grind. Drink 3 beers on Friday night, fall asleep on the couch, start a new week rinse and repeat.

Still QLFADD.....and I wouldn’t really call what I’m in a nic funk at this point, just kind of a general life funk.  Time to pull the big boy pants on and enjoy all the little things that make life great.

Thanks for the pep talk boys....have a great weekend.  And if anyone wants to talk bow hunting turkeys this spring I’m a PM away, just haven’t found that thread on here yet!

Gunnar 56

You are kicking ass Brother and I am Proud to call you a Brother in Mayhem! I know what you are saying. Even this far into our quit, feels like a part of us is missing, but that did that shit really do for us? I have been lucky to have a lot of Great Days, the few shitty days tossed in, I know in my heart a turd won't make me feel better.. well it will for a millisecond, but then we think of the Brothers we let down, tossing that shit away, sure a headache might go away, but I honestly believe that headache was not real, it is more of my addict mind telling me I have one and the only thing that will work is Cancer Shit..

Keep up the Awesome Work, Life is never easy for anyone, but we can still enjoy it without the shit in the lip.

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Rick Jr

Quote from: Gunnar on April 05, 2019, 08:46:54 PM
I haven’t had much to say lately....just plugging away at life.  Sometime that statement makes me sad.  Working my corporate job, raising my 2.3 kids (just 2 really) paying my mortgage....the daily grind. Drink 3 beers on Friday night, fall asleep on the couch, start a new week rinse and repeat.

Still QLFADD.....and I wouldn’t really call what I’m in a nic funk at this point, just kind of a general life funk.  Time to pull the big boy pants on and enjoy all the little things that make life great.

Thanks for the pep talk boys....have a great weekend.  And if anyone wants to talk bow hunting turkeys this spring I’m a PM away, just haven’t found that thread on here yet!

Gunnar 56

You are kicking ass Brother and I am Proud to call you a Brother in Mayhem! I know what you are saying. Even this far into our quit, feels like a part of us is missing, but that did that shit really do for us? I have been lucky to have a lot of Great Days, the few shitty days tossed in, I know in my heart a turd won't make me feel better.. well it will for a millisecond, but then we think of the Brothers we let down, tossing that shit away, sure a headache might go away, but I honestly believe that headache was not real, it is more of my addict mind telling me I have one and the only thing that will work is Cancer Shit..

Keep up the Awesome Work, Life is never easy for anyone, but we can still enjoy it without the shit in the lip.

Gunnar

I haven’t had much to say lately....just plugging away at life.  Sometime that statement makes me sad.  Working my corporate job, raising my 2.3 kids (just 2 really) paying my mortgage....the daily grind. Drink 3 beers on Friday night, fall asleep on the couch, start a new week rinse and repeat.

Still QLFADD.....and I wouldn’t really call what I’m in a nic funk at this point, just kind of a general life funk.  Time to pull the big boy pants on and enjoy all the little things that make life great.

Thanks for the pep talk boys....have a great weekend.  And if anyone wants to talk bow hunting turkeys this spring I’m a PM away, just haven’t found that thread on here yet!

Gunnar 56

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Quote from: Gunnar on March 14, 2019, 07:56:25 AM
Been a rough 7 days at our house as influenza A rips through 3 out of 4 of us. So far the 4yr old has escaped.  Flu shots for all, but the strain that hit us didn’t give a shit!

During my feverish nights I tend to have some wild dreams, and I had my first dip dream, and in it we were working on my ‘96 Chevy Silverado getting her back up and running.   I definitely had the in dream guilt and I was trying to figure out why I’d dip, and I was already dreading my next Day 1.   As soon as I woke up I knew I hadn’t dipped, and feeling a of relief came over me.  It wasn’t as vivid or convincing as I’ve heard some describe but I assume it is just different for everyone.

Stay quit brothers Gunnar 34
Damn brother sounds like you got your hands full! While they completely suck, the best part about dip dreams is that whatever your addict brain managed to concoct, it didn't happen. I've had some dip dreams where I almost log onto to KTC in my dream and have to post a Day 1. Nuts.

Take care of yourself and your family and I hope everything starts looking up soon! Proud to be quit with you today Gunnar!
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Gunnar

Been a rough 7 days at our house as influenza A rips through 3 out of 4 of us. So far the 4yr old has escaped.  Flu shots for all, but the strain that hit us didn’t give a shit!

During my feverish nights I tend to have some wild dreams, and I had my first dip dream, and in it we were working on my ‘96 Chevy Silverado getting her back up and running.   I definitely had the in dream guilt and I was trying to figure out why I’d dip, and I was already dreading my next Day 1.   As soon as I woke up I knew I hadn’t dipped, and feeling a of relief came over me.  It wasn’t as vivid or convincing as I’ve heard some describe but I assume it is just different for everyone.

Stay quit brothers Gunnar 34

chris2alaska

Quote from: Gunnar on March 10, 2019, 08:28:51 AM
30 days quit.  That number of days means nothing.  With 25 years of chewing under my belt, 30 days quit is a sprinkle of freshwater in the ocean comparatively.  However, it is 30 days of no nicotine and that means everything. This time I’m quit.  I’m sitting her early morning (since I’m reading it isn’t all that early anymore, oh well) which is normal, with my 1 year old son, typing this in between books he is bringing me to read, Dr. Seuss books are his jam right now.  It is a favorite time of day on the weekend.

My dad chewed for as long as I have memory, and my mom smoked.  I won’t blame them for any of my bad habits, I’m not someone who blames my parents for anything in my life.  My dad did his best to tell me I’m a fucking idiot for starting.  They instilled good values in me and made me a decent and productive human being and I thank them for that.  However I learned what chew was and that it must be ok since my dad and older brother did it.  That is one of the many things I’m thankful for with being quit.  My daughter and son won’t see me with a dip in my lip.  I don’t need it and I can’t have those talks with them without guilt, when the time comes.   I know that doesn’t mean they won’t try it or have friends that get them hooked, but he’ll if it will be me that starts them.

My 4 year old is now awake and all is well in the world.  Another 6 inches of snow and it is till coming down.  We’ll be out plowing, shoveling, and sledding later today.  Life is good, and getting better everyday nic free.

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#19
30 days quit.  That number of days means nothing.  With 25 years of chewing under my belt, 30 days quit is a sprinkle of freshwater in the ocean comparatively.  However, it is 30 days of no nicotine and that means everything. This time I’m quit.  I’m sitting here early morning (since I’m reading it isn’t all that early anymore, oh well) which is normal, with my 1 year old son, typing this in between books he is bringing me to read, Dr. Seuss books are his jam right now.  It is a favorite time of day on the weekend.

My dad chewed for as long as I have memory, and my mom smoked.  I won’t blame them for any of my bad habits, I’m not someone who blames my parents for anything in my life.  My dad did his best to tell me I’m a fucking idiot for starting.  They instilled good values in me and made me a decent and productive human being and I thank them for that.  However I learned what chew was and that it must be ok since my dad and older brother did it.  That is one of the many things I’m thankful for with being quit.  My daughter and son won’t see me with a dip in my lip.  I don’t need it and I can have those talks with them without guilt, when the time comes.   I know that doesn’t mean they won’t try it or have friends that get them hooked, but hell if it will be me that starts them.

My 4 year old is now awake and all is well in the world.  Another 6 inches of snow and it is still coming down.  We’ll be out plowing, shoveling, and sledding later today.  Life is good, and getting better everyday nic free.

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Keep posting in your intro Gunnar.  Writing is therapeutic.  The beauty of it is, you can read your intro when you are having a difficult time.  It really helps.  It also helps those who come after you, when they have times of trouble.
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Gunnar

Ok old man winter that’s enough. 45” of snow in less than 29 days....come on.  The older I get the less I like winter.  My daughter however loves the snow so that is my saving grace, the only reason I haven’t completely lost it this winter.

Just some random thoughts, but as Candoit has pointed out to me the shovel, plow, snowblower, all still work without a dip.  I think I’m over the physical aspects of quitting.  Hope all you quitters are doing well this Friday night.  Proud to quit with you.

For any of you potential quitters wishing you could kick the shit. You can, it is 1 simple decision away.  If you can make that decision and 100% buy into it you will be quit.  You cannot be 50%, 75%, 95%, or even 99%. 100% buy into the decision to quit, flush your tin and start posting. 

Rick Jr

Quote from: Gunnar on February 27, 2019, 11:01:58 PM
Almost 3 weeks now...This is when complacency is suppose to start to slide in.  i can see that, I’ll have to be vigilant to that nic b.

Interesting side effect, I fall asleep almost immediately after the kids are in bed or the house settles down.  If I sit down in a chair or on the couch, I’m out like a light....anyone going through that difference?

Happy to be quit with all you quitters! Day 19 still...

I am in the same boat, and honestly I kind of like it. My routine has changed a little, I use to do a little gaming now and again to unwind, but now I just feel relaxed. Proud to be Quit with you

Gunnar

Almost 3 weeks now...This is when complacency is suppose to start to slide in.  i can see that, I’ll have to be vigilant to that nic b.

Interesting side effect, I fall asleep almost immediately after the kids are in bed or the house settles down.  If I sit down in a chair or on the couch, I’m out like a light....anyone going through that difference?

Happy to be quit with all you quitters! Day 19 still...