Hi All,
I'm pulling out all the stops this time as I am determined to rid myself of dip. I'm one of the lucky ladies hooked to that junk. Started out as an on and off user, introduced by an ex who thought it was "so hot" for a chick to dip, then married a guy who thinks the same. Quit completely for three pregnancies and didn't use much in between, but then picked it up again camping two summers ago as an appetite suppressor. I've lost the 70lbs of baby weight, but let myself get dependent on dip during the process. There are so many reasons I want to quit: terrified of having to have my face cut off, terrified of giving my little boys the burden of addiction because of my bad example (they're getting old enough that they notice now and old enough to remember "mommy gum" at a later age), and tired of feeling fuzzy headed and bummed out every Monday (I'm a weekend user, mostly). I'm so frustrated at myself for letting that little can win SO MANY TIMES. I read recently that nicotine addiction is prevalent among self-harmers. I'd never thought about this aspect before and it really bothers me: basically, the pride I feel for ending my harming days is bs, I just switched mediums and have been fooling myself. Makes me feel so ashamed. I'm Catholic (not a very good one, huh?) and after reading that research article, I'm going to haul my rear in and confess my nicotine use in there, as well as on here. Nicotine use isn't considered a moral wrong in and of it's own in our Church, but it's definitely a "wrong" where I'm concerned. I have to stop coddling my cravings and stand up to my weak resolve. I can use all the support this group can offer. :) TIA and much resolve to all of us.