Introduction to Addiction

[Bruce]

Day 5. Today fucking sucked! I can't focus on anything. Women's tennis wins today for holding my attention the longest. Made worse by the fact that I was paying attention to that while out to lunch with a customer. I can't sleep, not even tired tonight, just all day today. I also miss my morning shit, between 6:30 and 7 every morning. Now I randomly wander into the shitter 3-7 times a day with only about a 10% success rate.

All this suck and the only thing that keeps me going is that I'm never going to go through these days again. This is it the last quit. No more stops or breaks. NO MORE CAVES! I have been through these days before though. Stopped both smoking and dipping in 06 and stayed quit for a little over a year. Since then there have been probably 1 or 2 quits that lasted 100+ days and several that were a week to a month. Once I had a shred of accountability. In my 06 quit my wife was behind me 100%. She was my cheerleader. She was proud of my accomplishment. She told others about how good I was doing. And then I squandered it all. Not only did I cave, but I did not let my one true partner in this life in on my dirty little secret. Five years later my 3 year old daughter found a pouch, I had left it on the night stand when I took a nap on a day off. She took it to my wife and asked, "What's this?"

On that day my marriage was changed forever. I had betrayed her trust. If I could lie about this what else could I lie about? A year and a half later and we are still battling back from that moment. And now worst of all my wife does not trust in my quit. She is happy for me, glad that I have made the choice to quit, but she can't trust that I will stay quit or that I will not lie to her about it. She says that neither she nor our marriage are strong enough to go through that kind of betrayal again. She has also seen some failed attempts since she found me out, and was likely not trustful in those either. Like I said my one chance of accountability and I shit on it. Did not even have the nuts to confess my cave. Just carried on dipping for another five years.

Since my big cave and the beginning of my life of lies in 07 I have had no accountability in any of my failed attempts to kick this addiction. I have been accountable only to myself and my own nicotine addicted brain. And that is why I am here. I need to be held accountable. Without accountability I will fail. I do not think that it will be today or tomorrow or in 3 months, maybe not even 6 months. I have passed those milestones before on previous stops. But the bitch has always lured me back with "just one." I need brotherhood and accountability, and I need to find it now, while I'm still feeling "all zealous and shit."

My take away for the day is that I will always be a pickle (addict), for the rest of my life. I will never be a cucumber (normal) again. I must remain determined and vigilant 1yr, 10yrs, and 30 yrs down the road to never use nicotine in any form ever again.

For now I quit today. I will go try to get some sleep, wake up, post roll first thing and quit for another day.

This is why we have a saying around here, ODAAT. One day at a time.

You could use some ODAAT right now, because you are getting way ahead of yourself. There is no need to worry about the future, only today, all you need to wrap your addicted mind around is being quit right now, this day, this hour this minute. I can't tell you what I will be doing in another 1,000 days, if I will be here, if I will be quit, if I will even be alive. But today, we are quit.

With that being said, drink more water, go get some cranberry juice and drink that too. You should be almost out of the fog, but those can help you get through it.

[mat849]

Day 5. Today fucking sucked! I can't focus on anything. Women's tennis wins today for holding my attention the longest. Made worse by the fact that I was paying attention to that while out to lunch with a customer. I can't sleep, not even tired tonight, just all day today. I also miss my morning shit, between 6:30 and 7 every morning. Now I randomly wander into the shitter 3-7 times a day with only about a 10% success rate.

All this suck and the only thing that keeps me going is that I'm never going to go through these days again. This is it the last quit. No more stops or breaks. NO MORE CAVES! I have been through these days before though. Stopped both smoking and dipping in 06 and stayed quit for a little over a year. Since then there have been probably 1 or 2 quits that lasted 100+ days and several that were a week to a month. Once I had a shred of accountability. In my 06 quit my wife was behind me 100%. She was my cheerleader. She was proud of my accomplishment. She told others about how good I was doing. And then I squandered it all. Not only did I cave, but I did not let my one true partner in this life in on my dirty little secret. Five years later my 3 year old daughter found a pouch, I had left it on the night stand when I took a nap on a day off. She took it to my wife and asked, "What's this?"

On that day my marriage was changed forever. I had betrayed her trust. If I could lie about this what else could I lie about? A year and a half later and we are still battling back from that moment. And now worst of all my wife does not trust in my quit. She is happy for me, glad that I have made the choice to quit, but she can't trust that I will stay quit or that I will not lie to her about it. She says that neither she nor our marriage are strong enough to go through that kind of betrayal again. She has also seen some failed attempts since she found me out, and was likely not trustful in those either. Like I said my one chance of accountability and I shit on it. Did not even have the nuts to confess my cave. Just carried on dipping for another five years.

Since my big cave and the beginning of my life of lies in 07 I have had no accountability in any of my failed attempts to kick this addiction. I have been accountable only to myself and my own nicotine addicted brain. And that is why I am here. I need to be held accountable. Without accountability I will fail. I do not think that it will be today or tomorrow or in 3 months, maybe not even 6 months. I have passed those milestones before on previous stops. But the bitch has always lured me back with "just one." I need brotherhood and accountability, and I need to find it now, while I'm still feeling "all zealous and shit."

My take away for the day is that I will always be a pickle (addict), for the rest of my life. I will never be a cucumber (normal) again. I must remain determined and vigilant 1yr, 10yrs, and 30 yrs down the road to never use nicotine in any form ever again.

For now I quit today. I will go try to get some sleep, wake up, post roll first thing and quit for another day.

[FMBM707]

Keep up the good work Matt. Use your intro and post about your days, use it as a reminder of how things sucked or to talk about your quit and experience. Take it one day at a time (ODAAT). There will be times when you just need to take one minute at a time. Post roll early and then stick by your word all day. Wake up and repeat. You can do this.

Quit on.

[Tuco]

You killed it today, Matt. That's the most important thing to remember. You faced those triggers head-on and in the smartest way possible. Those mental lapses and general haze are going to persist for a while until your mind learns how not to go from one nicotine "reward" to the next all the live long day. Now's a good time to do the most menial, mindless work you can think of since everything else unrelated to staying quit is going to be on autopilot for a little while. Keep it up and QLF!

[mat849]

Going into the last hour of 12 1/2 hr work day. A harder day for me than any weekend. I never used to dip at home, only at work. Anyway, despite the mental lapses and general haze that seemed to follow me through my day I did not face any of the will crumbling cravings that I have been dreading. Armed with my sunflower seeds, gum, and ever present water bottle I made it through the morning and past the after lunch dip time.
I did have a brief moment of panic reading the posts about smokey mountain today. All of a sudden around 3pm I had to have some. Luckily the local qt had some. I know I'm supposed to avoid c stores, so as an extra precaution I pulled out my copy of the Contract to Give Up and read through it again before I went in.
My need for a smokey mountain fix wasn't like the rushed, must have it now, trips to the c store that have toppled several prior stoppages. There was no oppressive or overwhelming feeling that accompanied my trip. I felt that i was in control not the bitch.
All day i have read and thought about this site. For the first time my mind has something to fixate on other than "the need." I f*ng hate that I even call it that, but that's what it used to feel like. oh well, not today. Today i quit. Day 4. Where's the calculator that shows how many days i added to my life by quitting. I plan on posting roll on all of those days too. Thanks ktc!

[mb289]

Welcome Matt. You are off to a great start! I know it's hard now, but you can do it. Read all you can on this site, talk with people and get in the chat room if need be. I also want you to know that it does get easier...much easier, eventually. Great job on posting roll. Never under estimate the importance of posting roll. PM me if I can help.

mb289

[Dagranger]

This is my introduction and my first post other than roll call the last two days. This is day two of my quit. I have been addicted to nicotine in some form for twenty years. A smoker first and a dipper for the last 15. I have been married for 8 years. I quit both smoking and dipping before getting married but picked up the digusting habit of dipping again about a year into my marriage. I hid this from my wife until she found me out last year. Anger, betrayal, loss of trust, all the fun stuff. She said at the time, and I do believe her, that it was the lying not the act itself that was so hurtful.
So why all the sneaking, hiding, and lying? "It's just something I'm doing right now to get me through, fill in the blank." "I'm going to quit soon and then there will be nothing to tell and nothing to hide." The all too familiar excuses of an addict. And yet I still didn't see it. Since being discovered there have been several failed quits. Not much different from still living in the lie. How many times did I quit? And how many different ways? And always for someone else, so i won't get caught, because somone else in my life won't understand how this disgusting habit can make me feel so good.
And then a couple of nights ago my wife says to me "I'm not going to be the wife that makes you quit, because it's something you enjoy. I don't like it, I find it disgusting, but it's not affecting our family like being a smoker would." It's not the first time she's said things like this, but for some reason on that night, hearing the addicts lies come out of my wife's mouth struck a chord. In my head I heard "I'm not gonna ask you to stop doing cocainne because it helps you get through the day. I'm not going to ask you to quit using heroine because you enjoy it. Daddy it's ok that you use meth because you don't do it around us."
That same night when everyone else had gone to sleep I went in search of this site. I was fortunate enough to run into someone in the real world who had used this site as an aid in his quit. I had an immediate need to do the same, and make it stick this time. That was 8/21/14, the last day that I dipped. Quit as of 8/22/14. I look forward to turning this shame and addiction into pride and triumph.
My name is Matt, I'm 35 years old, and I am a nicotine addict.

Welcome, Matt. My name is Matt, I'm 36 years old, and you are in virtually the exact same spot as I was almost a month ago. Understanding and admitting openly that you are an addict is the first crucial step in taking control over that addiction. You've got some stops under your belt, so you have a fairly good idea of what to expect over the coming days and weeks. The big difference that you'll find in this place is that we don't stop, we quit. One day at a time. You're 100% on the ball posting roll the past two days. That's two days you've earmarked yourself for some accountability with a promise not to use any nicotine today.

Since I'm assuming this is going to be your final quit, expect the nic bitch to start pulling out all of the stops and throwing everything right up to the kitchen sink at you. Tsunami-esque crave waves. Irritability. Romanticizing the cat turds. Rage. Depression. The whole gambit. The one thing you have now that you never had before is a whole army of quit brothers and vets that will have your back 24/7. All you have to do is make that promise first thing each day, be a man of your word, and hold your quit in the highest utmost regard.

You've officially taken the offramp from the dip freeway right onto the suck, so buckle up. Read everything you can on this site. Start swapping digits. Have a plan to deal with your triggers. Prepare yourself with coping devices like gum, candy, seeds, water, etc. Another tip is to take it easy (i.e. abstain) on the booze for a while. That helped me avoid unnecessary craves.

I quit with you today.

Next time you see your buddy kiss him on the lips because this place rocks. It will save your life if you let it. Dig in and get ready to scratch and claw through the first few days. Do whatever it takes to stay quit. You're one of the last quitters to join November. They're an awesome group of quitters. The more you get involved and post roll and non-roll posts, the better off you will be. Stay strong Matt.

Matt, sounds like you are ready to quit, and that is awesome! READ EVERYTHING ON KTC! Learnt the KTC plan for quitting. Live the plan. The plan works!

You can do this. It will suck until it doesn't, but you can do it, and it gets so much better. Get involved, own your quit, and work it. PM me if you need...

Congrats, Matt.
You're off to a great start. Try not to dwell too much on the past but keep it in mind as what you never want to be or do again. I suggest you be open with your wife about your quit as that adds a layer of accountability.
Reach out if you are struggling or want to rage...that's what we are here for. As you start to win battles against the nic bitch...start to pay it back by helping new quitters and you will find your quit stronger with every word.
Welcome, brother.
PM me if you need anything.

Matt welcome. Great intro, read it often as you progress through your quit. Remembering where you were when you started is a great tool for fighting off craves. You never want to be here again. Two things that will without a doubt make you a stronger quitter....
1. Post roll everyday, preferably right after waking up. Very few caves come from dedicated posters.
2. Be an active member on this site. Try to do a minimum of one extra thing here a day other than posting roll. Updating your intro page, commenting on someone else's, going into the chat room, exchanging phone numbers.

Neither will guarantee you stay quit but doing both will definitely increase you probability of staying quit. Good luck.

[Candoit]

Matt,

I found my self in the same spot exactly 1 month prior to you. Please reach out to those that are in your quit group and beyond. It is the only way I have found to keep on quitting. Read intros find out why people have failed and learn from everyone! Please PM I'd you want to chat or need support.

[Mogul]

Matt, I'm going to paste this post here and see if it doesn't put a little nitro into your quit. This has been previously posted and not new, but a good read from time to time.

Hey bro, let's be calm and rational for 35 seconds. You are thinking that just one pinch can solve your problems. Your gums will not hurt, your tongue won't feel like a filing rod, and your mind will return to normal. That is the Nic Bitch telling you all of that. That is how "they" keep you coming back for more. That is how they line their wallets, with your addiction and ultimately your death. See, this is nothing more than the best money scam going. Just imagine if you could have a 10 million dollar mansion and have someone else pay for it. Well, "they" figured out how to do that. Provide a product that "addicted you" to it and paid off lawmakers to keep it legal. Tax the shit out of it and everybody wins. Except for the addict, you can die. There will be plenty more behind you, you're not special. So, every time you step into that store and throw a five on the counter, just remember you are agreeing to be taxed, proliferated and murdered, all with your money and your blessing. You "OK" this when you lay down your cash.

I want you to suppose for a minute that I walk up to you. Look you in the eye and tell you I'm going to kill you, slowly. I'm going to make you spend thousands of dollars in doctor and hospital bills, I'm going to orphan your kids, make your spouse go at life alone or find another mate. I'm going to take your families money and feed my family with it, also, junior wants a convertible to drive to Harvard. I need some new addicts to pay for that car and his education, you top the list. I need your money addict.

How would you feel about me? Would you do business with me? Would you buy my product? Would you want to kill me? Would you at least stand up for yourself and your family?

Well, I say Fuck Them, you're not taking my money, much less my life without getting the fight of your life. In fact I would rather die on my own accord than let you kill me. It's me or you motherfucker, and I'm not going to lose. All I have to do is Not Dip and you lose. That's it. You are not getting another penny from me you son of a bitch. Not a fucking penny. You will not make me withdraw, you will not make me crave, you will never make me kneel at your alter ever again. I'm in control, not you. I'm pissed, and I'm armed with quit. Fuck you and heed warning I'm out to do to you what you threatened to do to my children. Your on notice tobacco CEO. I'm fucking quit and I will never again let you treat me like a whore.

That might have taken more than 35 seconds, sorry. Hope you get where I'm coming from.

Mogul

[Doc Chewfree]

This is my introduction and my first post other than roll call the last two days. This is day two of my quit. I have been addicted to nicotine in some form for twenty years. A smoker first and a dipper for the last 15. I have been married for 8 years. I quit both smoking and dipping before getting married but picked up the digusting habit of dipping again about a year into my marriage. I hid this from my wife until she found me out last year. Anger, betrayal, loss of trust, all the fun stuff. She said at the time, and I do believe her, that it was the lying not the act itself that was so hurtful.
So why all the sneaking, hiding, and lying? "It's just something I'm doing right now to get me through, fill in the blank." "I'm going to quit soon and then there will be nothing to tell and nothing to hide." The all too familiar excuses of an addict. And yet I still didn't see it. Since being discovered there have been several failed quits. Not much different from still living in the lie. How many times did I quit? And how many different ways? And always for someone else, so i won't get caught, because somone else in my life won't understand how this disgusting habit can make me feel so good.
And then a couple of nights ago my wife says to me "I'm not going to be the wife that makes you quit, because it's something you enjoy. I don't like it, I find it disgusting, but it's not affecting our family like being a smoker would." It's not the first time she's said things like this, but for some reason on that night, hearing the addicts lies come out of my wife's mouth struck a chord. In my head I heard "I'm not gonna ask you to stop doing cocainne because it helps you get through the day. I'm not going to ask you to quit using heroine because you enjoy it. Daddy it's ok that you use meth because you don't do it around us."
That same night when everyone else had gone to sleep I went in search of this site. I was fortunate enough to run into someone in the real world who had used this site as an aid in his quit. I had an immediate need to do the same, and make it stick this time. That was 8/21/14, the last day that I dipped. Quit as of 8/22/14. I look forward to turning this shame and addiction into pride and triumph.
My name is Matt, I'm 35 years old, and I am a nicotine addict.

Welcome, Matt. My name is Matt, I'm 36 years old, and you are in virtually the exact same spot as I was almost a month ago. Understanding and admitting openly that you are an addict is the first crucial step in taking control over that addiction. You've got some stops under your belt, so you have a fairly good idea of what to expect over the coming days and weeks. The big difference that you'll find in this place is that we don't stop, we quit. One day at a time. You're 100% on the ball posting roll the past two days. That's two days you've earmarked yourself for some accountability with a promise not to use any nicotine today.

Since I'm assuming this is going to be your final quit, expect the nic bitch to start pulling out all of the stops and throwing everything right up to the kitchen sink at you. Tsunami-esque crave waves. Irritability. Romanticizing the cat turds. Rage. Depression. The whole gambit. The one thing you have now that you never had before is a whole army of quit brothers and vets that will have your back 24/7. All you have to do is make that promise first thing each day, be a man of your word, and hold your quit in the highest utmost regard.

You've officially taken the offramp from the dip freeway right onto the suck, so buckle up. Read everything you can on this site. Start swapping digits. Have a plan to deal with your triggers. Prepare yourself with coping devices like gum, candy, seeds, water, etc. Another tip is to take it easy (i.e. abstain) on the booze for a while. That helped me avoid unnecessary craves.

I quit with you today.

Next time you see your buddy kiss him on the lips because this place rocks. It will save your life if you let it. Dig in and get ready to scratch and claw through the first few days. Do whatever it takes to stay quit. You're one of the last quitters to join November. They're an awesome group of quitters. The more you get involved and post roll and non-roll posts, the better off you will be. Stay strong Matt.

Matt, sounds like you are ready to quit, and that is awesome! READ EVERYTHING ON KTC! Learnt the KTC plan for quitting. Live the plan. The plan works!

You can do this. It will suck until it doesn't, but you can do it, and it gets so much better. Get involved, own your quit, and work it. PM me if you need...

Congrats, Matt.
You're off to a great start. Try not to dwell too much on the past but keep it in mind as what you never want to be or do again. I suggest you be open with your wife about your quit as that adds a layer of accountability.
Reach out if you are struggling or want to rage...that's what we are here for. As you start to win battles against the nic bitch...start to pay it back by helping new quitters and you will find your quit stronger with every word.
Welcome, brother.
PM me if you need anything.

[B-loMatt]

This is my introduction and my first post other than roll call the last two days. This is day two of my quit. I have been addicted to nicotine in some form for twenty years. A smoker first and a dipper for the last 15. I have been married for 8 years. I quit both smoking and dipping before getting married but picked up the digusting habit of dipping again about a year into my marriage. I hid this from my wife until she found me out last year. Anger, betrayal, loss of trust, all the fun stuff. She said at the time, and I do believe her, that it was the lying not the act itself that was so hurtful.
So why all the sneaking, hiding, and lying? "It's just something I'm doing right now to get me through, fill in the blank." "I'm going to quit soon and then there will be nothing to tell and nothing to hide." The all too familiar excuses of an addict. And yet I still didn't see it. Since being discovered there have been several failed quits. Not much different from still living in the lie. How many times did I quit? And how many different ways? And always for someone else, so i won't get caught, because somone else in my life won't understand how this disgusting habit can make me feel so good.
And then a couple of nights ago my wife says to me "I'm not going to be the wife that makes you quit, because it's something you enjoy. I don't like it, I find it disgusting, but it's not affecting our family like being a smoker would." It's not the first time she's said things like this, but for some reason on that night, hearing the addicts lies come out of my wife's mouth struck a chord. In my head I heard "I'm not gonna ask you to stop doing cocainne because it helps you get through the day. I'm not going to ask you to quit using heroine because you enjoy it. Daddy it's ok that you use meth because you don't do it around us."
That same night when everyone else had gone to sleep I went in search of this site. I was fortunate enough to run into someone in the real world who had used this site as an aid in his quit. I had an immediate need to do the same, and make it stick this time. That was 8/21/14, the last day that I dipped. Quit as of 8/22/14. I look forward to turning this shame and addiction into pride and triumph.
My name is Matt, I'm 35 years old, and I am a nicotine addict.

Welcome, Matt. My name is Matt, I'm 36 years old, and you are in virtually the exact same spot as I was almost a month ago. Understanding and admitting openly that you are an addict is the first crucial step in taking control over that addiction. You've got some stops under your belt, so you have a fairly good idea of what to expect over the coming days and weeks. The big difference that you'll find in this place is that we don't stop, we quit. One day at a time. You're 100% on the ball posting roll the past two days. That's two days you've earmarked yourself for some accountability with a promise not to use any nicotine today.

Since I'm assuming this is going to be your final quit, expect the nic bitch to start pulling out all of the stops and throwing everything right up to the kitchen sink at you. Tsunami-esque crave waves. Irritability. Romanticizing the cat turds. Rage. Depression. The whole gambit. The one thing you have now that you never had before is a whole army of quit brothers and vets that will have your back 24/7. All you have to do is make that promise first thing each day, be a man of your word, and hold your quit in the highest utmost regard.

You've officially taken the offramp from the dip freeway right onto the suck, so buckle up. Read everything you can on this site. Start swapping digits. Have a plan to deal with your triggers. Prepare yourself with coping devices like gum, candy, seeds, water, etc. Another tip is to take it easy (i.e. abstain) on the booze for a while. That helped me avoid unnecessary craves.

I quit with you today.

Next time you see your buddy kiss him on the lips because this place rocks. It will save your life if you let it. Dig in and get ready to scratch and claw through the first few days. Do whatever it takes to stay quit. You're one of the last quitters to join November. They're an awesome group of quitters. The more you get involved and post roll and non-roll posts, the better off you will be. Stay strong Matt.

Matt, sounds like you are ready to quit, and that is awesome! READ EVERYTHING ON KTC! Learnt the KTC plan for quitting. Live the plan. The plan works!

You can do this. It will suck until it doesn't, but you can do it, and it gets so much better. Get involved, own your quit, and work it. PM me if you need...

[Done4Me]

This is my introduction and my first post other than roll call the last two days. This is day two of my quit. I have been addicted to nicotine in some form for twenty years. A smoker first and a dipper for the last 15. I have been married for 8 years. I quit both smoking and dipping before getting married but picked up the digusting habit of dipping again about a year into my marriage. I hid this from my wife until she found me out last year. Anger, betrayal, loss of trust, all the fun stuff. She said at the time, and I do believe her, that it was the lying not the act itself that was so hurtful.
So why all the sneaking, hiding, and lying? "It's just something I'm doing right now to get me through, fill in the blank." "I'm going to quit soon and then there will be nothing to tell and nothing to hide." The all too familiar excuses of an addict. And yet I still didn't see it. Since being discovered there have been several failed quits. Not much different from still living in the lie. How many times did I quit? And how many different ways? And always for someone else, so i won't get caught, because somone else in my life won't understand how this disgusting habit can make me feel so good.
And then a couple of nights ago my wife says to me "I'm not going to be the wife that makes you quit, because it's something you enjoy. I don't like it, I find it disgusting, but it's not affecting our family like being a smoker would." It's not the first time she's said things like this, but for some reason on that night, hearing the addicts lies come out of my wife's mouth struck a chord. In my head I heard "I'm not gonna ask you to stop doing cocainne because it helps you get through the day. I'm not going to ask you to quit using heroine because you enjoy it. Daddy it's ok that you use meth because you don't do it around us."
That same night when everyone else had gone to sleep I went in search of this site. I was fortunate enough to run into someone in the real world who had used this site as an aid in his quit. I had an immediate need to do the same, and make it stick this time. That was 8/21/14, the last day that I dipped. Quit as of 8/22/14. I look forward to turning this shame and addiction into pride and triumph.
My name is Matt, I'm 35 years old, and I am a nicotine addict.

Welcome, Matt. My name is Matt, I'm 36 years old, and you are in virtually the exact same spot as I was almost a month ago. Understanding and admitting openly that you are an addict is the first crucial step in taking control over that addiction. You've got some stops under your belt, so you have a fairly good idea of what to expect over the coming days and weeks. The big difference that you'll find in this place is that we don't stop, we quit. One day at a time. You're 100% on the ball posting roll the past two days. That's two days you've earmarked yourself for some accountability with a promise not to use any nicotine today.

Since I'm assuming this is going to be your final quit, expect the nic bitch to start pulling out all of the stops and throwing everything right up to the kitchen sink at you. Tsunami-esque crave waves. Irritability. Romanticizing the cat turds. Rage. Depression. The whole gambit. The one thing you have now that you never had before is a whole army of quit brothers and vets that will have your back 24/7. All you have to do is make that promise first thing each day, be a man of your word, and hold your quit in the highest utmost regard.

You've officially taken the offramp from the dip freeway right onto the suck, so buckle up. Read everything you can on this site. Start swapping digits. Have a plan to deal with your triggers. Prepare yourself with coping devices like gum, candy, seeds, water, etc. Another tip is to take it easy (i.e. abstain) on the booze for a while. That helped me avoid unnecessary craves.

I quit with you today.

Next time you see your buddy kiss him on the lips because this place rocks. It will save your life if you let it. Dig in and get ready to scratch and claw through the first few days. Do whatever it takes to stay quit. You're one of the last quitters to join November. They're an awesome group of quitters. The more you get involved and post roll and non-roll posts, the better off you will be. Stay strong Matt.

[Quitforsoj]

Welcome - you have about 24 hrs and the nic will be out of your physical system and then you will
Have some ups and downs but will feel better each day - take one hour / one day at a time.

[Tuco]

This is my introduction and my first post other than roll call the last two days. This is day two of my quit. I have been addicted to nicotine in some form for twenty years. A smoker first and a dipper for the last 15. I have been married for 8 years. I quit both smoking and dipping before getting married but picked up the digusting habit of dipping again about a year into my marriage. I hid this from my wife until she found me out last year. Anger, betrayal, loss of trust, all the fun stuff. She said at the time, and I do believe her, that it was the lying not the act itself that was so hurtful.
So why all the sneaking, hiding, and lying? "It's just something I'm doing right now to get me through, fill in the blank." "I'm going to quit soon and then there will be nothing to tell and nothing to hide." The all too familiar excuses of an addict. And yet I still didn't see it. Since being discovered there have been several failed quits. Not much different from still living in the lie. How many times did I quit? And how many different ways? And always for someone else, so i won't get caught, because somone else in my life won't understand how this disgusting habit can make me feel so good.
And then a couple of nights ago my wife says to me "I'm not going to be the wife that makes you quit, because it's something you enjoy. I don't like it, I find it disgusting, but it's not affecting our family like being a smoker would." It's not the first time she's said things like this, but for some reason on that night, hearing the addicts lies come out of my wife's mouth struck a chord. In my head I heard "I'm not gonna ask you to stop doing cocainne because it helps you get through the day. I'm not going to ask you to quit using heroine because you enjoy it. Daddy it's ok that you use meth because you don't do it around us."
That same night when everyone else had gone to sleep I went in search of this site. I was fortunate enough to run into someone in the real world who had used this site as an aid in his quit. I had an immediate need to do the same, and make it stick this time. That was 8/21/14, the last day that I dipped. Quit as of 8/22/14. I look forward to turning this shame and addiction into pride and triumph.
My name is Matt, I'm 35 years old, and I am a nicotine addict.

Welcome, Matt. My name is Matt, I'm 36 years old, and you are in virtually the exact same spot as I was almost a month ago. Understanding and admitting openly that you are an addict is the first crucial step in taking control over that addiction. You've got some stops under your belt, so you have a fairly good idea of what to expect over the coming days and weeks. The big difference that you'll find in this place is that we don't stop, we quit. One day at a time. You're 100% on the ball posting roll the past two days. That's two days you've earmarked yourself for some accountability with a promise not to use any nicotine today.

Since I'm assuming this is going to be your final quit, expect the nic bitch to start pulling out all of the stops and throwing everything right up to the kitchen sink at you. Tsunami-esque crave waves. Irritability. Romanticizing the cat turds. Rage. Depression. The whole gambit. The one thing you have now that you never had before is a whole army of quit brothers and vets that will have your back 24/7. All you have to do is make that promise first thing each day, be a man of your word, and hold your quit in the highest utmost regard.

You've officially taken the offramp from the dip freeway right onto the suck, so buckle up. Read everything you can on this site. Start swapping digits. Have a plan to deal with your triggers. Prepare yourself with coping devices like gum, candy, seeds, water, etc. Another tip is to take it easy (i.e. abstain) on the booze for a while. That helped me avoid unnecessary craves.

I quit with you today.

[mat849]

This is my introduction and my first post other than roll call the last two days. This is day two of my quit. I have been addicted to nicotine in some form for twenty years. A smoker first and a dipper for the last 15. I have been married for 8 years. I quit both smoking and dipping before getting married but picked up the digusting habit of dipping again about a year into my marriage. I hid this from my wife until she found me out last year. Anger, betrayal, loss of trust, all the fun stuff. She said at the time, and I do believe her, that it was the lying not the act itself that was so hurtful.
So why all the sneaking, hiding, and lying? "It's just something I'm doing right now to get me through, fill in the blank." "I'm going to quit soon and then there will be nothing to tell and nothing to hide." The all too familiar excuses of an addict. And yet I still didn't see it. Since being discovered there have been several failed quits. Not much different from still living in the lie. How many times did I quit? And how many different ways? And always for someone else, so i won't get caught, because somone else in my life won't understand how this disgusting habit can make me feel so good.
And then a couple of nights ago my wife says to me "I'm not going to be the wife that makes you quit, because it's something you enjoy. I don't like it, I find it disgusting, but it's not affecting our family like being a smoker would." It's not the first time she's said things like this, but for some reason on that night, hearing the addicts lies come out of my wife's mouth struck a chord. In my head I heard "I'm not gonna ask you to stop doing cocainne because it helps you get through the day. I'm not going to ask you to quit using heroine because you enjoy it. Daddy it's ok that you use meth because you don't do it around us."
That same night when everyone else had gone to sleep I went in search of this site. I was fortunate enough to run into someone in the real world who had used this site as an aid in his quit. I had an immediate need to do the same, and make it stick this time. That was 8/21/14, the last day that I dipped. Quit as of 8/22/14. I look forward to turning this shame and addiction into pride and triumph.
My name is Matt, I'm 35 years old, and I am a nicotine addict.