Nah... Don't be sorry about anything you barf up in your intro dude. As long as it's a part of you being active in cementing your quit foundation... Let it all hang out. I say it all'a time... Get involved and stay involved. Work it. Own it. Freedom comes at a price and you're paying it. Keep laying it down and fairly soon you'll start to get a glimpse of that freedom. It will take on an entirely new meaning for you the further from day 1 you keep going. It just keeps getting better and better and better and...
Thanks Applejack, while I was pondering a part of your post:
"It will take on an entirely new meaning for you the further from day 1 you keep going. It just keeps getting better and better and better and..."
and I was just thinking of something that is sad: the fact that I have spent more years alive on this planet with chew, than without. And all of my adult years, and all of my married years, all of my years with my children have all been clouded with nicotine - what a terrible addiction of mine and time consuming obsession - so wasteful on so many levels.
That being said, I wanted to ***UPDATE*** my physical/mental status catalogue for Day 8:
My mouth feels a lot better, It was a little sore this AM but I am attributing that to an overzealous floss job I did last night.'
Sleep last night was the best I have had since stopping nicotine, no alcohol or sleep aid used, tossed and turned a little, had to get up for the head twice, drinking a lot of water.
Cravings are still here, but are more subtle (I forgot to write this, in the beginning they almost seem involuntary, like your mind tells you, that you have no choice but to submit to this craving - I don't like that feeling at all).
I am able to be around people (I have to for work) who are dipping and not lose my mind.
Headache is still here but I am able to get by without any ibuproferen/Tylenol (I would liken it to being dehydrated and that type of headache) a la - the day after a tremendous work out type headache.
I had a totally freaky dream that I was pulling my teeth out and they were falling out last night - and they were brittle and cracking.
I am going to try and wean myself off of omeprazole (for heartburn stomach acid) - I think I have been taking that daily for around 7-8 years. I don't feel like I need it, but time will tell.
Laters yall - Matt