So, here I am yet again. I quit for 9 months!!!! I had a few life problems happen, nothing really out of the ordinary life BS and bam, I'm back at it. How did I quit for 9 months and let myself go back at it? This question plagues me big time, I don't get it the first can was the hardest to buy. So, here I am again 4 chews in the last 7 days and 0 in the last 2. I'm tired of always thinking that I'm going to die of cancer, I'm tired of looking at my mouth every 2 seconds trying to figure out if "that's normal". I never worried about that stuff after 9 months! I feel like such a failure for going back, well, not this time, I've got to quit for good.
Sorry, just had to get this off my chest, I'm going to be working back in the field in a few days and it's going to be a fight but one that I must win!!!