It's down to this...

[Bill Dance]

No doubt that 71 is gray but at around day 68 my cravings came back hard and intense...some of the worst since week 1. I was hoping they would only last for a few days but they lasted from day 68 all way to day 92! It made it a tougher road to hoe but when there IS no other alternative then you buckle down and power through it. Everything passes in time

[FLLipOut]

Congratulations, Makai! Day 71 is fantastic. Some folks (myself included) had some rough spots in the 70s or thereabouts, so don't let your guard down and keep your quit tools sharp!

[Makai]

Day 71 and I bought some Grinds last week to try out. I'm not craving a dip, but I've got to start eating less and figured this might help.

I kinda like it and think it will be a good energy boost for hikes and fishing.

I have posted roll each day since finding this place 30 days ago. It has helped one day at a time.

[Makai]

Thank you for the link, I watched it tonight and it helped. I've been in a major depression the past few weeks. I've felt like my best friend died, how stupid is that?

[Hawps]

Hell yeah, welcome aboard Makai! Regarding the "associations", it's tough. Nicotine addiction has several side effects such as, foginess, irritability, memory loss, but to me the worst one is the lack of ambition. Our ambition is severely hampered because we are no longer rewarded. As addicts, we reward ourselves during, after, and before completing a task by giving ourselves a dip. If that is taken away, why should we even bother? This can often lead to depression. During day 40-70 this really got to me. Then someone posted this video, ( http://youtu.be/dqFGfy6yvig ) and it made sense. I knew that I had to experience everything I had once associated nicotine with over and over again until the association was gone before I could feel completely normal. Quit on brother, we're here to help.

[Makai]

I started back in high school and was able to keep it in check for years by not chewing much or just quitting for months at a time. After college I started my career and I was full blown 1 can a day. Before getting married my wife said I needed to quit. I didn't as it was more important to me than anything else by that point. I was able to quit a few months before our first anniversary and stayed off it for four years.

There is no excuse for why I took that first dip again 10 years ago, I had this beat. Hadn't thought about it at work or home for a long time but there I was thinking one dip wouldn't hurt. I was extremely embarrassed to have to tell my wife. I promised I wouldn't do it at home or around or son.

I was able to keep things in check for almost a year and then I was back to a can a day and doing it at home.

In the meantime I've been diagnosed with Chrons disease and I was told stopping would be the best thing to keep me from having surgery.

It still took me six months from hearing that to actually quit. I associate everything positive in life to that stupid can. I was a wreck the first week. The threat of a colostomy bag lingering over me still isn't enough for me not to continue wanting a can. How fucked up is that?

Its been 41 days today and all I keep thinking is I should have never had that "one" ten years ago. I was over this and now it's hell all over again. It's better than the first week but I keep thinking of everything I've associated this with and get extremely depressed knowing I can never do it again.
I'm rambling now but I think I posted in the March 2017 place but I'm not sure if I did it right.