Hey all,
I have been a dipper on and off since high school in the late 80's, and I finally realized that I am a slave. I flushed the last of my Cope Sat 10/1/11. I've done this before and it didn't stick (never left the nicotine), but finding this site and reading about how "cold turkey" is the only way really changed my thinking. It was during the first craving attack Saturday when I became desperate, searching the internet for pictures of oral cancer to motivate me when I came across you guys. I've been lurking around here ever since and am blown away by what is happening here-I've always felt so alone with this addiction. I think this is going to work better than looking at pictures of mutilated faces, honestly it just made me want to take another chew.
I travel almost every day for work, all those hours alone in my car with my mistress. I will be leaving in a few hours and know that being in the car is going to be the hardest part. I have been chewing Trident like crazy, I am a little hesitant to try the nic free dip but I may have to.
The physical cravings have been manageable, I can do this. This has to be the last time, please help me and I will commit to tough this out. I am an active off road racing fanatic, the sport I compete in is called "enduro" racing. We ride dirt bikes through the woods until we are ready to drop dead, but we have to push through to finish no matter how bad it hurts. At the checkpoints, far into the wilderness, our buddies help us to keep going with tools, encouragement, and nutrition.
I will think of this commitment as the most important enduro event of my life, but I will need some buddies to be waiting for me at the checkpoints.