Hello...
I am a 27 year old woman - and I chew alot. I find myself making excuse to go home for a "quick" dip and always saying that "this is my last tin". I am ready to quit and today is it.
I started chewing in College and I haven't stopped since - thousands of dollars wasted on a stupid nicotine fix... (I'm from Alberta and a tin is about $20-25 everytime I buy it).
I have been looking online - at pictures and I honestly can't imagine having my face disfigured or even worse dying from something so stupid.
The truth - I find it soooo hard to just stop.
Its hard when I have a dip doing everyday things and its now become a habit.
My boyfriend hates it - I don't want to push people away anymore.
I am embarassed to buy tins at the store - first because I am a woman people give me a gross look and ask if it's for me. Sometimes I lie and say no - its for my boyfriend or a friend - and sometimes I just dont care if they think its gross or not.
It is gross and disgusting.
When I look in the mirror I see a beautiful face and can't imagine what going further with chewing will do - to my teeth, my health... everything.
I know this is going to be really hard - I kind of feel silly thinking that out of all things in life -- this is something I will need a lot of support with.
I hate lying to people, locking myself away to have a dip without judgement from others, I am really starting to hate that once I put a dip in that I crave I feel guilty, I hate the fact that I have done this for so long without giving quitting an honest effort.
Today is my day.