I am done..I mean it this time, after reading many of the past posts and stories..Well, I am motivated and strangely excited for the long road ahead. I'm so glad I found this site to have a place of refuge during this time, which is sure to be the hardest in my life. I have dipped for over half of my life (I'm 30 now, started at 14). I can't wait to gain my freedom from it. Thanks in advance for your support! 'help'