Hello KTC Community. I know I am going to need help to get through this and based on my lurking on the boards, I have found a great, supportive community. A little about me:
I'm 40 years old
I have 4 children, ages 10 and 7 (yes, two sets of twins!).
Married to my beautiful and understanding wife for 15 years
Have chewed for almost 20 years with the last 10 years chewing about a can of Skoal Mint per day.
In an effort to be honest with strangers who don't have to give a crap about me, but will because they care and understand what I will be going through, I do want to tell you my main motivation for quitting. I am scheduled to have surgery in January and my surgeon will not operate if I test positive for nicotine. Originally, when I thought about quitting I said I would just get through surgery/recovery and determine if I want to start again. The reality is, I don't want to be a slave to the can anymore (it really is empowering just typing that!). I hate that I plan every next step in my head around when I can chew, if I have enough, if I have a spitter, how many meetings do I have today-when can I squeeze one in, etc, etc....you all know the drill. I also feel like I am setting a terrible example for so many people, especially my kids.
I know quitting on Thanksgiving isn't the greatest of ideas, but I need the next 4 days to get through the physical symptoms (since I'm off Friday). I can/have gone a day without melting down without chew, so I'm hoping I don't ruin Thanksgiving due to my nic withdrawal.
Sorry for all the rambling....
Gooser77