Well here we are on day 8. I gotta say this blows. I'll take the fog any day and kick its ass all over the place but this trying to talk myself into dipping is getting old. I came to the conclusion this morning that I could snag a can of smokey mountain or some other fake snuff and then it wouldn't be a big deal to go back to the regular stuff when I ran out of the fake because its easier to get to. I didn't get any fake snuff but still what kinda half baked idea is that? I mean come on man that shit kills! I could beat the daylights outta myself for ever starting, stupid know it all teenager.
Anyway my ramblings are over. I gotta get back to work I just need to write that out. Thanks for listening.
Classic week 2. Out of the fog for the most part. Now you're thinking about all the good times you remember while dipping. Your mind is clearer now without the nic, so you're wondering why you're giving up all those "good times" you used to have.
(Imagine the big red X and the buzzer on Family Feud)
The good times you had were in spite of nic not because of it. All the laughs and jokes were because you weren't thinking about the poison seeping through your body at that very moment in time. The laughing was because you weren't thinking that someday you could end up having your tongue surgically removed and a permanent feeding tube put in. When you were joking with your buds with a dip in, you weren't thinking about telling your kids that you had terminal cancer and you would soon die from the selfishness of your ways.
No my friend. The nic wasn't the good times you used to have. You had good times in spite of nic. Now you have the tools to have good times free of nic slavery. You don't have to step out to sneak a dip and interrupt the actual good times going on. You don't need a dip. The NB will do nothing for you except bring you ever closer to the chamber with the live bullet in your game of Russian Roulette.
Stay quit, like the fog, this "rationalization" will too pass. Keep your promise today. Don't worry about anything before today or anything after today. Quit today and quit like your life depends on it.
