Sick of it all!

[sigma1570]

Hi Im Jon...I am a 22 year old college student who has been chewing now for around 7 years. Its funny I look back and I was a stupid ignorant kid that tryed it just because I knew I was not supose to, and always said I wouldent get addicted. I never planed it lasting as long as it has, and by the time I was 19 and decided I wanted to quit was the first time I knew I was addicted. Ever sense then I have tryed quitting many times and faild time after time. It pisses me off so much because I dont lose but this stupid can beats me every day. In the last few months I have been at the point where I just dont care anymore so apathtic to the sistuation. In the last two summers I have quit...going three to four months without a dip but seems like something always happens. This last summer it was a lady asking me "is that going to be all for you today", at a gas station and me looking back behind her at the cans of Chew and after all the hell I went through to get to where I was at that simple question led to destruction. I dont know where to turn and I really have never done a chat fourm before in my life. One of my best friends that I go to college with also chews, but has made leaps and bounds and its pretty much a quiter. I dont understand why he can quit and I cant! Im sick of people telling me just stop....because its not that easy. But what im sick of anymore is failing. I cant even promise that I wont fail again. I just want hope to know that I can beat this. Anyways....I cant believe I have said all this to strangers but it does feel good, and im sure you have heard this same thing over and over again so sorry for going on. But I do want to be rid of this.

Jon

Jon Welcome-

I'm in a similar boat as you. I chewed in college I'm still young, only 24, and I understand how you feel right now. I lied to myself all the time saying things like "Oh I never quit anything in my life, I'm not a quitter..etc" But after only 19 days with the help of this site, it has really brought to lite that we are addicts and through the support of my quit group and the chat board it brings a new resolve to quiting. Make sure to post roll every day and don't be afraid to reach out for help when you need it.

Don't cave to the crave-

Sig.

[11X4]

Hi Im Jon...I am a 22 year old college student who has been chewing now for around 7 years. Its funny I look back and I was a stupid ignorant kid that tryed it just because I knew I was not supose to, and always said I wouldent get addicted. I never planed it lasting as long as it has, and by the time I was 19 and decided I wanted to quit was the first time I knew I was addicted. Ever sense then I have tryed quitting many times and faild time after time. It pisses me off so much because I dont lose but this stupid can beats me every day. In the last few months I have been at the point where I just dont care anymore so apathtic to the sistuation. In the last two summers I have quit...going three to four months without a dip but seems like something always happens. This last summer it was a lady asking me "is that going to be all for you today", at a gas station and me looking back behind her at the cans of Chew and after all the hell I went through to get to where I was at that simple question led to destruction. I dont know where to turn and I really have never done a chat fourm before in my life. One of my best friends that I go to college with also chews, but has made leaps and bounds and its pretty much a quiter. I dont understand why he can quit and I cant! Im sick of people telling me just stop....because its not that easy. But what im sick of anymore is failing. I cant even promise that I wont fail again. I just want hope to know that I can beat this. Anyways....I cant believe I have said all this to strangers but it does feel good, and im sure you have heard this same thing over and over again so sorry for going on. But I do want to be rid of this.

Jon

Welcome to the site Klinger, this has the potential to be the difference for your quit if your ready to take it seriously. The thing is you do have to promise you won't fail, but it may be a little different promise than what you meant in your post. You have to promise that you won't fail.....today. That is your pledge when you post roll with your group in June 08. Then make that pledge again tomorrow.

Your friend is likely able to quit because he realizes that he has the ability to choose. He chooses not to dip. You can make this pretty difficult but in the end it all boils down to that.

This site is full of folks that would like nothing better than to help you out anyway possible. Just ask for help and it will come in droves. Just realize that while you are being flooded with help you will still have to take care of the heavy lifting.

Head on over to June 08 and introduce yourself.

[Klingersbu]

Hi Im Jon...I am a 22 year old college student who has been chewing now for around 7 years. Its funny I look back and I was a stupid ignorant kid that tryed it just because I knew I was not supose to, and always said I wouldent get addicted. I never planed it lasting as long as it has, and by the time I was 19 and decided I wanted to quit was the first time I knew I was addicted. Ever sense then I have tryed quitting many times and faild time after time. It pisses me off so much because I dont lose but this stupid can beats me every day. In the last few months I have been at the point where I just dont care anymore so apathtic to the sistuation. In the last two summers I have quit...going three to four months without a dip but seems like something always happens. This last summer it was a lady asking me "is that going to be all for you today", at a gas station and me looking back behind her at the cans of Chew and after all the hell I went through to get to where I was at that simple question led to destruction. I dont know where to turn and I really have never done a chat fourm before in my life. One of my best friends that I go to college with also chews, but has made leaps and bounds and its pretty much a quiter. I dont understand why he can quit and I cant! Im sick of people telling me just stop....because its not that easy. But what im sick of anymore is failing. I cant even promise that I wont fail again. I just want hope to know that I can beat this. Anyways....I cant believe I have said all this to strangers but it does feel good, and im sure you have heard this same thing over and over again so sorry for going on. But I do want to be rid of this.

Jon