wfsgrad,
Welcome. You can do this. We can help. You must do the heavy lifting. Your word of Honor must mean something. You must get involved and stay involved. Do these things and you will stay quit.
I read what you wrote about quitting during hard times. In response, I would like you to read something written by a fine quitter:
Maddipper wrote:
Well the past 126 days have been very interesting. I have been threw many things that would have given me an excuse to cave. My wife has left me, my business is in the tank, I tested positive for skin cancer in 4 spots, my dog has cancer and is dieing and I got in a bad ATV wreck and busted up my knee. Threw all of this I have stayed strong realizing that NIC would not make things change or even better. Now let’s go back to day 1. My lips were raw and I was complaining to my secretary. She emailed me the link to killthecan.org. I went and checked it out and started to chat. After about a hour in the chat room with Skoal Daddy, Buckfever and JPine. I said “fuck it, I’ll give this a try”. I have dipped for 20 plus years strong and have tried to quit in the past and failed. Threw the 100 days I felt like caving many times. Every time the craves started or the rage started I would be on the site. I think staying close to the site is very important. We are all brothers that have 1 thing in common and always will, we are all addicted to NIC. I have become friends with a lot of people on this site that are great people and have helped me in many ways. I would like to thank, Skoaldaddy, JPine, Slug, Timmay, Franpro, Buckfever, Big Brother Jack, Sigma, Qferrret, and all of the others. The keys to quitting are wanting it and taking 1 day at a time. Sticking close to the site and leaning on your brothers. Get yourself a set of phone numbers from some of the vets and when you need to, use those numbers. Also drink a lot of waters and chew a lot of gum. Today I feel better than ever. The craves are still there but they are manageable and less frequent. Life is what you make of it.
MadXdipper