Hello, and thank you for taking the time to read my intro.
I started dipping about 7 years ago, just starting out in college. I spent my time there with mostly guilt-free dipping, but promised important people in my life that I would quit once school finished. Predictably, this did not happen. About a year after I got out of school, I managed to quit for about 3 months, but failed to make it permanent. That was 2 years ago. Since then, I've told myself I would quit someday, and made various unsuccessful attempts. I've come to find that I am an expert rationalizer, finding just about any excuse good enough to go back. All the while, I've managed to conceal my habit from those that love me, and so, for a great deal of time, I've indulged my addiction with a great sense of guilt. As screwed up as it may seem, this immense sense of guilt, and my personal integrity from the promises I made, were not enough to get me over the hump. I would always find a reason.
I believe that I'm ready to really quit. I think it is amazing that a resource, and the fact that people from all over take time out of their days to help those they've never met is incredible. I see all of the HOF posts, the incredibly active forums, the great support and/or necessary tough love on these boards, and I believe that I can do it. I know that ultimately, it will be me alone who must make the important choice to quit, but I am hopeful that this support system will be a great aid.
Again, thank anyone who reads this for taking the time, and I say now, once and for all, I QUIT!