Hey all,
Just wanted to introduce myself. I joined up yesterday (day 1 of quit for me). I guess my quit group is October 2015. I like the idea of commiting on a daily basis by posting roll. Of course i think I've already made a few errors in my first 2 roll posts, lol, I'll get the hang of it.
Been dipping good ole' Grizzly since I was 16. I'll be 29 in November. I started with long cut and migrated to pouches. Not because i thought it was less harmful but because it allowed me to do it anywhere. And trust me, I always had 2 pouches in, ALWAYS. Usually 1 pouch on the bottom left and 1 pouch on the bottom right. I would save bottom front for when i was alone so i wouldn't look stupid in front of others. I'm sure we have all had similar routines.
Why am i ready to quit now? Well, I've recently started to face the facts, I'm going to get mouth cancer, period. That is how I'm going to leave this world. But maybe, just maybe, if i quit now, i might escape this determined future of mine.
I have a friend who has been battling cancer for the past 5 years. Started as testicular but has ended up everywhere from my understanding. He got more bad news last week, I guess they found more cancer growing. He didn't smoke or dip. I thought to myself, what right do i have to a cancer free life when I shove this shit in my mouth every hour of every day. I've been lying to myself, saying it won't happen to me.
So that was weighing on my mind and then last week I was listening to ESPN radio at work (That's all i ever listen to anymore) and they had the Jimmy V donation drive going on and a Baseball player, Curt Schilling, gave his testimony on dipping and fighting cancer and his whole battle. He said it's not a matter of if but when... That kinda struck a chord.
No kids yet but the wife and i have big plans for a family in the near future. Currently our lives are great and I don't want to be the reason shit hits the fan. The financial, emotional, and physical explosion a cancer diagnoses would put on our lives just freaks me out. All because of my selfish needs.
I can now see the future so clearly if i continue down this path. I have to try and change course and just pray it's not too late.
Wow, I tried to keep this intro short but i had a lot on my mind.
Wish me luck.
I've learned it's not about luck.