Finally we have reached the HALL OF FAME!!!! For the past 24 years i have been a dipper,smoker,liar, beggar,borrower, and yes even thief. All this just to get that little fix of nicotine. From age 14 up to 100 days ago that is what I did to myself, friends and family all because I was addicted to something that had eventually consumed a major part of my life. However I will not sit here and dwell on the past but I will continue my future starting with my quit.
So here we go I want to thank KILL THE CAN for this awesome website that gives us the help, inspiration, and support we need for our journey of quit. I am so grateful I stumbled across this place when I did cause I was on the virtue of failure. I quit 4 days before I found this place, I was going nuts and I was also driving my family nuts.
As I made my way to the chat room I was grabbed by wedge, and timeless and a few others, I was not all there mentally at this point so forgive me if I missed your name. They proceeded to question me about posting roll, being quit, and being accountable. This conversation I really needed to have with these guys. The next thing I know is I am a member of KTC, and I am posting day one in August 2012.
Well the next week is terrible and I was afraid people were getting pissed like want2quit for having to fix my posts the entire first week and I know you was not the only one. However since then you have become a good friend and I thank you for that. Also thanks for putting up with me texting you and having my back. Thanks for allowing me to help with roll its just another thing to keep me here and keep me busy so I will not be thinking of nicotine. Especially thanks for calling me even when you was a little drunk I really needed that.
As for my other quitter support at Whack the Pack like syndrome, 2mch2live4, Bruce, Healthy New Me, Dennyx, and SamCat thank you for suppotring me there as well you guys are some of the finest people a person could get to know. SamCat thanks for helping me realize I can still enjoy my sports with out nicotine. Also thank you for supporting me here also at KTC.
Jost2Brown thanks for adopting me and making sure I had posted roll, and keeping me accountable. You as well are a great person who it is a honor to call my friend.
JCBARNES thanks for letting me adopt you, I was not sure how it was going to go with you after your cave but I had a feeling you were honest and just made a mistake. You are an awesome person and wish you and your soon to be wife and soon to be born child have an extended wonderful life together. I hope I do not drive you crazy with all the texts but I am just trying to keep us both accountable.
Kill the can chat room your are a life saver. Thanks for all the ghey chat to get the nic bitch off our minds. Thanks to everyone who is there making each other laugh, and letting others vent. Klark, Cmark, wedge, timeless, tarpoon, want2quit, 2mch , sox2012, amgdenny, tattedquitter, everyone you make the chat room a great place to be especially when your craving.
For my wife and kids who would probably have loved to kill me at points of my quit, thank you for your love support and forgiveness from what this horrible addiction has put us thru all these years. I am so grateful that you have been able to keep me away from some bad situations that could have caused me to easily return to my old ways. I love you for just being able to look at me and know that I am suffering and always asking if I was ok when you knew I was going insane. I will love you all forever.
Thanks to everyone on this site no matter how direct or indirectly we have affected each other. We are all here suffering from the same addiction to this horrible life consuming drug nicotine. However each and everyone of us has an obligation to help and support each other and to pay it forward. I now owe each and everyone of you my life for that is what you have given back to me. I love you all and expect to continue to see each of you and myself here on this long never ending battle against our addiction. There is no try there is only quit.
Thanks Again
Woosel (Billy Peacock)
I suggest you read this - print it out and carry it with for the rest of your quit -
You want to puss out again - really read it and see if your love for a self destructive habit is greater than the love you have for your family and your word as a man
Contract to Give Up
I give up my quit. Quitting is impossible and I cannot do it. I love dipping more than I love myself. I care about dipping more than I care about my personal health. I love dipping more than I love my family. I know this addiction will kill me, and I ACCEPT that fact. I enjoy spending time alone with my can more than I enjoy spending time with anyone else on the planet. I look forward to losing my jaw, my tongue, my throat, my life - it's worth it. When I am lying in my hospital bed fighting a losing battle against cancer I will feel a sense of satisfaction knowing that this is the path I CHOSE. My only regret will be that I didn't start dipping earlier in life. I will feel sorrow for my familyÂ’s heartbreak and suffer untold pain, but I know you must sacrifice for the things you truly love.
I know ALL the consequences of my actions and I accept them fully and without regret. I hereby choose to give my life to this addiction - I do so with a smile on face.
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