Day 90 tomorrow. To Worktowin - no, I didn't think you were crazy, I thought life would be better. But, just didn't know exactly how much better, or when it would get here!
I told someone at work (a dipper) that I was 80 some days quit. Their infinite wisdom was "oh you've got this. You are out of the woods." While seemingly supportive, the context of the conversation and the non-verbal part was very interesting. Here is what was actually said...
"Hey, I'm a dipper and let me give you some advice. It is ok to put down your guard now. You don't ever have to worry about caving again since you made 80 days. You have summarily beat this addiction and are no longer addicted."
Funny how that nic bitch sneaks around trying to find a weakness. But, I know better. I post everyday because no matter if it is 20 days, or 30 days, or 40 days, or 80 days, I quit one day at a time. I can't put my guard down if I post roll. I will worry about caving every day because I post roll. I haven't summarily beaten shit. I am addicted to nicotine and always will be.
90 days in tomorrow. Still vigilant about my quit.
