No stopping for me ..... its Quiting time!

[Mthomas3824]

Captains log....Day 44.....

Somedays I think my quit has turned me into a rat with some slight does of A.D.D. .......

I have many times a day where I leave my office only to make a very quick walk thru my shop and come right back and sit at my office not even remembering why I got up in the first place..... 'Crazy'

I have also noticed how I now just blurp out whatever is on my mind..... sometimes its ok and well sometimes not......

Take for instance earlier today, we had a female sales rep come into the office and well she has always been easy on the eyes as well as one of those cool chicks that can talk buisness and trucks without getting all prissy!

anyway....

She comes walking in and wouldnt you know it she is 4 months pregnant!!!! The first words out of my mouth were......"Its not mine!!!!" :wacko:

Now that might not seem like it was in to bad of company but the President of my company was also walking in with her! That made for one slighlty awkward funny embarassing situation.

This seems to be happening more and more and I notice between my running around my office shop and house with what on somedays seems like an enormous amount of energy, I have had more instances where I for no reason just blurp out stuff that should be kept to my inner monolouge.....

I have had these types of issues in past stopages but it is never this late into the process usually its the first week where I am fighting the urges and well just flat pissed at everyone I would come into contact with.

I was wondering if anyone else has had these types of issues, either the Partial A.D.D. or just the lack of inner monolouge 'Crazy'

I know what you're talking about. I thought the joke was funny. For me it is little annoyances. I think my son just wants to talk to me. I don't mind talking. However, he opens the fridge pulls out a potato in tin-foil. He says, what is this, its warm. I look at him and say, "its a hot dog son" He say's, "why are you so mad" I said, "I'm not mad, its just that I don't know why you ask questions that you already know the answer to."

He walks off and I wonder, why did I say that, act that way? In my head still...I don't know why he would hold up a baked potato and ask me what it was?

Oh and I hate the weather men. Why is local news so focused on the weather. If it is news worthy, talk about the weather. If it isn't...go to sports. (I have actually conversation with my T.V. I yell at the weather men. My wife thinks it is hilarious.)

BTW, I love your posts. They really help me too. :asskiss:

[Mthomas3824]

Captains log....Day 44.....

Somedays I think my quit has turned me into a rat with some slight does of A.D.D. .......

I have many times a day where I leave my office only to make a very quick walk thru my shop and come right back and sit at my office not even remembering why I got up in the first place..... 'Crazy'

I have also noticed how I now just blurp out whatever is on my mind..... sometimes its ok and well sometimes not......

Take for instance earlier today, we had a female sales rep come into the office and well she has always been easy on the eyes as well as one of those cool chicks that can talk buisness and trucks without getting all prissy!

anyway....

She comes walking in and wouldnt you know it she is 4 months pregnant!!!! The first words out of my mouth were......"Its not mine!!!!" :wacko:

Now that might not seem like it was in to bad of company but the President of my company was also walking in with her! That made for one slighlty awkward funny embarassing situation.

This seems to be happening more and more and I notice between my running around my office shop and house with what on somedays seems like an enormous amount of energy, I have had more instances where I for no reason just blurp out stuff that should be kept to my inner monolouge.....

I have had these types of issues in past stopages but it is never this late into the process usually its the first week where I am fighting the urges and well just flat pissed at everyone I would come into contact with.

I was wondering if anyone else has had these types of issues, either the Partial A.D.D. or just the lack of inner monolouge 'Crazy'

I know what you're talking about. I thought the joke was funny. For me it is little annoyances. I think my son just wants to talk to me. I don't mind talking. However, he opens the fridge pulls out a potato in tin-foil. He says, what is this, its warm. I look at him and say, "its a hot dog son" He say's, "why are you so mad" I said, "I'm not mad, its just that I don't know why you ask questions that you already know the answer to."

He walks off and I wonder, why did I say that, act that way? In my head still...I don't know why he would hold up a baked potato and ask me what it was?

Oh and I hate the weather men. Why is local news so focused on the weather. If it is news worthy, talk about the weather. If it isn't...go to sports. (I have actually conversation with my T.V. I yell at the weather men. My wife thinks it is hilarious.)

[Grizzly25]

Captains log....Day 44.....

Somedays I think my quit has turned me into a rat with some slight does of A.D.D. .......

I have many times a day where I leave my office only to make a very quick walk thru my shop and come right back and sit at my office not even remembering why I got up in the first place..... 'Crazy'

I have also noticed how I now just blurp out whatever is on my mind..... sometimes its ok and well sometimes not......

Take for instance earlier today, we had a female sales rep come into the office and well she has always been easy on the eyes as well as one of those cool chicks that can talk buisness and trucks without getting all prissy!

anyway....

She comes walking in and wouldnt you know it she is 4 months pregnant!!!! The first words out of my mouth were......"Its not mine!!!!" :wacko:

Now that might not seem like it was in to bad of company but the President of my company was also walking in with her! That made for one slighlty awkward funny embarassing situation.

This seems to be happening more and more and I notice between my running around my office shop and house with what on somedays seems like an enormous amount of energy, I have had more instances where I for no reason just blurp out stuff that should be kept to my inner monolouge.....

I have had these types of issues in past stopages but it is never this late into the process usually its the first week where I am fighting the urges and well just flat pissed at everyone I would come into contact with.

I was wondering if anyone else has had these types of issues, either the Partial A.D.D. or just the lack of inner monolouge 'Crazy'

[T-Cell]

Great post Grizz25-
BTW, you have possibly the best avatar on this site!

[Aredoubleyou]

Well I spent an hour reading thru swj's page and that guy is hilarious!!!

I read some of his page before but never really dove in for that long there was some true genious there, I will continue to read even more when I need a laugh to get me past a rough spot or curb a cave from taking shape.

I have noticed in the last week that staying active on this site is more important than i originally ever thought. Seeing how 2 HOF members caved this past week made me realize we can never really leave this site completely.....

We are all Addicts and need this kind of accountability to stay quit.

I have learned a ton about my quit and myself in these first 41 days, I will continue to stay strong and post my quit every morning if only to have the reminder that NO I can't do this on my own....

I hope all my May quit brothers have remained strong over this awesome St. Patty's weekend and I really dont want to read any more HOF members caving!!


Grizzly25.....41 days and counting.....out!

41! That's awesome bro...proud to be quit with ya.

You are right. We really need to remember that every day is as dangerous as day 1...in fact, every day might as well be day 1, HOF quitter or not.

Keep it up Grizzly, thanks for the texts every day.

aredoubleyou

[Mthomas3824]

Well I spent an hour reading thru swj's page and that guy is hilarious!!!

I read some of his page before but never really dove in for that long there was some true genious there, I will continue to read even more when I need a laugh to get me past a rough spot or curb a cave from taking shape.

I have noticed in the last week that staying active on this site is more important than i originally ever thought. Seeing how 2 HOF members caved this past week made me realize we can never really leave this site completely.....

We are all Addicts and need this kind of accountability to stay quit.

I have learned a ton about my quit and myself in these first 41 days, I will continue to stay strong and post my quit every morning if only to have the reminder that NO I can't do this on my own....

I hope all my May quit brothers have remained strong over this awesome St. Patty's weekend and I really dont want to read any more HOF members caving!!


Grizzly25.....41 days and counting.....out!

Grizz, you're a stud. Love your focus and thoughts.

[Grizzly25]

Well I spent an hour reading thru swj's page and that guy is hilarious!!!

I read some of his page before but never really dove in for that long there was some true genious there, I will continue to read even more when I need a laugh to get me past a rough spot or curb a cave from taking shape.

I have noticed in the last week that staying active on this site is more important than i originally ever thought. Seeing how 2 HOF members caved this past week made me realize we can never really leave this site completely.....

We are all Addicts and need this kind of accountability to stay quit.

I have learned a ton about my quit and myself in these first 41 days, I will continue to stay strong and post my quit every morning if only to have the reminder that NO I can't do this on my own....

I hope all my May quit brothers have remained strong over this awesome St. Patty's weekend and I really dont want to read any more HOF members caving!!


Grizzly25.....41 days and counting.....out!

[Grizzly25]

I think sometimes I post on here to just relax the nerves and express myself.... the craves are only bad at night right now and its not like sitting awake dreaming of grizzly its more of a I just want something before I turn in for the night I have been good with gum and Altoids but for some reason the last couple nights that didnt work!

I wasnt all edgy woried I would cave it was more like restlessness that I couldnt tame, like excited i sometimes wonder thru this if I am getting A.D.D. I finally just made myself a few sandwiches and that always seems to do the trick.

Still determined to not cave or ever go back to the nic bitch just needing to fill a mysterious void.......


Grizzly25 ... 38 days and counting!

[Grizzly25]

A little after weekend update:

The weekends continue to be the toughest but I can say I feel as though I crossed a big hurdle on Friday night, against even my better judgement and some of my brother in quit on this site I actually had a few beers on Friday. I never even came close to caving! I really am happy I was able to accomplish that feat. I am not going to continue to try to test that feat mainly cause well whats the point? I am quit and fully intend to stay that way, it might also be tougher if I were actually more of a drinker which I am not. The good thing was I was able to have a few beers with my nephew and not get all loaded up but pleasently buzzed without having any nicotene!!! Not something I will be doing on any type of regular basis.

The rest of the weekend was uncharted territory for me as well I spent most of the day Saturday and Sunday at car dealerships which for those who have ever done that know those guys for some reason can just be a trigger no matter what happens! I was able to deal with the dealerships without raging or even wanting to dip! For myself thats huge again, I will stay stong with my quit and will soon be enjoying the money saved from not dipping in the near future.


Grizzly25.....35 days and counting

[Grizzly25]

I figure I can rant vent or at least update here....

My quit has been going well not having any real crave issues but many different types of rage issues. I am starting to notice some things I thought dip made better only either hid the the truth and never really had the calming effect or alot of people around me are superficial and fake.

I have been keeping myself incredibly busy and that has been good but doesnt really take away the rage or even stave it off, the only way i have had to really lose my rages was to write on this site or develop a true fuck it attitude.

There has only been a few times where i waited for my family to exit the Expedition and go park just sitting there screaming FUCK!!!!!!! That has been quite a good release not the best if I were around alot of people but hey it has worked for me.

I have been to the dentist 3 times since I started my quit and I am really starting to like my teeth all clean and the shit and crud is all out and gone. I didnt go to the dentist for approx. 8 years mainly cause I didnt want them to tell me I had cacer or that I was going to lose my teeth, also didnt have the insurance. Those may sound like some lame excuses but they are what they are, now I have not had to get another biopsy and they fixed my gums all up I have a smile that I havent seen in quite a few years.

This is an update mainly for myself, doing this actually reminds me to stay with it and never look back. It is funny how this time I am truly quit and not just telling myself to stop, not giving myself any way out, not blaming my wife or my kids for any frustration giving me any reason to go back. I started this shit not them and its up to m to quit.

Grizzly25.........31 days and counting.......out

Has it just been rage in general for no reason or are there things/people that are setting you off super easily? Do you work out at all?

How was it going to the dentist being able to say that you quit chewing?
I figured I would wait a few weeks to schedule that appointment...everything I read on here said make sure to go in around day 30 or something?

Keep it up Grizz, you are right where I want to be in a few weeks!

thanks man.

aredoubleyou - 3down

Mainly people I have been around for many years that I thought I tolerated with chew, well they really werent worth the effort but I can and will be social for the betterment of my family B)

Going to the dentist after the first visit and saying I was 1 week quit was great the hot oral hygenist really liked how i quit right away didnt think about it and followed thru with it!

I try to work out all the time between coaching my kids it football and softball and baseball but the majority of my workouts happen coaching wrestling.

Its great to be quit with you guys and I did get some advise from Zam he said realy dive into this quit and I have and it has been rewarding in its own way.

Thanks

[Aredoubleyou]

I figure I can rant vent or at least update here....

My quit has been going well not having any real crave issues but many different types of rage issues. I am starting to notice some things I thought dip made better only either hid the the truth and never really had the calming effect or alot of people around me are superficial and fake.

I have been keeping myself incredibly busy and that has been good but doesnt really take away the rage or even stave it off, the only way i have had to really lose my rages was to write on this site or develop a true fuck it attitude.

There has only been a few times where i waited for my family to exit the Expedition and go park just sitting there screaming FUCK!!!!!!! That has been quite a good release not the best if I were around alot of people but hey it has worked for me.

I have been to the dentist 3 times since I started my quit and I am really starting to like my teeth all clean and the shit and crud is all out and gone. I didnt go to the dentist for approx. 8 years mainly cause I didnt want them to tell me I had cacer or that I was going to lose my teeth, also didnt have the insurance. Those may sound like some lame excuses but they are what they are, now I have not had to get another biopsy and they fixed my gums all up I have a smile that I havent seen in quite a few years.

This is an update mainly for myself, doing this actually reminds me to stay with it and never look back. It is funny how this time I am truly quit and not just telling myself to stop, not giving myself any way out, not blaming my wife or my kids for any frustration giving me any reason to go back. I started this shit not them and its up to m to quit.

Grizzly25.........31 days and counting.......out

Has it just been rage in general for no reason or are there things/people that are setting you off super easily? Do you work out at all?

How was it going to the dentist being able to say that you quit chewing?
I figured I would wait a few weeks to schedule that appointment...everything I read on here said make sure to go in around day 30 or something?

Keep it up Grizz, you are right where I want to be in a few weeks!

thanks man.

aredoubleyou - 3down

[Grizzly25]

I figure I can rant vent or at least update here....

My quit has been going well not having any real crave issues but many different types of rage issues. I am starting to notice some things I thought dip made better only either hid the the truth and never really had the calming effect or alot of people around me are superficial and fake.

I have been keeping myself incredibly busy and that has been good but doesnt really take away the rage or even stave it off, the only way i have had to really lose my rages was to write on this site or develop a true fuck it attitude.

There has only been a few times where i waited for my family to exit the Expedition and go park just sitting there screaming FUCK!!!!!!! That has been quite a good release not the best if I were around alot of people but hey it has worked for me.

I have been to the dentist 3 times since I started my quit and I am really starting to like my teeth all clean and the shit and crud is all out and gone. I didnt go to the dentist for approx. 8 years mainly cause I didnt want them to tell me I had cacer or that I was going to lose my teeth, also didnt have the insurance. Those may sound like some lame excuses but they are what they are, now I have not had to get another biopsy and they fixed my gums all up I have a smile that I havent seen in quite a few years.

This is an update mainly for myself, doing this actually reminds me to stay with it and never look back. It is funny how this time I am truly quit and not just telling myself to stop, not giving myself any way out, not blaming my wife or my kids for any frustration giving me any reason to go back. I started this shit not them and its up to m to quit.

Grizzly25.........31 days and counting.......out

[maverick09]

Keep on keeping on Grizzly. I hope to be at 18 days soon. I'm on day 5 and the haze has lifted some.

[ChewCrewRetiree]

Good to see you made your way up in here, Grizzly. Hope those PM's I tossed your way helped out the cause. Should you have any other questions etc, please do not hesitate to PM me again!

[CMH17]

Grizzly25-
This site is great for many reasons, you articulated a few of them. We are all very similar in our addiction though we come from very different places and backgrounds. I'm 51, a can/day cope user since 13.
At day 15 I'm over the fog, but now battle the sneaky voice in my head that says I'm now on top of it and can handle 1 dip. Goes to your point of the difference between stopping and quit.
I'm quit, and glad to quit with you.
Shout if you need to bend an ear or be talked off the ledge....

Will do!

Our situations seem to be quite similiar, which is why I think this site is such a great idea! I have 4 kids 2-boys and 2-girls and an awesome wife and strangly I am not quiting for them I am doing it for myself, not that I am a selfish person but I dont want to have any out! If I fail its cause I wasnt strong enough not because I stressed out over quitting for my family. They understand and have been quite supportive.

At day 18 I am still having some sleeping issues and for the first time today I really felt like picking a fight with somebody anybody, I was able to get some time away and lose myself reading some articles and other peoples stories on this site and simmered down quick enough.

If you need to vent or just talk, you got it!

Hey bro, congrats on 18 strong days!

I believe you will be in the May quit group, so please go over there and post:

index.php?showtopic=5841st=0

Welcome to May 12!!!! Keep on Quittin on!!!!