Mthomastherapy

[Wt57]

Day 422

Mother's day is around the corner. I just ordered and have flowers being delivered.

You all should get your Mother tested this year. 'crackup'

Quitting Tobacco is easy but I realize that other addictions are lurking. Life is a fight, keep fighting.

What are you testing for?

Lets pick some good addictions and go for them.

[Mthomas3824]

Day 422

Mother's day is around the corner. I just ordered and have flowers being delivered.

You all should get your Mother tested this year. 'crackup'

Quitting Tobacco is easy but I realize that other addictions are lurking. Life is a fight, keep fighting.

[eric71]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now.  I rarely think about it.  Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today". 

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now? 

1st - I am a trained quitter.  I know how this works....I am stronger. 

2nd - I value being quit.  To cave is pointless.  I wan't to stay undefeated.   

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart.  Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic.  It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress?  To party and celebrate or to relax? 

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war!  I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco.  The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.  

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past.  Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day!  Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

great job!

Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED

I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.

Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!

Well Done Sir!!!

I was just 4 days quit when you hit the hof... Maybe it was just the wrestling singlet avatar but you helped me through the suck. Congrats on the well earned 4th floor!

Belated congrats Mark! Thanks for all your help and support along the way. Time for setting another goal, one day at a time. Always be quit with you and the rest of us who take our lives and families seriously.

[copingwithoutcopen]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now.  I rarely think about it.  Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today". 

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now? 

1st - I am a trained quitter.  I know how this works....I am stronger. 

2nd - I value being quit.  To cave is pointless.  I wan't to stay undefeated.   

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart.  Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic.  It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress?  To party and celebrate or to relax? 

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war!  I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco.  The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.  

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past.  Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day!  Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

great job!

Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED

I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.

Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!

Well Done Sir!!!

I was just 4 days quit when you hit the hof... Maybe it was just the wrestling singlet avatar but you helped me through the suck. Congrats on the well earned 4th floor!

[RAZD611]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now.  I rarely think about it.  Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today". 

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now? 

1st - I am a trained quitter.  I know how this works....I am stronger. 

2nd - I value being quit.  To cave is pointless.  I wan't to stay undefeated.   

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart.  Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic.  It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress?  To party and celebrate or to relax? 

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war!  I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco.  The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.  

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past.  Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day!  Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

great job!

Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED

I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.

Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!

Well Done Sir!!!

[Grizzly25]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now.  I rarely think about it.  Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today". 

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now? 

1st - I am a trained quitter.  I know how this works....I am stronger. 

2nd - I value being quit.  To cave is pointless.  I wan't to stay undefeated.   

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart.  Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic.  It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress?  To party and celebrate or to relax? 

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war!  I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco.  The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.  

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past.  Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day!  Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

great job!

Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED

I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.

Great work brother keep on kicking nic's ass one day at a time, somedays she needs the big boot but most days just a simple nope does the trick!

[Wt57]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now.  I rarely think about it.  Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today". 

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now? 

1st - I am a trained quitter.  I know how this works....I am stronger. 

2nd - I value being quit.  To cave is pointless.  I wan't to stay undefeated.   

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart.  Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic.  It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress?  To party and celebrate or to relax? 

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war!  I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco.  The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.  

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past.  Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day!  Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

great job!

Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED

I'm quit with you everyday Mt. You inspire me regularly.

[jaynellie]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now.  I rarely think about it.  Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today". 

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now? 

1st - I am a trained quitter.  I know how this works....I am stronger. 

2nd - I value being quit.  To cave is pointless.  I wan't to stay undefeated.   

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart.  Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic.  It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress?  To party and celebrate or to relax? 

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war!  I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco.  The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.  

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past.  Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day!  Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

great job!

Congrats!!BAD ASS INDEED

[Scowick65]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now.  I rarely think about it.  Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today". 

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now? 

1st - I am a trained quitter.  I know how this works....I am stronger. 

2nd - I value being quit.  To cave is pointless.  I wan't to stay undefeated.   

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart.  Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic.  It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress?  To party and celebrate or to relax? 

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war!  I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco.  The nic-bitch can kiss my ass. 

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past.  Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day!  Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

great job!

[kkljinc]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?

1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.

2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated.

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

BAD ASS!!!!

[Mthomas3824]

Today is 400 days nicotine free!!!!

Nicotine and the call for tobacco is so easy to fight and win now. I rarely think about it. Don't get me wrong, I get a crave usually in a gas station with tin on display but it is so easy to say, "Not today".

Why when it was so hard a year ago, is it so easy now?

1st - I am a trained quitter. I know how this works....I am stronger.

2nd - I value being quit. To cave is pointless. I wan't to stay undefeated.

400 days ago, I felt like I broke up with my high school sweetheart. Now, I find tobacco smokers and chewers to be, well pathetic. It is an obvious poison that they "need" to make it through stress? To party and celebrate or to relax?

I was once pathetic but I now am free.

I love the war! I will never swear an allegiance to tobacco. The nic-bitch can kiss my ass.

The days of suck, drama, pain and hurt are past. Now I just enjoy being a quitter and I enjoy new quitters willing to go to war every damn day! Keep going and value your quit more than the crave.

[Diesel2112]

Day 370

So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs.  He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal. 

This troubled me on two fronts.  First It has been over 370 days since I golfed!  I used to go at least once a week. 

Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught!  What a great time for this.  Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky. 

Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid.  

I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic.  Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.

Yeah I am so glad that is in the past.  Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!!  

The bitch is pathetic.  You are not!  Stay quit today and every today!

Are you living a parallel life to me?

I wrote this in September:

Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.

My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.

Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.

There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.

They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.

Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.

I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.

It pretty much sucked.

I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.

The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.

I sometimes wonder if we are all so similar because of the addiction or if we are similar because we are human.

Very good observation! Both are right in my view. As addicts we have experiences and observations that are unique to us. A person that hasn't dealt with addiction would have a very difficult time understanding us. My wife still struggles to understand how I'm still tempted after a year.
On the other hand we humans live lives that are often in parallel. We face temptation and curiosity about possible varied paths we can take in life. As we know some of those paths are spring loaded and very difficult to reverse. It's human nature to be curious and explore. Not listening to the warnings of others is part of living.
We addicts had warnings all around us but did we heed the warnings? Hell No! The real question that I search for is: why are we addicts alike (we all ignored warnings)! Why do some humans heed the warnings and avoid the pitfalls?

Why ask why. Just fucking quit...that's my motto now. I spend too much time dwelling on questions I can answer and it fucks with me. Perhaps I am a simpleton.

I do agree we are alike because of our addiction and common race, which is human. My brain hurts trying to figure out why. WT, when you crack the code for that let me know...I'm very curious.

[Wt57]

Day 370

So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs.  He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal. 

This troubled me on two fronts.  First It has been over 370 days since I golfed!  I used to go at least once a week. 

Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught!  What a great time for this.  Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky. 

Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid.  

I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic.  Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.

Yeah I am so glad that is in the past.  Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!!  

The bitch is pathetic.  You are not!  Stay quit today and every today!

Are you living a parallel life to me?

I wrote this in September:

Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.

My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.

Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.

There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.

They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.

Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.

I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.

It pretty much sucked.

I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.

The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.

I sometimes wonder if we are all so similar because of the addiction or if we are similar because we are human.

Very good observation! Both are right in my view. As addicts we have experiences and observations that are unique to us. A person that hasn't dealt with addiction would have a very difficult time understanding us. My wife still struggles to understand how I'm still tempted after a year.
On the other hand we humans live lives that are often in parallel. We face temptation and curiosity about possible varied paths we can take in life. As we know some of those paths are spring loaded and very difficult to reverse. It's human nature to be curious and explore. Not listening to the warnings of others is part of living.
We addicts had warnings all around us but did we heed the warnings? Hell No! The real question that I search for is: why are we addicts alike (we all ignored warnings)! Why do some humans heed the warnings and avoid the pitfalls?

[Mthomas3824]

Day 370

So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs.  He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal. 

This troubled me on two fronts.  First It has been over 370 days since I golfed!  I used to go at least once a week. 

Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught!  What a great time for this.  Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky. 

Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid. 

I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic.  Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.

Yeah I am so glad that is in the past.  Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!! 

The bitch is pathetic.  You are not!  Stay quit today and every today!

Are you living a parallel life to me?

I wrote this in September:

Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.

My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.

Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.

There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.

They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.

Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.

I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.

It pretty much sucked.

I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.

The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.

I sometimes wonder if we are all so similar because of the addiction or if we are similar because we are human.

[wastepanel]

Day 370

So my son was going to St. George for the weekend and wanted to borrow some of my golf clubs. He goes through my bag and there were two cans of skoal.

This troubled me on two fronts. First It has been over 370 days since I golfed! I used to go at least once a week.

Second when my wife told me my son found them, I immediately had a sick feeling like I had been caught! What a great time for this. Some will say the nic bitch is sneaky.

Other times, she is just desperate and does something stupid.

I don't miss that sick feeling I got when I was caught and pathetic. Just to remember that has me more determined to stay quit.

Yeah I am so glad that is in the past. Anyone hurting, you will be glad you quit, just stay on course and win your match today!!!!

The bitch is pathetic. You are not! Stay quit today and every today!

Are you living a parallel life to me?

I wrote this in September:

Today, I had a pretty shitty moment despite the fact that I am becoming more and more centered.

My oldest's friend came over to play, and they found my old hiding spot of cans. I thought I had cleaned them all out. I even had gone so far as to show Mrs. Panel it in case she suspected I had started again a few months ago.

Anyways, they had magnets and managed to attract a can. Then another. Then another.

There were 4 all together, and the boys thought this shit was cool.

They decided to hide them places, and use the magnets to pick them up.

Imagine my surprise to walk downstairs and find 3 kids playing Skoal cans.

I gave all of them the trapjaw "You don't want to do this" speech, and told them how bad it was to quit. I explained to each of them that I had started because it made my head feel funny and I liked it. Before I knew it, I didn't want to do it anymore but didn't really know how to stop (but mostly just afraid). I told them that my body pretty much hated me for a long ass time, and that there are still days where my jaw is sore or my mind tells me it sounds good. Then I told them my day count, and that I remember that so I know that it is no longer an option in my life.

It pretty much sucked.

I haven't been that ashamed of it in a long time, and I remember why I explained it off in the past as "adult stuff". Shit is hard to explain, and takes a toll on you when you see curious non-understanding eyes.

The whore knows your weaknesses, and she will hit you square in the nuts when she gets a chance hoping to crack your armor.