Day 296
Little Nicky:
It has been 296 days since I broke up with you. I know now more than ever that our 21 year relationship was nothing special. At the time I thought that you and I were soul mates. Most people wouldnÂ’t understand our need for each other so I kept you a secret from most. I loved you, I adored you, and I thought I needed you.
When I realized that I gave so much to our special relationship, I began to think that I had outgrown you. You began to be immature, dangerous and not as special anymore. Yet I still loved you. I didnÂ’t know why. I would sneak around and want one on one time with you. I finally started asking, I give so much to make our relationship work, what do you do for us?
The more I thought about it, the more I realizedÂ…you contributed zero to me. Oh about those times I was stressed and I thought you calmed me down. It was a lie. You didnÂ’t calm me down; I took a time out with you. However, the stress was multiplied! Sneaking around with you, worried I might get caught or get exposed with mouth cancer. Why didnÂ’t I think that dip created more stress vs. relieved it?
Well, quitting you was not easy because triggers reminded me of things I liked to do. I like to be alone at times, I like to celebrate victories and chill with friends, I like long drives on the road. Newsflash: I still do those things without you and it is so much better.
So will we ever get back together? No we wonÂ’t. What is the point? Being away from you for almost a year has not made me grow fond of you. I actually have become more disgusted with you and for the life of me canÂ’t imagine why I adored you for so long.
Little Nicky, my life with you was a lie. Great lies are mixed with partial truths. My life overall has been good. ThatÂ’s true. The lie is that I thought you had something to do with the good in my life. You didnÂ’t. You created, stirred and encouraged a lot of problems for me.
I promise daily on roll or text and repeat. I know that a constant reminder that you are an evil, seductive and narcissistic whore keeps me from ever being hypnotized or feeling pity for you. You are a cruel murderer that makes her victims die a slow painful death. (Physically, Mentally and Spiritually) You have no feelings for the families that suffer and watch your kills. If anything you smile and know you will have a child take the place of your kill and you never tire of replacing your kills.
You are worthless to me today and forever. I said goodbye on March 14, 2012. Today I wish you would die. No love lost and no remorse for ending it. IT IS FINALLY OVER. Bitch!
