Mthomastherapy

[jayd41]

This is a public service announcement. Warning, this does have th F word in it.

that was weird and funny

[Mthomas3824]

This is a public service announcement. Warning, this does have th F word in it.

[WCWBigNasty]

Okay, so here is my story. When I was in high school, I wrestled varsity for three years. I was small to start but as I grew, I tried to keep my weight down to be competitive. I usually was a pound or two heavy the day before weigh in. A simple trick to loose weight, spit all day long. One day, I was so sick of the jolly ranchers. My tongue was cut up, I was hungry and I couldn't salivate. One of my teammates told me that if I needed saliva, to put this in my mouth. At first, I didn't know if I was sick or if I liked the buzzy, dizzy feeling but man could I spit and make weight!!! (I wasn't thinking about food either)

I married my high school sweetheart a few years later and knew she didn't approve. Hell, she didn't even know about my on and off again habit. I kept that from her, my family, church members, really it was my private pleasure and I actually liked doing something that was all about me and no one else was a part of it.

In business, I discovered people I worked with were just like me. I would go golfing and notice a friend fooling around with his golf bag. Hey, I do that when I dip...sure enough, he was getting a dip too. It soon turned from a private pleasure to an underground group of friends where is was welcome and fun.

One day, my wife called me. She said, "I have some great news!" I asked what it was. She begins to say that she was putting a load of laundry in and thought to check the pockets of my shorts. (I thought she was going to say that she found some cash.) To my shock, she said, "I found your apple skoal and didn't wash it." I was actually scared. I froze, didn't know what to say. I imagine that would be the same feeling I would have if I was cheating on her. We talked and I told her that I would quit.

Another time, my son found a can I hid in the entertainment center. My kids were devastated. I decided right then that it wasn't worth the embarrassment or the shame I feel...so I'm done. If for no other reason, I love my family and this is not good. "Dad, you're my hero, you could die." Broke my heart. Isn't that reason to quit right then and there? What kind of example am I? Even if it is hidden, do I lead my children by example or word? I want to claim both.

Fast forward to the time my son wanted to come with me to the gas station...I sent him out to the car. "Hey, will you see if I left my keys in the car" While I was quickly trying to get a can, I saw him walking in. I told the attendant, "Hide it, put it down!" She realized I didn't want my son to see. I thought I got away with it. I didn't buy it and from my vantage point, he didn't see anything. Well, he told his mom that he thought I bought some tobacco so here we go again.

Now they don't even ask me if I am chewing, they just assume that I am. I know that I can't quit for them but only for me. I have lived my life that being selfish is wrong. However, I am being selfish because only I can quit...for me and no one else. I started doing this from an individual sport and now I can only quit as an individual with support. I am a man of my word, but chewing tobacco has made me a hypocrite. I don't want the added expense or the lower integrity in my life. I like to be alone but I think that is false. I like to spend time with a plant more than my family and friends who would judge me.

Why does this take precedence over what I care most about? If you asked me what is most important to me, skoal mint pouches wouldn't even come up in the conversation. If you watch my behavior, that wouldn't be the case. The reality is I have put chewing tobacco ahead of God, Family, Friends, Work, Sleep, etc.

I want tobacco to know...I want me to prove that It is no longer important and shouldn't be a part of my life. So I am breaking it off. Time to move on and discover a life tobacco free.

I wrote this yesterday and just re-read. Day two, I am still determined. I'm at work and can't leave. Today would have been a perfect day for a can. Yes I have had cravings but I am still in the fight. What has been the hardest is the sadness I feel today. I never cry, but my eyes seem to well up every time I recognize that I am an addict. I thought I was faithful to my wife of 20 years just because I haven't had sex with another woman. I'm recognizing that I cheated on her and my kids. My mistress was a can of tobacco. I lied, deceived, excused and loved my mistress of tobacco. Some may think that is a little over the top. I don't. It is spot on. I have to come to terms with my faults, accept that I am an addict. So what, I'm an addict! Fine I'll live with it, like a sore knee but I am going to live and it will always be tobacco free. Far greater than the cravings...I'm just sad today. The walk to freedom is going to hurt, but I want to be independent. I'll go to hell and back for freedom. I'm off to hell, but I'll be back.

SAME HERE BROTHER, TRYING TO CUT WEIGHT JUST TO MAKE HEAVYWEIGHT, IT WAS BETWEEN PLASTICS, AND DIP, AND BECAUSE WE WERE WRESTLERS WE WERE ACTUALLY ALLOWED TO WALK AROUND SCHOOL, WITH SPIT CUPS IN HAND AND I WENT TO A HUGE HIGH SCHOOL LIKE A MINI CAMPUS EVEN BACK IN THE LATE 80'S. AMAZING TO LOOK BACK AND THINK THAT WAS ENCOURAGED

[Mthomas3824]

Day 771 Nicotine, 8 Alcohol

My son did a 17 second clip: If Disney made, "Breaking Bad". It's on youtube and just broke 1 million views.

Please check it out and if you like it, share. Aaron Paul, "Jesse", shared on his twitter account.

If you saw Frozen and love breaking bad, it will get at least a smile. Bitch! DarthBlaker

[Wt57]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.

:wub:

Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR

Every damn day brother!!!

Man of course I know you know this but you've got this quit. I know you do. Thanks for all of your support for us lowly tobacco and alky addicts today!! Hang in there man!!!!

The cravings are gone and my quit is simple again. I passed yet another test and hate nicotine more than ever!!!!!

So glad I have the freedom to chose vs being shackled by a bully and submitting to her call.

Now with a few notches on my belt, I can say from experience....the burden of being quit is sooooo much simpler and easier than the burden of feeding my addiction.

Thanks for the support. Sometimes you give and sometimes you take from this site. Either way, you become a stronger, wiser, and more humble quitter.

With a KTC record of 748 wins to 0 losses, KTC can take a weak man and empower him with a power and strength to go undefeated!

Thanks for the support. I am happy to be quit and I don't hate you guys anymore.
'winker'

Thanks for the support. I am happy to be quit and I don't hate you guys anymore

Wow, I hadn't thought about that before but it's true. The bitch and our addicted minds that tried to to protect the position of using connected our friends here with pain. After the attempt to separate us from accountability failed we developed those brotherhood accountability bonds which have lead to true appreciation and love with some compassion thrown in.
Quit on! Oh yea I'm glad the Mrs. Returned home finding you still having honor.

[Mthomas3824]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.

:wub:

Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR

Every damn day brother!!!

Man of course I know you know this but you've got this quit. I know you do. Thanks for all of your support for us lowly tobacco and alky addicts today!! Hang in there man!!!!

The cravings are gone and my quit is simple again. I passed yet another test and hate nicotine more than ever!!!!!

So glad I have the freedom to chose vs being shackled by a bully and submitting to her call.

Now with a few notches on my belt, I can say from experience....the burden of being quit is sooooo much simpler and easier than the burden of feeding my addiction.

Thanks for the support. Sometimes you give and sometimes you take from this site. Either way, you become a stronger, wiser, and more humble quitter.

With a KTC record of 748 wins to 0 losses, KTC can take a weak man and empower him with a power and strength to go undefeated!

Thanks for the support. I am happy to be quit and I don't hate you guys anymore.
'winker'

[Doc2quit4good]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.

:wub:

Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR

Every damn day brother!!!

Man of course I know you know this but you've got this quit. I know you do. Thanks for all of your support for us lowly tobacco and alky addicts today!! Hang in there man!!!!

[RAZD611]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.

:wub:

Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR

Every damn day brother!!!

[Emulator]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.

:wub:

Someday I hope I can be half as ghey as you guys. QLF ODAAT NAFAR

[Nolaq]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.

:wub:

[Its_Got2Happen]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

Preach it brotha Mark. Good stuff man.

[Wt57]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

I knew I should have stopped by yesterday to see you. Probably would have if it weren't raining so hard. We decided to head home early. It's good that your sister is giving you good advise.

[Roamcountry]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.   'Crazy'   My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?   'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.   'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!  

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.   'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

'Finger' you too bro! :wub:

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy.  Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun.  I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related. 

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated.  Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit. 

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal.  I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing.  I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving.  I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave.  (request denied)  they get me laughing and the crave retreats. 

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything.  It would be easier to track.  'Crazy'  My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight.  She said, "did you promise today".  I answered yes.  Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow."  Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess.  Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today. 

Woke up today and texted the gheys.  Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment.  Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar.  A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved?  'Crazy'  Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit.  Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work. 

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place.  'bang head'  Well, it does get easier but it never ends.  You must treat your addiction everyday. 

If there are any 100+ day quitters.  Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine")  Those thoughts are absolute bullshit!  Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison.  Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe.  You are not in control of craving.  You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic.  If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave.  I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret. 

I know I would regret it.  So today I already made the choice to quit.  We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day. 

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood.  I am weak but the weak don't cave.  The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit. 

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day! 

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit.  Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow.  'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.

Good stuff as always.

[brettlees]

744 days Quit

Man for the longest time my quit has been easy. Even the last 140 days of sobriety have been, well surprising and just fun. I didn't miss anything nicotine or alcohol related.

I still posted roll because I was resolved to the truth that the illness of addiction can not be cured but only treated. Posting roll was my daily application to stay quit.

Wife flies to Arizona yesterday so the cats away...this mouse naturally thinks its time to play.

Without warning, my mind began to justify a bottle of whiskey and a can of skoal. I did entertain how nice it would be to retreat into my man cave and play banjo while drinking and chewing. I needed to get it out of my mind and dismiss these thoughts...

This was a powerful craving. I text the, "stay ghey" group....Tell them that I am really craving and ask for permission to cave. (request denied) they get me laughing and the crave retreats.

I thought that if I caved, I would post day 1 on everything. It would be easier to track. 'Crazy' My sister called and I told her that my head wasn't on straight. She said, "did you promise today". I answered yes. Sister: "Well be a man of your word today and see how you feel tomorrow." Damn I knew that but just needed to hear it, I guess. Plus my wife isn't back until Sunday so just keep your word today; you still have Thur, Friday and Saturday if you feel so inclined but don't break your promise today.

Woke up today and texted the gheys. Made a promise to quit and started my daily treatment. Stop of at 7'11 and walk past a guy right out front smoking a cigar. A shitty stinky ugly cigar, being smoked by an addict who probably hasn't showered all week....and yet I craved? 'Crazy' Took a deep breath, thought, "its all a lie and stay true to the quit. Stay Ghey Mark, Stay Ghey!"... drove away and posted on KTC the second I came into work.

I was so mad at myself for being slow to remember and quick to forget why I wanted to quit in the first place. 'bang head' Well, it does get easier but it never ends. You must treat your addiction everyday.

If there are any 100+ day quitters. Your quit has become easy and the only time you think about dipping is when you post roll. (You start thinking, "if I don't post roll, I wont ever think about nicotine") Those thoughts are absolute bullshit! Nicotine craves are stored in memory as a pleasure not a poison. Your subconscious will put those thoughts in your brain and bypass your frontal lobe. You are not in control of craving. You can only respond or react to the crave. You must make the promise daily so that you are on guard for the subconscious and prevent it from overpowering your logic. If you don't, that sneaky bitch is going to rationalize a cave. I am 744 days into my quit and without posting roll, I would not have protection or the reminder to give it a day before doing anything I would regret.

I know I would regret it. So today I already made the choice to quit. We'll see how I feel tomorrow but now its time to go about my day.

I would cave if I didn't have the accountability of the brotherhood. I am weak but the weak don't cave. The foolish cave like a dog lapping up their own vomit.

I AM QUIT AND SOBER March 27th, 2014 all damn day!

KTC Sucks ass today but I am going to love you guys tomorrow for helping me stay quit. Until then, GO TO HELL....Friends...Dicks today, Badasses tomorrow. 'Finger'

Quit on man! thanks for posting, to keep us alert to the threats. Stay ghey and quit.