Let's update this. On August 27th you posted 184 Days and left without a word. Today, you returned and informed your group that in January you caved due to a horrible personal situation. The translation is that despite everyone telling each other that we are never cured, you thought you were. Then, while disconnected from the group, you got run over by something that was unexpected and devastating. Had you still been plugged in or reached out in any way, I have no doubt you would be just shy of 400 days today. Instead, you've been fully back into the can and aren't ready to quit. There is never a better time to quit than right now.