Hey Bleek-
Just came across your posts and wanted to add my support as well. I am about 75 days ahead of you and although I have stopped dipping the fake shit at home (for me its Hooch. Spitfire and Wintergreen do the trick), I still keep a fake dip in my lip a good portion of the day. Old oral habits die hard I guess but as long as its not NIC, who the fuck cares? And to answer your first posted question on here, as you probably now know, as long as you post every day, embrace the integrity of your quit and respect your quit brothers, the fake stuff will only help your quit until you don't need it anymore.
Like you, I too was what we call here a "ninja dipper". I dipped for about 13 years and was going through about 2 cans a day of Skoal before I finally quit. My kids knew nothing and I'm pretty sure my wife only knew that I occasionally dipped years ago and then stopped even that. I too was able to dip almost all day at work and then would spend half the night in my home office dipping after the wife and kids went to sleep. Pretty fucked up when you think about how much we have kept from the person who is supposed to be our life partner and how many ways we were willing to alter our lives just to get that time to dip by ourselves. I still haven't told her about my addiction (or my quit) but plan to do so in about 15 days when I make my first 100 day mark.
Long story short, like many of the others here, I know only too well where you have been, what you are going through and what the next few months has in store. The cravings are gone and I'm spendning a lot more time with my wife and kids since I don't have to find excuses to stay away from them or skip activities in order to get that one more dip going.
If you need any support or want a number to text or call just in case, PM me and let me know and congrats on making it through the first 10 days.
Kidb
